Do you think there was something that could have stopped Dylan from doing what he did?

Yeah, Dylan could’ve stopped himself from doing what he did.  Ultimately, it comes down to a choice. He had two choices but he chose this. I know people generally are prompting me to say that him finding love or a girlfriend would’ve saved him, would have stopped him from doing what he decided to do, but it’s not really as simple as that.  Teenage love relationships are rarely a happily ever after and they come with a heap of challenges and problems. If things turned rocky or went sour after the initial bliss, at the end of the day, he’d hate himself even more.  And he would’ve struggled with that eventually. As Sue said herself ‘love is not enough’.  He was a broken person and needed help. By the time he’d committed himself to destruction and had resigned himself to it, it’s less likely that any external factors could’ve changed the course he had committed to and pulled him from the brink. He also had months of planning and commitment to Eric and the plan, which reinforced in his mono-focused mindset that they must ‘do what they have to do.’

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A birthday card that Dylan received for his 17th and final birthday.

❤️
Devon
and
Zack

Devon writes:

“but I figured that you’d
like it.  A little crew ..?…,
a little Q.T. (quality time), a little
Zack, and a little you, and a little me.
Happy birthday my
very fan-tastic
friend.
   hehehe.”

(she does his trademark laugh back to him 🙂 )

  ❤️
Devon
and
Zack

Classic reblog..in light of our recent D & D discussion. 🙂  A card for Dylan’s (last) birthday in September ‘98. Notice how she inclusively breaks out the quality time spent between Zack, him, and herself.

A spark that has been persistently growing since Columbine is now a wildfire spreading through the nation.

Excerpts from a letter on gun control (via diantredaisy)

“I hope you get an idea of what we’re implying here. You all need to die! We need to die, too! We need to fucking kick-start the revolution here!“ – Eric Harris

Hello Miss E-C. I’m sure you’ve seen the mini interview Devon Adams gives about the recent shooting. Have you noticed she’s wearing an onyx ring? Or at least it looks like it. I think that’s so beautiful and sad :'( I just wanted to share that. Have a lovely night.<3

Yes, I most certainly did notice her ring! 🙂 I’m pleased that some of you guys noticed too and sent me a message. 💖 The quick snippet shows what appears to be an onyx ring on her ring hand finger which looks to be square-shaped and more feminine style than Dyls.  If we were to assume that she wore it as a kind of personal remembrance for the best friend she lost to violence and suicide..after yet another one of these mass shooting tragedy over the 19 years.. how very poignant that all would be. 😔  

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What did you mean by the last post you reblogged? About Dylan’s social security number?

I’ve noticed you discuss the numerology behind Dylan. What is the significance? It’s not something I know much about.

I have three 9’s in my SSN. Yes, i am aware of divine numbers as well.

What I made reference to is Dylan’s personal resonance with the number 5 as a ‘very influential number’.  So, I’m not really referencing traditional numerology or divine numbers here. You can use the E-C Search and type in ‘5′ for some posts explaining Dylan’s affinity with 5. 🙂 

Would it be possible that the acronyme Dylan wrote is about Devon and not Marla or any other girl ? They were good friends but after reading your last posts I have a doubt

Well, months ago I used Dylan’s Acrostic for Devon’s name seeing as she, like Marla, also had ten letters to her name. I did it just on a whim along with another name to see whether it might ‘click’ perfectly or not.  But I honestly don’t think some of the letters work as a comfortable fit for the words you can piece together within Dylan’s broken out sentences.  Below is what I constructed. And, as you can see, it isn’t too terribly hard to make any 10 letter name fit in a way that makes some sort of reasonable sense.. if you ponder long and hard enough on some of them.  😉   For example:  2, 5, 6, 7 and 8 were a bit of a stretch.  6. was difficult and I don’t really see Dylan using ‘ardently’ (just a skosh too antiquated.. even for Dylan) but I was hard pressed to conjure another word.  8. Just doesn’t fit the bill.   But, ultimately, I don’t think Devon’s name is ‘the right one’.  It’s a bit of a case of Cinderella’s slipper not quite fitting, methinks.   Plus, I honestly just don’t think that Dylan wrote the acrostic for Devon even if he did love her very genuinely as a close friend.  I just don’t think he ever saw Devon as a possibility romantically speaking even if he had a bit of endeared crush on her out of the validation and trust she gave him.  He was seeking a ‘true love’ of his own as he viewed Zack as finding that in Devon. He wished for a girl very much like Devon in qualities though, I think, yes.

