did dylan create wad files on doom

Dylan did create Doom wad files but he would also delete them on occasion (mentioned in ‘97 in his journal) when he felt his life couldn’t get any worse and so he needed to bargain with god ‘the controller of shit’ to turn things around for him. Poor dude.. He also deleted his PC before 4/20 so any wads that he had built since then were wiped with everything else on the machine.

Dylan was a gorgeous creature. Such a shame that the culture at Columbine did not allow his looks to be accepted. In any other country such as those in Latin America, Brazil or Europe, his good looks would have been so highly regarded.

Sadly true.  Differing cultural standards of ideal handsomeness is in the eye of the beholder. Tall and blonde is generally a desirable norm globally but Dylan was also lanky (both long waisted and also long legs), not muscular and had unconventional features such as his strong chin/jaw line and dominant, broad nose – an automatic exclusion from the homogenized standards that fit the suburban american jock cookie-cutter athletic ‘norm’ of Columbine High. 

I thought about Dyl’s interest for goa/psy trance. Do you think he would’ve gone to a trance festival if someone invited him? :)

Are you kidding me? Mr. Cyber Techno Hippy would’ve gotten over his awkwardness in 2.5 seconds and caved at the opportunity of crashing a trance fest. Trippin’ on a little ecstacy or ‘srhooms would’ve induced some 5th dimensional bliss in addition to the pulsing hypno beat and yeah, you’d be seeing the real, true and pure Mr.Klebolt. 😉   Short answer, YESss!   This music is..was his true element and vibe. Sorry dudes, Rammstein and KMFDM were just his cover with The Reb.  😏

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Ok,a couple of questions: when did Eric say something about the smashing pumpkins,and also,in the morning ritual,what was hanging around Dylan’s mirror? There was something hanging around it. Thanks!

Eric refers to the Smashing Pumpkins on his website: 

“soon i’ll receive complaints about the gnashing bumpkins….”  

The thing hanging down from his rear view mirror is supposedly the swamp man toy that spurted water out the mouth if you pressed the stomach, according to Devon. However, in the Morning Ritual vid, it looks a bit like a small wreath but it’s entirely possible from the angle of the video camera we’re just not able to make out Mr.swamp man. (I’ll add a snapshot of it in a later post.)

In Dylan’s journals when he talks about his “love,” he almost makes it seem as though they would only be happy in death. Such as the line,”the zombies were a test….” Is there a possibility he would have wanted his “love” to die with him to be “free?” The song Join Me in Death by HIM reminds me so much of how Dylan felt. That song is so beautiful, and lyrically remiscent of Dylan.

Answered before here: We are in wait of our reward, each other. The zombies will never cause us pain anymore. The humanity was a test. I love you, love.

Thanks for song mention it’s very befitting.. 🙂   A song I have on my blog playlist, Desert Garden by Vast, reminds me of Dylan’s melancholic weariness, longing to escape and be free from humanity into the Halcyon ‘reward’ with his lady love. 

Desert Garden – Vast

Do you feel like I do, tired of everything

Can you feel what I can, almost everything
I wanna leave today…
The sky is big and my life is small
I wanna leave with you so we can build a perfect garden
The stars are far away, I can see them with my eyes
I watch them burn away, like the moments of my life
I wanna leave today…
The sky is big and my life is small
I wanna leave with you, so we can build a Desert Garden
The stars are far away, I can see them with my eyes
I watch them fade away, like the moments of my life
Strange how the house is there exactly all the same
And your just a slave like me; at least I know it’s true
I wanna leave today…
The sky is big and my life is small
I wanna leave with you so we can build a Desert Garden
The stars are far away, I can see them in my eyes
We watch them fade away, like the moments of my life…

I’ve read No Easy Answers and the Jeff Kass book, are there any other good Columbine books I should read?

everlasting-contrast:

Honestly, those are the two best books we have right now, imo.

There’s another decent, thought provoking book by dutch author Tim Krabbé called “We Are But We Aren’t Psycho” that I’ve seen english excerpts of and it too is a very good book but unfortunately, has not been fully translated into the English language as of yet. 😦 The lovely and talented thedragonrampant was kind enough to translate a few choice excerpts from this book here.

