Sue Klebold Podcast w/ John O’Leary S7E73

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On this anniversary I thought I would share Sue’s podcast from March.

“This process of accepting that your loved one has hurt other people. And accepting who that is and what it means to be a mother of someone like that, it takes not only months but years.”

Sue Klebold is forever tied to a tragic day marked down in American history, April 20, 1999. It was on that day two gunmen entered Columbine High School and killed 12 students, a teacher and wounded two dozen others. One of the shooters was her son, Dylan.

After an excruciating journey, Sue has come to a place of peace and is using her life to honor the lives of those who died, raise awareness for mental health issues and do what she could to prevent another tragedy like Columbine from happening again.

Sue shares her story of a mother’s love, heart-wrenching tragedy, sincere appeal for forgiveness, the long process of allowing herself to grieve, and letting go of the trauma of being hated, criticized and judged in order to focus on her heart, and the little boy she lost and adored.

Today Sue bravely, honestly and with great humility shares her 20-year journey of researching mental health, suicide, and their ramifications so that we as a community may be able to live more inspired. I think what will amaze you most is how much you can relate to Sue, her family and her story. Sue shares concrete ideas to make sure none of us have to step into her shoes. It is a podcast you won’t want to miss.

March 15, 2018 podcast 🖤

Sue Klebold Podcast w/ John O’Leary S7E73

A New Day Has Come 

Remember Columbine! 

 ..only now it’s not just another anniversary of the tragedy that echoes on since 4/20/99 but this year is a hopeful turning point. Each of you have the opportunity to make a difference in the future – or not. The choice is yours.  This post is not my agenda but simply a snapshot capturing of our present times today, right now, here on Friday, April the 20th 2018. History is being made by youth everywhere. This is what has transpired today…

https://www.nationalschoolwalkout.net/

https://act.indivisible.org/event/national-school-walkout/

Everything You Need to Know About the April 20 National School Walkout

US students rally against gun violence in second walkout
Students Participate In School Walkouts On Columbine Anniversary

Columbine High School says April 20 is a day for service, not walkouts

Columbine Students Won’t be Participating in the National 4/20 Walkout. They’re Doing This Instead

Several walkouts planned at metro-area schools for 19th anniversary of Columbine shooting

“Good things turn bad, bad things become good” – DBK

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nineteen years | nineteen years ago today, dylan klebold and eric harris walked into columbine high school, and killed twelve students and one teacher. the plan was thought out detail to detail by the two boys, and with much precision. they had wanted the entire school to perish, after years of what they felt to be unjust treatment. (thankfully, of course this didn’t happen, due to the bombs failing to detonate.) later on after the massacre, they both committed suicide at the ages of seventeen. here are parts of their last statements that were heard on the basement tapes about thirty minutes before the attack.

The bouquet that I brought to the Memorial in the summer of 2016 could not have been a more perfect selection of flowers: 13 white-ish-delicate pink roses with but 2 that were marked with a slightly greenish tinge. It was the only bouquet like this at the market and with the perfect number of flowers.  So, on this day, I represent all connected and encircled of this tragedy starting and ending with both lost boys who in their own suffering begot the end of thirteen others. Their roses lay on the ground at both entrances and exits of this circle and represent the Fallen.   All are connected in this tragedy, linked of and within this Circle of Tragedy, in which all precious and promising lives have been forevermore lost. All deserve to be remembered.

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In order of this video….

🌹Eric Harris

🌹Dave Sanders

🌹Daniel Mauser

🌹Kelly Fleming

🌹Isaiah Shoels

🌹Lauren Townsend

🌹Corey Depooter

🌹Steven Curnow

🌹Matthew Kechter

🌹Kyle Velasquez

🌹Rachel Joy Scott

🌹Cassie Bernall

🌹John Tomlin

🌹Daniel Rohrbough

🌹Dylan Klebold

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Today in History 17 Years Ago

Dylan Klebold along with friends, Dustin Gorton and Eric Jackson made the video now known as “The Breakfast Run”. The video was going to be used as a set up video for the schools morning in-house television program. 

