Yes, the Ever-lasting contrast. Since existence has known, the 'fight' between good & evil has continued. Obviously, this fight can never end. Good things turn bad, bad things become good. My fav. contrasting symbol, because it is so true & means so much – the battle between good & bad never ends… Here we ponder on the tragedy of Dylan Klebold.
No, I don’t think he would’ve had any rigid hangups with that sort of thing. His friend Devon turned out to be bisexual and Alex Marsh turned out lesbian. Of course, all of that sexual identity stuff is what teens are questioning secretly in high school.. especially in the 90s. I don’t think he’d really want to know the personal details but he would treat you as a friend all the same. And for the simple fact that he knew how it hurt to be ostracized amongst peers. Eric said things that indicated he was homophobic and questioned whether that was ‘normal’.
A crash course in Dylan’s self-created vocabulary with definitions 🙂
The Halcyons / Halcyon – A heavenly paradise in plural form of an entire spiritual realm ‘Halcyons’ made of up an infinite, collective of varying individual heavenly realms (i.e. ‘Our Halcyon’) each personally created/invoked/generated by an individual’s thoughts, imagination, will and intent – as a ‘god’ would create or invent his/her own ‘heaven’ through his mind’s eye.
“The everything, the halcyon, the happiness is ours”
“The happiness is close visible ending, end of the beginning of the halcyons”
“Soon we will live in the halcyons of our minds, the one thing that made me a god.”
The Everything – Seeing, experiencing, and existing within the expanded frame of consciousness of the all encompassing, vast multi-verses. The blissful ‘big picture’ true, pure reality that is the universe in it’s entirety beyond the fake realities/existences that are part of the this limited dimension here on earth. Spirit is of The Everything too.
“Not a physical barrier
blocking the limits of exploration, time thru thought thru dimensions … the everything is
his realm.”
“Amazingly, the petty things mean much to him at this time, how he wants to be normal,
not this transceiver of the everything.”
infinince – forever-ness, infinity x itself
“I, who write this, love you beyond infinince”
martyrism – a state of suffering, akin to martyrdom
“martyrism is hope for others”
“advantages taken are causes of martyrism”
Tormentations – a state of torment in plural form in reaction to a variety of others’ successes
“others’ achievements are tormentations”
Perceivations – a collective group idea of perceiving/perceptions
“My infinite memories, thoughts, perceivations of purity come a lot more with her..”
Yes, he had this one, see here (and preferably cat hair free 😉 ). I feel like he also owned Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness and maybe Siamese Dream t-shirts. I don’t think Dylan gave a rats ass as to whether Eric approved of his shirt selections. Afterall, he wore plenty of The Chemical Bros t-shirts (and Dj Spooky too) and Eric wasn’t into them at all.
“Lockdown” tactics were developed in the late 1970’s in Southern California. But a more accurate description of the tactic would be “secure in place.” Lockdown was developed in response to drive-by shootings and street level crime occurring outside of school buildings. The district had perimeter fencing, the building would be “locked down” and Law Enforcement Officers employed by the school district, who were already within the perimeter, would deal with the incident along with other arriving outside agency officers. Eventually, with the school shootings that began to occur in the nineties culminating with the seige of Columbine, the drill was modified to lockdown a campus for an active shooter/ threat both outside and inside the school premises. A lockdown drill as they are conducted today with students and staff participating as they would for a fire drill, wouldn’t have been a normal procedural thing pre-Columbine.
I certainly feel as though physical contact and affection with someone who cared about Dylan would’ve helped ground that tendency he had to stay up in his head and live imprisoned inside his mind like a strange, intellectual alien feeling like he didn’t fit in anywhere in humanity. As he grew older, he distanced from mom and dad so the familial affection he used to both give and receive as a small boy had become fleeting, and of course, no longer desirable as a disengaging, self-sufficient teenager. But he still craved connection with another human being that was on a deeper level and he equated this with the concept of ‘love’ which he felt was completely absent in his life. Don’t get me wrong, physical touch wouldn’t have healed him whole but it would’ve been helpful in healing him in a nurturing, reconnecting sort of way. Providing commune in the physical realm rather than where he’d automatically tend to go ‘out there’ all caught up inside his headspace in his never-ending El Thoughtzos. When he thought of being with a girlfriend, he thought of simple things such as just ‘laying there’ and ‘cuddling’. He wanted that fundamental physical body connection like someone thirsty for water far more so than any typical teenage dude desiring mere sexual gratification. He simply needed the most basic forms of physical affections – to just be hugged for an extended period of time, to cuddle with limbs entwined (..but nothing beyond that), holding and stroking of hands or having his back rubbed or massaged. In addition to touch therapy, he needed someone he could feel safe confiding in so that he could unload his thoughts and to have someone he felt close to be that silent, receptive, non-judgmental sounding board. He was like a balloon drifting off in the remote distance of space that needed to be tugged down by way of physical touch and to share and commune connectedly with another human being.
I’d say she flat out turned him down in front of others and laughed in awkward shock and disbelief while doing so. Others might have laughed in reaction to her reaction. Speculation here as we don’t know how it actually went down.
Yeah, I’d say so..especially when he got to bed super late and was sleep deprived or when he had a bad cold and a very stuffed up schnoz or after having konked out from drinking too much. Open mouth, loud-ass snoring. lol
The Everlasting Contrast 