I would imagine some of you will come up with some other word combos for some of these..which, of course, I would love to hear. 🙂 

1. _ D___ is for the ___Devoted_____ joy she gives me.

2. __E___  is for how she ___Eternally leaves____ me helpless with her
beautiful gaze.

3. __V___  is for the ____Vulnerable___  moments she share with me.

4. __O___  is for the ____One____ found love that I’ve been looking for all my life.

5. __N___  is for the __Nature_____ of us as a couple.

6. __A___  how ___Ardently_____I hope to spend time with her.

7. __D___  how she is the ___Dearest____ one I love, that I have ever loved.

8. __A___  is for the _____Air_______ where we can look at the stars.

9. __M___  How ____Magnificently_____ beautiful she is.

10. _S___  Her ____Sass_____ for everything she does.

did devon get suspended for the locker incident as well? i was reading jeff kass’ book and it said that but that’s the first i’ve heard of devon being suspended as well.

I believe so, at least that’s what Jeff Kass alludes in his research. If Devon was also suspended it was probably because she was involved to a degree with Zack and the stunt he pulled having possession of one of the locker combos that belonged to her ex boyfriend whom he disliked. See here. The whole group of friends were up to mischief and so the school came down hard on who they felt was involved in various degrees of violating school security and data.

hey! first off, I’d like to say i absolutely adore your blog!! in the question you just recently answered regarding Dylan and Devon’s friendship, you mentioned that there was a piece of writing that strongly makes you feel as though he is writing about her, which piece of writing do you believe that was? <33

What piece of writing makes you strongly think he was talking about Devon? Btw you’re awesome💖

Sorry, I’m rather late on posting this.  It’s been a loooong day.  But I haven’t forgotten your requests!   ❤ 

So, without further adieu…

Here is the passage that I feel as though a very anguished, regretful, beside-himself Dylan wrote this secret apology to his best friend, Devon, pleading for her absolution after they bickered and he walked off steamed.  His frantic hand scrawled with raw emotions surfacing as he was probably half drunk and feeling utterly anguished, beating himself up over how he felt he horribly acted with her and messed everything up. His giant, repetitive declarations of LOVE are stamped everywhere, like a mantra, as if to declare the depth of his caring for Devon. It’s the equivalent to someone shouting the words tormentedly to someone that cannot hear them at all from a distance. Devon is Zacks girl..and Dylan is resigned that he and Devon can only ever be friends because of the circumstances of fate.. but regardless, he loves this friend of his immensely all the same…but he’s made a big mess of things as the giant asshole that he was to her. She seems sad to him.   Can he ever make things right again between them?, he worries  in his mind. He will try, always, to be better.  Can his ❤ repair his misactions and set everything right again?

This apology note may have been written after this spat specifically or perhaps some other moment where the two butt heads. Note, the redacted blacked out name would comfortably fit ‘Devon.‘

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I am _SO_
sorry… I see I have made
you sad, & fucked us up somehow
I will try … always .. I will always
love you, please know this …
                               Love 
                              me.
I love you.   I LOVE YOU

I  L O V E  YOU  ! (over the entire note)

-Dylan Klebold

Here’s What It’s Like At The Headquarters Of The Teens Working To Stop Mass Shootings

acinnamon-girl:

Rise up, kids. You’ve had to grow up in the shadow of these tragedies. You were born post-Columbine. You’ve never known a world where school shootings weren’t in the public consciousness. Back in 1999, after the shooting that changed everything, teens were shell-shocked. The prevailing question was, ‘how could this happen?’

But it’s almost two decades later and this nightmare continues. You were born into a world where we knew this was possible, and you’ve witnessed countless other incarnations throughout your childhood and adolescence. Sandy Hook, Aurora, Las Vegas. Nothing ever changed. But now we’ve had the Stoneman Douglas High School massacre and, like Columbine, high school kids are the primary victims again.

Now the prevailing question has to be, ‘how is this still happening?’ Today’s teens aren’t shell-shocked, because this is all too familiar. They’re angry and they’re galvanized. They’re standing and shouting where adults have sat silent for too long.

They will be key to creating change, like young generations before them who marched for civil rights and women’s rights and against wars and destruction. Teenagers help create progress and seeing them tackle this great challenge is more inspiring than words can say. This ball started rolling nearly 19 years ago, but it’s finally, finally starting to gather momentum.

As hokey as this might sound to some.. I feel like this is all coming to a point as the 20th anniversary approaches. There has been a shift, a breakthrough in consciousness, the kickstart of a revolution of another kind, founded in empowerment and love. A reclaiming.🙌🏻💖

Here’s What It’s Like At The Headquarters Of The Teens Working To Stop Mass Shootings

Did Dylan know Patti Nelson was under the table?

