She was just an afterthought because he was desperate for a date by then. Any reasonably attractive enough girl would have done at that point. He was hot for Brandi and had been working on her trying to establish a returned interest on her part. So, he was afraid of the rejection if he’d asked her himself and she turned him down personally but also his reaction to it would be a wildcard. Having someone else ask for him was like a buffer but it stung all the same since he watched her decline from a distance which was a bit humiliating. He took it very personally and the hurt turned into cold anger.
Do you know of a place where i could read dylans complete journal? I know of a few websites, but i don’t understand dylan’s handwriting, so i was wondering maybe for a link where his journal is like transcripted or something.
Absolutely. I realize not everyone can read in Dylan font ® . haha If you go to the main page of my blog in your browser, it’s listed as Existences [translated].
I read an article that stated the boys liked to play paintball at Rampart Range. Is that accurate or is that what they told people while they were actually practicing with their guns?
They did like to play paintball but I’m not so sure they did so at Rampart Range. I get the feeling the first time they’d ever been there is with Mark Manes and Phil Duran. The boys liked to go up in the mountains, drink, and party and they probably played a bit of random paintball there (that is, if a friend owned and brought the PB guns along) as well as at the many actual paintball places available in the local area such as those which existed in the late nineties: Blitz Paintball, Paintball Adventurers, American Paintball Coliseum in downtown Denver and a possible splurge of traveling down to Colorado Springs for Dragonmans which was also a gun shooting range.
And I’m sure they did use paintball playing as their sort of ‘code alibi’ for not so close friends. Eric probably used this excuse for his parents when he went a handful of times for target practice at RR – that is, if his parents even asked where he was going on the weekend… Dylan’s excuse for his mom was that “he and some friends were going to the mountains to do an assignment for his video production class.”
Is this your only blog?
No, it’s not. 🙂
i think brooks brown lied about all this eric and his last dialoguo on 20th april. he just wanted to be cool so he made up all this things. i dont think eric forgive last minute i mean come on
I addressed this before here. As for Eric, first of all, he and Brooks made up the second semester of Senior year so I think we could say that his strong desire to kill Brooks wasn’t a top priority anymore. But regardless of whether Brooks and Eric came across one another on campus before NBK or even if there was a verbal exchange like the one Brooks maintains: Eric would not have killed him right then and there in the parking lot for the simple fact that he had a much larger agenda to conduct and it wasn’t planned to start until after 11 am during A lunch. If he took the personal liberty to start shooting any student/s before planned, it would’ve attracted attention and ruined his carefully constructed plans. If we can believe what Brooks claims Eric said, it would make a bit of sense seeing how Brooks was badgering and berating him for not showing up for his final Chinese philosophy test. Eric’s response demonstrates mild but slightly amused irritation “I like you now” but keeping his eye firmly on the prize on his mission “it doesn’t matter anymore. get out of here, go home.” Dude had bigger fish to fry and his past arguments with Brooks now seemed petty and insignificant compared to what he had in store for the world.
Hey we have the same name! Haven’t seen too many Madelyn’s on here before :)
Madelyn. That’s my name, too! But it’s spelled Madeline. (Unless I’m wrong again lol)
Cool! We’re a rarity. 🙂 Yeah, there are several ways to spell it (Madeline being perhaps the most popular) but this spelling is still a bit more unusual. Our problem is that we usually can’t find our particular name on a key chain or coffee mug at the store. That was rather annoying at Harry Potter World. lol
In what context did Dylan tell Eric “Jesus, you’re on a role!” during the basement tapes?
You can listen to Dylan actually comment like he’s stepping back and taking it all in how much of a nasty soapbox rant Eric is on. Then he chimes in rejoining with something even more nasty to top his friend. They were playing off each other and amusing the hell out of themselves along the way.
Was Dylan a slow walker
Well, you certainly have asked this question multiple times now haven’t you? 😉
No, I don’t think so. In general, Dylan could book it pretty fast and he was rather bouncy too when in a casual, comfortable setting. Obviously, in certain situations at school, he’d have to slow his pace while in the confines of a classroom or in the hallway among a massive crowd of students milling about on the way to their classes and walking with Robyn to class. The dude had some long ass legs and so his gait was wide by nature and in just taking one step it was like 2- 3 for an average height person. At school, Dylan probably was feeling uncomfortably skittish and on guard a fair amount of the time internally, so I tend to think he’d pump up his physical height and presence to overcompensate and make himself appear more intimidating and confident by way of his trenchcoat and also the stride of his pace while walking alone or with the dude friends. It gave off that vibe of ‘don’t reckon with me’. As Marjorie Lindholm described of him here (probably walking by himself in the hallway) he walked near the wall away from others in an avoiding sort of manner.