The video was to be entitled “American Dream”

Classic Reblog: 18 years ago today.. Heading to Burger King at 10 am, literally just down the street a little ways from Columbine HS, to capture Dylan’s “looking” video for video production class in which he is late for class and going on what is now well known as “The Breakfast Run” .  

It would be his last video class assignment. Though Dustin was casually chatting it up with him over adding music to it that would make the final edit cool, Dylan knew he’d never complete it.  He remained a low-key, quietly observant co-pilot passenger going through the motions as he goes along for the ride with his two classmates..  just killing time before it was time to kill and then die to be free at last.

19 years ago today. The lonely man strikes…. 🖤

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“Time Management” Essay for the Diversion Program
Yep. Dyl submitted it complete with the near illegible Chemical Brother’s Font “Dust Mites”. Ha. Gotta love that. One would need to manage their time in an attempt to read it. 😉

Classic Reblog..

Someone had asked me for the printed version of this.  So, I used a bit of time management myself to transcribe Dylan’s essay and decode his frustrating, yet amusing, choice for a font, while fitting it into my long work day. 😉  So, just picture the Diversion Program staff squinting real hard trying to read what he handed in. I also had to correct some of the dude’s misspellings.  lol

Time management is an essential aspect of society in the twentieth century since the invention of clocks in the middle ages, people have become more productive, efficient, and have had better life styles knowing how and when to do certain things is one key to a happy lifestyle.

Some examples of controlled time management are the daylight savings hour switching every spring and fall, and also the designated time for people to sleep. Since we sleep at night, when doing work is not feasible because of the lack of sunlight, we can utilize the entire day for consciousness, when we can be as productive as possible. Time management is a skill that some people have trouble obtaining, but those people, like me, can find ways of making useful time management schedules. Every species integrates effective time management into its society, it’s survival predators know to hunt at night, when other nocturnal animals will be active, the bear successfully uses time management, as he hibernates during the odd months of winter. Without time management, productivity is decreased dramatically, sometimes to certain doom. In a seventeenth century battle during the seven years’ war, the French had established a impenitratable (impenetrable) stronghold on British land, a veritable (veritable) beachhead for further invasion. The French cannons dug in, and the British had to retaliate. Their final maneuver would be to seale (seal) the cliff walls opposite the cannons. The French general knew that a small British force was climbing these cliff walls but he expected the 

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 sealing British, but this general united. It turned out that the entire army climbed the cliff walls, breaking the French citadel and securing the land from any further invasion “as I looked upon the bodies drying in the sun, I knew that he who hesitates is lost”. This general did not know time management, as he hesitated when he should have acted. An experienced time management connosieur (connoisseur)  would have rotated the cannons sooner, ending the British threat. In conclusion, this and other examples show the importance of time management.

By Dylan B. Klebold

I read somewhere that lauren townsend wrote a 4 page will prior to her death, because she had a feeling she would die . What do you know about this ?

Here are some prophetic excerpts from Lauren’s own diary. The Columbine Memorial used this inscription on the stone section which is in dedication to Lauren:

A woman in the middle of a field of flowers kissing Jesus’ wounds; I didn’t think I could draw such a beautiful picture. I did tonight. It took me only two hours. I think something was guiding me other than just my hand. That is my dream. When I die, I want to wake up in a field of flowers and see Jesus sitting there smiling, happy to see me, holding my hand. Then I want to kiss his wounds. Maybe it sounds corny, but I can’t even describe how happy I would be if I could do that. Then I would hug him, he’d kiss me on the forehead, and we would just sit there hugging in the sun with the wind blowing in our hair. The wind is God because God is everywhere. Just that moment is worth living many lives for.