I do think he knew some female teacher was hiding under the library reception desk, sure, but not necessarily that he knew who she was. However, after his melodramatic confrontation with Evan Todd, which kind of put a damper on things for him, I think Dylan was pretty much done with the killing people thing. Instead, he opted for a dramatic exit by smashing a chair over the desk before he stalked out after Eric. And he was literally standing right by her cowering under the desk and there’s no doubt that if she didn’t have her hands covering her face, she could easily see the lower half of his body. He knew she was there and I think what he did was also partly to let her know that he knew she knew. I think his favorite thing most of all, more than anything else about NBK, was the psychological terror aspect and his lording over the school and feeling that ultimate sense of power over this building which always made him feel on edge. Now, the tables were finally turned for once and everyone was at his mercy. He was being the antithesis of his normally quiet, reserved self. Now, it was Yolo as the big, bad, scary wolf until you die.

How do you think Devon and Dylan became such good friends? I always go back to how Dylan disliked her for taking his friend away, and yet they seemed to get really close with each other. Do you think it was Dylan’s way of trying to keep the peace between him and his friend or did Dylan and Devon truly develop this close bond with each other, despite all of the personal feelings Dylan had? Hope you are well ❤

I tend to think that Devon initiated a friendship between herself and Dylan. I think she was just a mature, easy going, friendly and wise girl for her age. I think Devon was acutely aware of the close dude friendship between Zack and Dylan and she didn’t want to muck that up even though she, like any girlfriend, wanted to have a lot of quality time with just her guy. So, I don’t think she wanted to drive a wedge between them or have things feel awkward and make it feel like ‘three’s a crowd’ for Dylan. I think Devon basically was just her honest to goodness self and was curious about Dylan and chatted him up and joked around with him with just like any other friend she she wanted to get to know. She also trusted him and shared her feelings with him at a certain point in their friendship and she considered him her ‘confidant’. Dylan was sort of her sounding board of which she could bounce her problems and troubles off of over the phone or over the internet and he would listened to her. What girl would ever, had ever done that with him ? It must have been very validating for him. Eventually, as Dylan became more comfortable to the point of simply being himself, Devon had wormed her way into his heart even though his initial reaction was to feel guarded and secretly resentful of her. I also feel that Dylan really liked everything about Devon as a girl. I always tend to arrive at this sense that he liked her whole package, if you will. He liked her wit, her sense of humor, her wisdom and how authentically down-to-earth and easy going she was. He considered her a prize near-perfect girlfriend that his best friend was lucky to have stumbled on – and he’d even noted in his writings that Zack sometimes took it all for granted. In short, what I’m trying to say is that Dylan would’ve liked Devon for a girlfriend if she hadn’t ended up Zack’s. But the irony is that Dylan probably never would’ve met her nor had the nerve to converse with her had he not gotten to know her through Zack. I honestly would not be surprised if he had an secret, unrequited love thing for her at times.. She describes him as very protective of her when she hurt herself playing tag football ( I think it was?) or the way he was worried when she’d just gotten into a t-bone car accident and he contacted her parents for her. Or the way he kissed the top of her head affectionately at prom. In fact, there is one piece of his writing that strongly makes me feel as though he is talking about her… Ultimately though, they were only good friends.

Hi E-C! Thank you so much for everything you are doing💞 I’m a current senior in HS who started researching Columbine about 2 years ago, and have maintained constant interest since then. I was very scared at first, because I realized Dylan was a lot like me (personality-wise). But, after realizing this, I just wanted to hug him. And was so sad that I was

sad that I was able to get the help I needed and he didn’t 😦 It made me become more aware though, about what others are feeling/going through, and I understood a lot more about myself. It is so intriguing to me how much a blog member can educate the public on such a controversial topic, but yet bring light and love to those who need it. Although a huge tragedy, Columbine also has helped others rise up and help make this world a better place. I, for one, am definitely working towards that 🙂

And was it worth the fear and apprehension while feeling compelled to continue on?  It would seem that you’ve come out the other side of going down the deep, dark rabbit hole of a tunnel, exploring the human tragedy of those boys, only to find yourself more understanding, compassionate and aware. So, it was ultimately a good and enlightening experience for you. 🙂  This is very inspirational.   And..my goodness, I’m honored you feel that way about E-C.   Thank you so much for sharing this!  ❤

“A certain darkness is needed to see the stars”