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Here  or Here or Here

If columbine never occurred and Dylan attend the University of Arizona and crossed paths with Kourtney K do you think he would have wanted to date her or girls like her or at least thought she was attractive? I cannot picture them having the same type of friends though since she was popular and involved in a sorority and most likely hung out with the preppy and popular frat brothers. Dylan on the other hand wouldn’t be keen on joining a fraternity and would have stuck with the shy computer kids.

Ah, no.

So, I’ve been thinking of getting a tattoo in the very near future of either the the everlasting contrast. Or two of the hearts that Dylan wrote in his journal. I want either one of them because I really identify with Dylan, I’ve felt some things that he felt. And I’m at a point in my life where I wanna move on from those feelings. So, I kinda wanna get it to remind myself how far I’ve come, and the constant fight for myself. I’m always fighting. Idk, just thought I’d ask what the everlasting-

The Everlasting Contrast represents to Dylan..

The plans and how these boys planned the massacre always fascinates me. It’s quite surreal.

Mmhm. Definitely fascinates the lot of us and keeps us coming back for more. They were a one of a kind teenage dyad that dreamed and set in motion an unfathomable, destructive plot in a still somewhat-innocent, ripe time period where it could easily be executed and right under everyones’ noses in broad daylight. What they did then in 1999 can no longer be done today with the same impact and all in part because of them. 😉

I’ve read No Easy Answers and the Jeff Kass book, are there any other good Columbine books I should read?

Honestly, those are the two best books we have right now, imo.

There’s another decent, thought provoking book by dutch author Tim Krabbé called “We Are But We Aren’t Psycho” that I’ve seen english excerpts of and it too is a very good book but unfortunately, has not been fully translated into the English language as of yet. 😦 The lovely and talented thedragonrampant was kind enough to translate a few choice excerpts from this book here.

What things do you imagine Eric and Dylan fought about? Like having arguments and such..

No major real fighting but annoying one another type nit picking stuff. Just the typical mundane crap; fighting like they’re an old married couple annoyed with one another’s usual traits and whining back and forth at each other. Eric getting pissed at Dyl eating stuff off his plate (after he finished his own) like stealing one too many french fries and waffling it down. Dyl leaving shit laying around at Eric’s house after a sleep over and Eric annoyed that stuff needs to be pickup and put back into order for his parents. Eric being pissy and moody at Dyl for spending too much time lately smoking cigarettes with Brooks and not him…or Zach..or Nate.. whoever Eric disliked at the moment. Dyl getting annoyed at Reb for nudging him just a tad too much to go say ‘hi’ or make a move with girls he knows Dyl has a crush on, and Dyl getting flustered, embarrassed, agitated and pissy because he only wants to do that on his own terms when he’s ready to. That umpteenth time they went to see Tobin at “All Wound Up” and Reb is bugging the fuck out of Dyl “just go up to the counter V and make a move already, ‘GAAWD!’.” Dyl getting maxed out and fed up with Eric telling him what to do, how to do it, and oh yes, to “shut up, Dylan!” acerbically yelling that to him in front of a bunch of peers and girls. Eric being a tad too merciless picking on certain girls and Dyl telling him to stop already, shaking his head. Like that time Eric relished making fun of Jennifer Harmon trying to sing a Rammstein song ‘like a dork’ or when Eric went ballistic on the girl that accidentally ran into Dylan’s car and was in tears, apologizing for it. Dylan being so fed up with Reb so just point-blank calmly orders him to “get in the car”. Eric making fun of Dyl’s music tastes with the ‘emo gnashing bumpkins’ and let’s not even go into Chemical Bros. A cold-war silent treatment did happen briefly between the boys as accounted by Blackjack manager Jason Secor.

What did dylan have around his wrists in the picture of him and eric dead was it bracelets

Those silvery gray ‘bracelets’ were functional match strikers which the boys’ ingeniously cut from the side of a box of matches and taped together with silvery grey electrical tape, each bracelet had two strikers. They could easily light the fuses of their pipe bombs and other incendiaries in a very consistently accessible manner. In the boys’ usual symbolically contrasting yin/yang, aesthetic, Dylan being left-handed, wore his striker bracelet on his right wrist and Eric being right handed wore his striker on his left wrist.  The ingenuity of their amateur invention was considered ingenious by the authorities.

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Below: match striking strips cut from the side of a match boxes.

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