I’ve seen that discussion floating around on Tumblr. But I feel it’s rather important to read it within the context of her story and not just by itself to fully understand her considering/clinging to such conspiracy theory type things. Perhaps I’ll post the audio of her reading it too as well because you can glean so much more by way of her voice inflection. 

CHAPTER 10 The End of Denial

“Right now all I want to do is die. Tom keeps saying he wishes he had never been born. Dylan was so loved, but he didn’t feel loved. I don’t think he loved anyone or anything. How did it happen? I didn’t know the boy I saw [on those
tapes] today. My relationship with Dylan in my head and heart has changed.”—Journal entry, October 1999

“In October, six months after Columbine, the sheriff’s department agreed to share the evidence they’d collected. They invited Tom and me to come in for a presentation of the material. My reaction to this news was complicated. After months of speculation and rumor and misinformation, it was a relief to know we would finally have the truth. At the same time (and for the same reason), I was petrified. As I wrote the week before: The meeting will take more courage than I can muster. I can only have my own little construct of what really happened until

I speak with the investigators. I don’t want them to destroy the Dylan I am holding on to in my mind.

Two days before we were scheduled to go in, Gary Lozow called. The sheriff’s department had told him they would be presenting video evidence as part of their report, and wanted to warn us that seeing it might well be “more painful than April twentieth.”

Gary assumed they were referring to surveillance tape. Tom said he’d refuse to watch footage of the massacre. I couldn’t believe we were even discussing such a thing. If I had to see Dylan killing people, I’d go mad.

The night before the meeting, Tom and I compiled a list of questions. We were still convinced that Dylan had either been a reluctant participant or accidentally become entangled in something bigger than he understood at the time. We’d heard a rumor that military training materials on brainwashing techniques had been found in the Harris home, which had refueled our belief that Dylan had been another victim of the tragedy. It was plausible; Mr. Harris did have a military background. I entertained fantasies that we’d be able to hold public memorial service.

But that was only a moment. I was coming to understand how fragile a construct we had created. Denial had been a necessary—indeed, perhaps a lifesaving—defense mechanism for me. As time went on, though, it was becoming more difficult to sustain. Much of what was reported in the media was wrong, which reinforced our skepticism. But we knew that Dylan had participated in the purchase of guns, and there were many credible eyewitness reports of Dylan shooting kids, and of the hateful things he’d said. The cracks in my cobbled-together belief system were beginning to widen. As I suspected, the meeting at the sheriff’s office would blow them wide open.”

“Today is really like the end of my life as I knew it before. If I learn horrible things tomorrow that I must carry with me from now on, I will look back on today and remember it as the end of a better time. We worked on our questions tonight. Byron gave me a long hug to help me face tomorrow. I hope tomorrow does not destroy the memory of the boy I loved. I don’t know what this video is they want us to see.” —Journal entry, October 1999

– Sue Klebold “A Mother’s Reckoning”

Yeah, Robyn seems kind of calmly detached like she’s going through the motions of the interview. That ‘rude interviewer’ is basically the way Diane Sawyer poses questions interrogates people.  Sue was dealt the same sort of insinuating type questions as well on 20/20 with her very first interview Feb 2016.(I always felt like Oprah would’ve done 100 times a better job of interviewing Sue for her emotional intelligence and empathic compassionate style. You can also bet we wouldn’t .known more inside scoop, personal anecdotes about Dylan with Sue had Oprah been the interviewer.)  Diane Sawyer has always been kind of a cold bitch asking pointed questions.  I spoke a bit more about my feeling on Robyn’s interview here.  

The duo thing is rare. Generally, pairings aren’t always on the same page nor as loyal. to a fault.  In any case, if anything comes along, it’ll never be quite the likes of these two. And I’d wager they’ll be trying to model themselves after E & D and pretentiously so.  I think Eric and Dylan are a one time deal that happened at the right-wrong certain point in history which made a well, what else can I say here? except ‘lasting impression on the world’. 

I think their ordinary-ness, their dorky, flawed relatability in attempting to be individualistic yet at the same time, not pretentiously so, is what sort of makes them seem ‘cool’ – even though what they ended up doing SO not makes them cool.   If they felt like outsider geeks while alive they are eternally on the outside now.  They damned themselves from this world forever.

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That was only a rough draft of their schedule but ultimately the car bombs ended up being set to go off at noon. Setting the car bombs off only one minute after the cafeteria bombs wouldn’t have killed cops and first responders as they wouldn’t have even been on the scene just yet. I’m sure they revised their plans a few times and refined them even just the night before by phone.

Given the timing of these bombs, it makes perfect sense as to why they returned to the library around noon and went to its expansive windows waiting for the show to go down with a sweet, perfect view. They were hoping that their car bombs would explode but instead? yet another massive flop and so it ended up becoming a shootout with the cops just down below. Followed by their suicide around 8 minutes after that.

While waiting for the show they were hoping for outside as eaches car had two 20 propane tank bombs that were also overdue to explode and take out cops and first responders. But yeah, they were also very much making a very concerted effort to get the failed bombs to blow in the cafeteria to the point of obsession for Eric most especially. 

Yes, Eric and Dylan had been editing the full footage in video production class and boasting/showing it to others while doing it.

Anonymous said:Why didn’t eric shoot his carbine at rampart

Eric did shoot his high point 9 mm carbine at Rampart Range. He shot his carbine in a squatting position in 2:08.  This is the position he was in while exchanging fire with the CHS Security Resource Officer Neil Gardner.