I feel so peaceful, calm, and joyful; like I am on the verge on enlightenment. There is so much more going on here than we realize. I do think humanity is losing touch with itself and their relationship with their surroundings. Unfortunately it usually takes a huge trauma to get people to realize what is important and I feel that is what is going to happen to wake up everyone to get in touch with their spiritual sides.
I am not afraid of death for it is only a transition.
For, in the end all there is, is love.”

When you see something like this from one of the victims as here with Lauren or some of the profoundly synchronous prophetic passages from Rachel, it becomes transparent how much of spiritual event Columbine was..and still is.. and that it was meant to happen for a greater purpose.

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Dylan’s Ode to Death Countdown

          One day. one is the beginning? the end. hahaha
         reversed, yet true.  About 26.5 hours from now the
         judgement will begin. Difficult, but not impossible,
         necessary, nerveracking & fun.

                             What fun is life without
                                            a little death?

              It’s interesting, when im in my human
             form, knowing im going to die.  Everything
             has a touch of triviality to it.  like how
             none of this calculus shit matters the way
             it shouldn’t.  the truth.  In 26.4 hours i’ll 
             be dead, & in happiness. Oh little zombie
             human fags will know their errors, & be
            forever suffering & mournful. HAHAHA, of course
            I will miss things. not really.

Precisely right now…
26.4 hours = roughly 8:25 – 9:15 AM (UTC Mountain Time) on April 19, 1999, when Dylan was in *3rd period (9:25-10:15 AM)  2nd period calculus class per the day planner schedule (JC-001-026244). He likely wrote this at the very end of class from 9:15 – 9:30 AM before shooting the Breakfast Run video with Dustin Gorton.  

*corrected in correlation against Dylan’s class schedule, Robyn Anderson’s account and Dustin Gorton. Dylan’s Calculus math class was 2nd period and he was off 3rd period and did the Breakfast Run video from 9:25 – 10:15 AM

Do you know which musics have been played in the prom? Is this information somewhere? I always wanted to know :(

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There is no history of anything like that.  But you can kind of piece together what they would’ve played at prom based on that time period and what was popular as well as the prom classics that normally get played.

Here’s some I compiled that likely would’ve been played during the
1999 Prom.

Anyone can feel free to add to this “playlist” in comments. 🙂  The songs just need to be hits released prior to April ‘99.

Take My Breathe Away – Berlin  
We do know that Dylan and Devon slow danced to this song together.

I will remember you – Sarah McLaughlan
Good Riddance (Time of Your Life) – Green Day  (Class of ‘99 Song)
Bittersweet Symphony – The Verve
1999 – Prince
I’ll Be There for You – The Rembrandts (Theme from Friends)
Believe – Cher
No Scrubs – TLC
Iris – Goo Goo Dolls
Beautiful – Smashing Pumpkins
Closer – NIN
Angel – Sarah McLaughlan
Sex and Candy – Marcy Playground
Kiss Me – Six Pence None the Richer
Fade Into You – Mazzy Star
Ray of Light – Madonna
La Copa De La Vita – Ricky Martin
Music Sounds Better with You – Stardust

Ava Adore – Smashing Pumpkins

Pretty Fly (for a white guy) – The Offspring
Wannabe – 

Spice Girls 
Forever Young – Alphaville
She’s So High – Tal Bachman
Some Day – Sugar Ray
Beautiful Stranger – Madonna
Fly Away – Lenny Kravitz
Perfect – Smashing Pumpkins
I’m Blue (da ba dee) – Eiffel 65 

Wonderwall – Oasis 
Truly Madly Deeply –

Savage Garden
Angel of Mine –

Monica 
My Heart Will Go On –

Celine Dion
I Don’t Want to Miss a Thing –

Aerosmith
All My Life –

KC and Jojo
Gettin’ Jiggy Wit It – Will Smith
Everybody – Backstreet Boys
Hit Me Baby One More Time – Britney Spears
I Want You Back- NSYNC
How’s It Gonna Be – Third Eye Blind
Tubthumping – Chumbawamba 
I’ll Make Love To You – 

Boyz II Men 

The Way You Look Tonight – Frank Sinatra – theme song at Prom held at the Denver Design Center 🙂 
New York, New York – Frank Sinatra  This was the title of their After Prom theme song played in CHS gymnasium 🙂 

Classic reblog.

