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So apparently when E and D entered the library, a girl heard one say to the other, “Are you still with me? We’re still gonna do this, right?”. I’ve wondered who was the one to say it and i wondered your opinion on who it was? (I love your blog so much btw)

Lisa Kreutz’ (page 62 of the 11k) account: The boys entered the library and started yelling then and one said something about blowing up the library. She heard an explosion inside the library then and she heard one of the gunmen say that they hated the school and that the school had messed them up. Then the shooting began inside the library, setting the fire alarm off. The girls pulled the chairs in closer to the table to hide behind but that didn’t stop the bullets when [Dylan Klebold] began to shoot under their table. Lisa’s right wrist was grazed by a stray bullet. She heard the “Do you believe in God?” exchange between Valeen Schnurr, which occurred about the same time that [Dylan] fired again under the table where Lisa was still hiding. She was hit several times, sustaining multiple gunshot wounds to shoulder, hand and both arms. She lay bleeding in the library for 2 1/2 hours, unable to move due to the severity of her injuries, before she was rescued by officials on scene. She was the last survivor to be pulled from the library.

When the shooters entered the library she heard one say: “Are you still with me? We’re still gonna do this, right?” 

Which time the shooters entered the library- that is, when her mind recalls she heard this –  is key.  

Which boy said this really is hinged on when Lisa Kreutz actually heard the alleged question and whether her recall of precisely when she heard this is correct.  If Lisa had heard one of them say this at the start of the library massacre, while the boys were first approaching the library doors, then I believe that Eric was asking Dylan for reassurance that he was still on board with the ‘make it up as we go along Plan B’ – to continue on with their KMFDM agenda to shoot, kill, maim classmates trapped in the library. This would’ve been before Eric had broke his nose and so he would’ve still been very enthusiastic and pumped up, thirsty for kills and revenge, in addition to the mere taste of it they got outside with some potshots at students on the school grounds.   Upon entering the school, they’d stalled and dicked around in the hallway by shooting and throwing pipe bombs at lockers and walls and randomly shooting at fleeing students in an ineffective free-for-all manner. The two even separated a good bit of time. Dylan killed no one in the hall, Eric killed Dave Sanders.  So, Eric was ready to head into that library and take revenge up close and in a personal way.  Was Dylan ready for this?  Eric had to be sure he was ready for the next level of destruction that was left up to them to accomplish since the bombs hadn’t yet gone off, and might never.

Since, Lisa was heavily wounded and remained in the library somewhere near  an unconscious Patrick Ireland the entire time after all the other students fled, her recall may have been hazy as to when exactly this alleged question was posed. It’s quite possible that it occurred when the boys returned for the very last time to the library.  By then, their mindset had become more distracted and aimless after failing to make the bombs go off in the Commons.  The blood lust against classmates had fizzled and committing suicide was rapidly becoming forefront in their minds since the cops were now closing in.  If the alleged discussion had occurred the second time, the last time, they ventured to the library, I believe Dylan would have asked Eric for reassurance that he too was committed to the act of suicide because this is what Dylan wanted most of all out of that entire day.  Oh sure, the rest was the ‘have fun!’ journey but the end was his destination he so longed for.  

I do believe that Eric may have been hesitant to commit suicide at some point or another, since he was seen to be remorseful on the Basement tape videos made two and a half weeks before the incident, and in their final testament video, Eric was seen to be saying how much he would miss his boss, Bob, at Blackjack, how he would miss some special people, how he wished he could go back to Michigan and see some old friends first, and how he knew his parents would be so hurtful, and his statement of “to everyone I love, I’m sorry about all this” or something to that similar affect. Dylan, on the other hand, was on a suicide mission from the very beginning, and made his suicide a key point in NBK, more than a year prior to the incident. Eric had also wrote that he and Dylan could escape after the incident, and destroy as much as possible, move to Mexico or an island where Americans couldn’t find them, or hijack and crash a plane into New York City afterwards. His alternative exits may have been wildly far fetched fantasy but it equates to a certain amount of disbelief and hesitation that NBK was a revenge mission which could only end unequivocally in suicide – either romantically by cop as he envisioned – or by their own hand.  At the point they made their way back up to the library, Eric would have had to rapidly come to the terms that he would have to do the job for himself in their failed mission.  Even though Eric knew that he wouldn’t live after the incident, and that he eventually would go ahead and commit suicide, he didn’t make his own suicide a key part of the event, something that was absolutely necessary, while Dylan did.  It’s not likely that Dylan would have been the one to have ideas of backing out since it was his utmost goal to complete NBK for the reward of freedom that awaited him.

Anyway, that’s my take! Glad you enjoy E-C. 🙂 

This is just my opinion but Dylan seemed more like a Capricorn than a Virgo. Do you know if he had any heavy Saturn influences in his chart?

Dylan was definitely a Virgo – though I can see your assumption that he might be Capricorn in relation to the signs ruling planet, Saturn. Saturnine energy is very heavy, serious and restrictive. It’s a bit like a stern parental figure that forces a person to face reality, societal rules and challenges them with sometimes, harsh karmatic life lessons. Because of that fact, Capricorns have the negative tendencies of being plagued with pessimism, melancholy yet are adaptable and derive empowerment and strength from delving into the darkness. Caps can be rather serious, pragmatic realists and somewhat rigid and cautious. Capricorns have sarcastic, sardonic sense of humor which helps to bring levity to the obstacles they face and surmount. On the the flip side, they are dependable, loyal, patient, determined, practical and goal oriented. They do not have problems with being proud and successful of their accomplishments within the public limelight and supposedly have an innate knack for leadership.

