Yes, the Ever-lasting contrast. Since existence has known, the 'fight' between good & evil has continued. Obviously, this fight can never end. Good things turn bad, bad things become good. My fav. contrasting symbol, because it is so true & means so much – the battle between good & bad never ends… Here we ponder on the tragedy of Dylan Klebold.
Oh good, I’m glad to hear SoCal is getting some much-needed water. Our state desperately needs it! I gotta say I’ve been enjoying these rainy November days as it’s nice to chill out and be reflective. I’m glad to hear you’re going to make it to see Sue next month! Please be sure to let us know how it goes and if you ask her a question. 🙂
More lyrics scribbled by Dylan into his day planner, in the week spanning May 4-10, 1998. This song is Gave Up by Nine Inch Nails (released 1992), and it’s notable for a few reasons.
For one, the words are classic NIN, and ergo, classic Dyl. It deals with feelings of angst, isolation from society and others, and self-loathing. The protagonist’s response to these feelings is self-destruction: “Gonna smash myself to pieces/I don’t know what else to do”.
The frenetic chorus that follows the introduction to the character’s pain and heartache is the portion Dylan copied word-for-word, suggesting it resonated the most. He even included a reference to his favourite number (5) beneath as though to underscore the relevance of the words. The repeated refrain “smashed up” evokes rage and violence each time. Note as well phrases such as “my everything” and “all that was true”. ‘The everything’ is a concept consistently repeated in Dylan’s writing, and he uses the word ‘true’ frequently and reverently as well.
I understand the everything. I am the god of the everything.
Secondly, the music video for Gave Up was shot at Trent Reznor’s studio at 10050 Cielo Drive – the address where the Tate murders took place on Charles Manson’s orders. In November, 1998 – six months after copying down these lyrics – Dylan wrote a paper on Charles Manson for his creative writing class, and was possibly (probably?) aware of the link between Manson and Reznor. The video also features a different Manson connection – a cameo from Marilyn, who would come under public scrutiny after the Columbine tragedy, and go on to immortalise Dylan (and Eric) in his song, The Nobodies.
In another example
of kismet, director David Lynch played Gave Up on repeat on the set of Lost
Highway, Dylan’s favourite film, to set the mood for the actors. It was a
fitting choice. Psychologist and researcher Peter Langman has observed, “The
film is notable for the way it shatters reality and identity; Dylan’s statement
that the film sounds like it’s about him suggest that his identity and grasp of
reality were deteriorating”. These themes are mirrored in Reznor’s lyrics; Dylan in turn found his own reflection in both of these creative works.
Oh heck yeah. Nervous and fumble-y, with shaky hands holding a paper and a bit of a tremor in his voice. Bright red face and flustered. Running his hand through his hair, crossing and uncrossing his arms awkwardly. Painfully, acutely self-aware and just dying on the inside.
Per the Basement Tapes transcript: They expect to be famous, to have a cult of followers after they die. They have advice for whoever those kids might be.
“If you’re going to go f—— psycho and kill a bunch of people like us … do it right,” Klebold says.
They (the teenage E & D from back then) would believe they accomplished not only kickstarting a revolution but had others succeed with far more devastating results (than what they shoestring budget pioneered). The current mass shooters ‘did it right” and in their name. But they’d always be ‘the first’, the two that started the movement, no matter how superior the weapons or how much bigger the kill count. Future successors point back to them for residuals credit.
Because Littleton CO was/is a very conservative community. Wearing all black may have been the standard edgy teenage thing in the 90s but it was automatically viewed as weird, scary and unwholesome to the mainstream, conservative Christians there.
I really appreciate your neutrality in understanding that this is ultimately my decision to make. Thank you for sharing your gratitude, openness, and positivity. 🙂
I think you meant to say that Devon couldn’t tolerate Eric. lol (She ended up reporting him to the office at one point because he threatened her life). Let’s not forget that Devon was Zack’s girlfriend and Eric was resentful of Devon for being like the ‘Yoko Ono” (her words) that stole Zack away from their little Three Musketeers broship. So, he saw her as a threat. Robyn was no perceived threat to any of their relationships as she was simply Dylan’s close friend and Eric’s too by association to his best friend. Had Robyn taking up with Dylan in a relationship you can bet it would’ve rubbed Eric the wrong way.
Marriott Denver Tech Center 4900 S Syracuse Street Denver, CO 80237
Speakers include Governor John Hickenlooper (invited) and Sue Klebold is the mother of Dylan Klebold, one of the two Columbine shooters. She has spent the last 17 years examining every detail of her family life, trying to understand the crucial intersection between mental health issues and violence. She has become a passionate agent working to advance mental health awareness and intervention. She is the author of A Mother’s Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy.
SCHEDULE 8:30 am-11:20 am: Mental Health Symposium – Free/Registration Required (See Schedule) 11 am-11:55 am: Mental Health & Wellness Expo 11:00 am-11:55 am: Lunch Registration 12 pm-1:30 pm: Lunch Program 1:30- 2 pm conclusion: Book signing (All author proceeds from A Mother’s Reckoning are being donated to organizations that support mental health and suicide prevention.) Individual Tickets: $60.00 REGISTER
The 11th annualState of the State Luncheon co-sponsored by the Rotary Club of Southeast Denver and District 5450 will be held December 7 at the Denver Marriott Tech Center (noon to 1:30 pm). In addition to keynote speaker Susan Klebold, Governor John Hickenlooper will address the State’s efforts in the areas of mental health and wellness. The luncheon will be preceded by a Mental Well-Being Symposium presented by the Rotary Mental Health Initiative (9 am-11:20 am; no charge to attend) and a Mental Health & Wellness Expo (11:00-11:55 am; no charge to attend).
I would suspect that Dyl gave Eric a birthday stogie which he smoked in his car as they were on an NBK shopping trip per the Basement Tapes transcripts:
They pass the intersection at Sante Fe and Mineral and the filming stops. It’s still light out when the camera comes back on. The car is now on Broadway, north of Hampden. Eric’s still driving. They’re stopped at a red light or stop sign on the east side of Broadway. Eric’s smoking a large cigar now which he says is his “birthday cigar” [Eric’s birthday was on the 9th]. He and Dylan say they have just purchased two large fuel containers and three propane bottles. Dylan says he now has his pants. The camera is turned off once more.
3. My ability to remember many events in relation to date/year
4. Being animal intuitive and conversing with my cats using emotions.
5. My ability to channel write when I hit a vibe since normally it can be an arduous challenge.
As with @acinnamon-girl , I’m going with Dyl’s affinity for No. 5 and will send this to 5 fav followers. 🙂 10 is just a bit too daunting besides, I’m sure you’re all going to get repeats of this at some point. lol
The Everlasting Contrast 