Why do you think Eric liked flyleaf?? totally does not sound like a band he would be into
Because he didn’t? However, Eric owned an album by the band ‘Fly’ entitled Bombthreat Before She Blows’. Flyleaf wrote the song for the victim “Cassie” (Bernall) after Columbine.
it’s nice to know your name at last, Madelyn. thank you for your blog – I read it everyday. Have the gun laws not changed at all since Columbine?
Congratulations and thank you! it means a lot. 🙂
The gun laws have changed minutely. In the year after the shooting at Columbine, 800 gun bills were introduced around the country, according to Popular Science Magazine. Less than 10 percent passed.
Some promoted gun control—for example, beefing up background checks—while others promoted gun ownership rights—for example, protecting the rights of gun owners who cross state lines with weapons. About 10 percent of those bills passed. One of the failed efforts included a federal bill to close the gun show loophole, which allows unlicensed dealers to sell guns without background checks.
Lawmaking efforts after the mass shooting at Virginia Tech, which remains the U.S.’s most deadly, were more fruitful. President George W. Bush signed legislation improving the National Instant Criminal Background Check System and providing states with funding to improve their own firearms reporting systems. However, 24 states have since added fewer than 100 mental health records to the National Instant Criminal Background Check System. The system contains only about half the number of records that experts expected.
The Sandy Hook shooting was not included in the study, but it had a similar pattern to Columbine: In the first 75 days after the shooting, politicians introduced 24 pieces of gun control legislation. All failed except for one, which required the registration of assault weapons and limited the number of bullets in magazines in New York State.
It turns out each shooting beginning with Columbine and thereafter prompted a flurry of proposed legislation, but often, only a small number of such bills passed.
Madylyn
Hint: One Y’ and an ‘E’ 😏
An influence to people nowadays, who do you think people would most likely look up too? (sorry I wasn’t clear at all with the last question😫)
I’d say that’s even steven for both. But, of course, neither really deserve to be ‘looked up to.’ Yikes. I recall that a few wannabe mass shooters in recent years that were busted tend to mention that Eric was their main source of inspiration for the fact that they identify with him through his journal the most. John LaDue is a good example. He said “I just think I see myself in him” (Eric). I’m sure there are some for Dylan too. I know that James Gamble identified more with Dylan even though he presented a front similar to Eric. Not really sure what you mean by ‘positive’ but in my own personal relating to Dylan, I try to find and spin the positive by way of the lessons learned from his very permanent negative. ☺️ I hope that helps answer your question somewhat. lol.
Ok, so, I still think it’s fucked up that once Brooks got himself a tumblr the first thing people did was repeat Eric’s last words to him asking him to leave here. I know it happened a long time ago, but I think it’s messed up the columbine community would do that :/
I sort of see it as a twisted prophetic warning. The very fact that Brooks would even think to tread into Tumblr land and find something positive out of the experience is twisted in itself. Why else would he come to such a community that is mostly made up of young gen (that are interested in Columbine and have read his book) except to garner some self masturbatory ego aggrandizement – especially considering how he always claims he wants to stop talking about Columbine. So, it was sort of a “Abandon hope ye who enter here” when someone quoted Eric at him “Brooks, we like you now. Get out of here, go home.” (Which, btw he took in good humor and thought it witty.) His ‘celebrity’ stunt literally backfired on him in just a matter of few days (he didn’t even last a full week or two) and we found out some very twisted shit about him. Our mouths were literally a gap over it. I know mine sure was.
Tbh, I could see Eric totally laughing over ego tripping Brooks getting his ass scorched by a bunch of young chicks on Tumblr and ever so quietly fleeing here and then sealing up all his social media. He should’ve heeded that warning from the get go and “gone home” because there was honestly no good reason for him to be here in the first place. If he’s so tired of Columbine than he shouldn’t seek public attention. He opened the floor for Q/A and but of course, people wanted to discuss Columbine with him and he was snide and resistant about it the entire way. But honestly, what the fuck did he expect here on Tumblr with the young gen in the TCC? Duh. Geeaaawd..