In reference to the previous writing you just posted, what did Dylan mean when he was questioning if he was enough?

“It’s hard, I think that I might not be enough, my mind sometimes gets stuck on its own things, I think about human things. All I try to do is imagine the happiness between us.”

When he ruminates on the human way of thinking, on the lower level fear-based worrying about this and that petty, mundane thing, he finds that he gets stuck in a mode where he believes he is not enough and that he is lacking. It is the plight of existing in human form that we are caught in the false illusional trap that is here.  He knows it’s not real, it’s not the truth, but he still finds himself falling in the mental mind trap of a human’s mind and way of existing. Feeling unworthy and less than enough. So he tries to distract, by focusing on the happiness between himself and his love and how blissfully free it will be in the Halcyons. Everything over there is effortless, but here, it’s not.  

Why do you think Dylan knelt down to shoot himself? It seems kinda symbolic. He could have just done it where he stood or sat down like Eric did. Also why do you think he threw that last pipe bomb?

My feeling is that his suicidal kneeling position would’ve been partially practical because it would’ve been easier to topple over a short ways down rather than from his towering height. Even though realistically he’d be dead, I think it’s just a natural inclination to want to kneel down along side Reb who sat on the floor. But symbolically, it’s a ritualistic fashion, an execution style manner. He was essentially his own executioner taking himself out. As for his lighting the molotov (not a pipe bomb), I believed I’d mentioned before in another post, that his lighting the fuse was in hopes that, in his mind, it would ’ve started a fire in the library which would’ve been like him setting a timer on how quickly he needed to take himself out.


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Saturday, April 17, 1999   6:00 pm

We’d spent that year begging Dylan to get a haircut, to no avail, but I convinced him to tie his hair back into a ponytail with one of my own elastics for the prom. He put his prescription glasses in his pocket and donned a pair of small-framed sunglasses. We thought he looked
very handsome.

Alison, our renter, came over and offered to take a picture of the three of us. In the picture, Dylan is clowning around, hamming it up like a professional model, Zoolander-style. The sharp lines of his formal wear stand in stark contrast to the faded flannel shirts and worn blue jeans Tom and I are wearing. He kept his sunglasses on as he posed with us; he wore dark glasses often during the last weeks of his life. I believe now he was hiding behind them.

Tom had remembered to charge the batteries on our video camera, and he filmed Dylan briefly before Robyn arrived. The conversation between them is stilted; clearly, neither of them is comfortable on camera. But we have looked back on this pre-prom video many times, and shown it to others. It is absolutely stunning how normal Dylan seems.

He and Tom talk lazily about baseball; Dylan mimes his hero, Randy Johnson, pitching in an ill-fitting tuxedo. Tom makes some comment about growing up, and Dylan remarks he’ll never have kids. Tom says he may change his mind, and Dylan says, “I know. I know. Someday I’ll look back at this and say, ‘What was I thinking?!!’ ” It is breathtakingly prophetic. When Tom persists in filming over Dylan’s protests, Dylan pinches small handfuls of snow from a nearby bush, lobbing the miniature snowballs playfully at Tom until the camera stops running. The fondness between them is palpable. It breaks my heart.

Robyn arrived in good time, looking lovely in a deep blue-purple dress. Tom taped Dylan presenting her with her corsage, and smiling down at her as she struggled to pin a rose to his lapel. I made paparazzi jokes and asked them to move so I could get a picture without parked cars in the background. Since Dylan had assured us he and Robyn were just friends, I was a little surprised—and frankly tickled—to see him put his arm around her.

In the last few frames on the tape Tom shot, the two of them smile into the camera. Then, self consciously but sweetly, they both begin to laugh.

Classic Reblog.. 18 yrs ago this evening.

Classic Reblog.. 19 yrs ago this evening.