I’m so lazy lol I couldn’t be bothered to unscramble Dylan My and so I’ve just settled for Madylan
Well, you were very close. Haha 😏
I was tagged by @pure-bliss-and-halcyons and @dylthegoldenboy
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“In retrospect Sandy Hook marked the end of the US gun control debate. Once America decided killing children was bearable, it was over.” -Dan Hodges
Sadly, this.^^

The quiet observer is observing.
The whole debate started when he shared a picture on FB with a bunch of pictures of mass shooters saying they all have one thing in common and that’s that they all were on psychotropic drugs and that no one is calling for a ban on prescriptions. D&E were on the list, Eric because he atually was on meds and Dylan because he’s just being lumped in because he was partnered with Eric for the shooting. And this guy is 100% a conspiracy theorist, like that is all he shares on Facebook ever…..
….he hasn’t gotten back to me yet so I’m just gonna assume he was proven wrong and has nothing else to say about it 😂😂
I figured, yeah….
Though, it doesn’t help when there are misinformed articles like this one from 2011 with Michael Moore’s name attached to it stating:
“Harris was on the antidepressant Luvox. Klebold’s medical records remain sealed.”
I know this blog is Dylan-centric, but I was just wondering: do you think Kathy grew up in a misogynistic environment?
No, I wouldn’t say that because misogynistic tends to imply reflecting or exhibiting hatred, dislike, mistrust, or mistreatment of women. It’s more like Kathy grew up with those 1950s old-school, conservative values and in a culture that is founded on a hierarchical structure that the woman is important yet in a subordinate role alongside her man, boyfriend, husband. This doesn’t at all necessarily mean that women are hated or mistreated only that she defers to the man to shoulder responsibilities. (Though some men are just misogynistic on top of all of that.) Kathy clearly knows her place and stands by her husband, a strong military man, as his wife. The man of the household has a defined role as the main provider – but she has also provided too working for a catering company. He takes care of his family and is captain of his household and the wife’s primary role of importance is being the homemaker and taking care of her children and her husband. She supports him by standing by him and being in support of his wishes. This is why Kathy would never choose to speak up about Eric on her own as Sue has chosen to do regardless of her husband’s opposing wishes. Kathy is not her own person, she is Wayne’s wife first and foremost regardless of her own personal wishes. She puts the Harris family first. To women today, this may seem very misogynistic by today’s standards. However, this is how the culture was for most men and women for many decades from 1950s prior. The 1960s began to create more of a change for women. Obviously, Sue and Tom grew up in a more liberal, open-minded area that embraced women as important in their own right and not in strong identification with men.
what’s the deal with rachel’s brother saying that rachel “wrote a prayer for one of the shooters”? he said this in an interview somewhere and it’s on rachel’s wikipedia page
*blinks* I would ask what the deal is with that too.
In this July 22, 2002 CBS (Christian Broadcasting Network 700 Club) article, the interviewer seems to suggest it in their question to Craig, but in response, Craig interestingly doesn’t properly address it nor elaborate on this specifically. He just gives a general answer and mentions the Thirteen Tears drawing she created before the shooting.
GORDON ROBERTSON: One of the bullets actually went through a journal she had. There is a bullet hole in it. She had that journal with her. In the journal was a prayer for one of the boys who killed her. What was she praying for?
CRAIG SCOTT: Rachel had a mission in Columbine, and that was to reach out to the unreached. She had that journal as well as another journal in her backpack, which included a powerful drawing that she drew. I believe it was also prophetic.
Looks like this was added to Rachel’s Wikipedia page (footnote referencing the article above (20)) without any additional information or the actual prayer written by her:
“On one occasion, this included writing a prayer for one of the perpetrators of the Columbine High School massacre.”
Another Wikipedia Footnote (21) references The Journals of Rachel Scott: A Journey of Faith at Columbine High p. 27. I looked at the page of that book (which I own) and it just talks about Rachel’s open style of praying to God. No mentioning of any prayer specifically to either “boy who killed her”.
I do not recall the Scotts having volunteered any information that Rachel wrote a prayer meant for either Dylan or Eric before she became their victim. You would think that would be a pretty profound selection of her writings to showcase to the public too if she’d done so. I’m going to include @racheljoyscott in on this and see if she can help shed some light. Maybe I’m still waking up here this morning lol but I’m coming up short on this one. But I do think I surely would’ve remembered something like this because, well, I would’ve made a post on it! 😉