Given all that, Dylan’s Sun sign is in Virgo and Virgo is ruled by Mercury which is noted for the intellect, awareness, logical reasoning and communication. A Virgo by comparison is not interested in the ‘big picture’, goal oriented, status climbing stuff that Capricorn excels in. Virgo is logical, analytical, observant and fussy about the details nor are they very effective leaders as with Capricorn. Their preference is to preform behind-the-scenes but produce with accurate, exacting details. While a Cap doesn’t mind being the status of a President of a business and Virgo is happy being the Wizard behind the curtain doing the detail-y stuff as a CPA or scientist in a specialized field. Both Cap and Virgos can be introverts and share the same cautious nature – however, Virgos are more quiet, shy and modest. They’re not eager to demonstrate their ability to succeed as with Caps. Virgos strengths are being inquisitive, logical, attentive, caring, dependable and accurate; their weaknesses are being cynical, inflexible, selective, and picky, critical perfectionists.

Virgo is ‘The Virgin’ sign and so there is focus on purity and perfection and to the extreme, they can be overly fastidious and focused on cleanliness. Given all of these attributes, you can see how Dylan might fit a bit better as a Virgo. Dylan was gifted and very curious with a voracious appetite for knowledge as a child according to his parents. You can see in some of his school assignments the attention to details especially in his creative storytelling: he spends time with one specific scene and really hones in on painting a vivid picture overloading with sensory details. If you read his draft for the Manson Family report you can see how he sticks to a precise formula for working out his thought process for the essay.

  If Dylan hadn’t been dealing with debilitating depression, you can imagine he would’ve produced much more high quality thorough school work. Math was second nature stuff for the most part though he was scraping by on AP Calculus, (nothing to sniff at) obviously not preforming at his peak because of his ‘meh’ apathy and boredom. If Dylan had made it through college graduating in computer science, you could imagine how well suited he’d be in that field as a software engineer or programmer. He’d have a natural ability to effortlessly churn out precisely executed coding with flawless accuracy. Not the most exciting stuff but if it was a puzzle to solve coding problems, he would probably enjoy the challenges involved.

The mental energy and acuity of Virgo’s Mercury meant Dylan was well suited for intellectual creative potentiality but his lack of focus and drive with his depression counterbalanced and prevented him from producing and bringing things into top-notch fruition. Instead, his mind was circuitous and he was lost in a haze of ‘why bother’. In his journal, he laments how his parents nagged, how they wanting him ‘to have fucking ambitions’. Hell, he even wanted to muster ‘ambition’ for himself but instead he just ended up frustrated and self loathing about it. He knew he was more than capable of, infact, the curriculum was actually too easy but he just couldn’t find it in him to give two fucks. There was nothing to create excitement, to engage and make hiim want to produce the brilliance he was quite capable of. Instead we see Virgo Dylan failing to stick with using one font on his homework assignments or he’s noting on the paper in his scrawly handwriting “printer screwed up”. It’s just a whatever all the way.  He was just too scattered and unfocused to give the all he was truly capable of. However, that said, if you watched him organize and play in his Fantasy Baseball, something he had a personal passion and love for, you would see a very organized, top-notched detailed oriented Dylan Klebold in action, knowing every little nuances about the players and also being pretty darn competitive too.

Virgos are also critical and they hold themselves accountable to high standards as well. Dylan spent a lot of time nit picking and focusing on himself and how he was not and never could be the ‘normal’ acceptable standard Columbine jock. He also upheld a pedestal-like criteria for ‘The Girl” he envisioned and longed for himself. In his journal, you see how he is constantly evaluating potential girls that he knows and whether they meet his standards.

“[redacted] is the newest…[redacted] the purest (for now) …seems perfect for me..I seem perfect for her.”

Dylan also struggled with a kind of binge/purge mentality regarding his sexuality. His notion of love and sex were kept at odds, and had a hangup with the kink porn obsession likely viewing it as dirty and base. He seemed apologetic and embarrassed about it in relation to thinking of his love in which he romantically fantasized about . He even went so far as to note in his journal that he had successfully stopped masturbating though not the porn.

“I do shit to supposedly "cleanse” myself in a spiritual, moral sot of way (deleting the wads on my computer, not getting drunk for periods of time, trying not to ridicule/make fun of people in school) yet it does nothing to help my life morally.“

-or – “What else can I do/give..I stopped the pornography. I try not to pick on people.”

All of this kind of judgmental thinking would be considered extreme Virgoan obsessive behavior to correct something that he held a self-enforced critical standard. It’s almost monk-like in his attempt to purify and abstain from his vices in order to bargain with and appease “The Creator of Shit” to make things easier on him.

You’d asked if Dylan had heavy Saturn influences and yes, he did have doozy. Though Dylan is not a Saturnine Capricorn, he does in fact, have heavy influencing issues with Saturn. Dylan has Saturn in his 12th House in Libra which caused him great misery and struggle.

Natal Saturn in the 12th house –

“Lost in my little insane asylum with the redneck music playing”

12th House Saturn signifiies that you feel you should deal with your responsibilities on your own, and that your burdens are yours alone. You have a hard time allowing other people to help you with your problems, and can isolate yourself as a result. Guilt, insecurity, and anxiousness can plague you, and the more you withdraw, the worse it gets. You may run away from your problems, afraid of dealing with them. Growing up is hard for those with this placement, and there’s usually something in your past that weighs on you and holds you back. You have to learn to let go and to let other people in. You won’t find the happiness that you need until you do.

12th House Saturn in Libra Exalted

Attracts the most good fortune when he/she is fair-minded, treats others with equality, is bending and compromising without being a “doormat”, is gracious, and uses [his|her] talents at promoting and mediating. Values people and relationships, and might succeed best in partnership. Relating as equals is important to you. The arts, architecture, law, math, mediating, and politics are possible avenues for success. Use of charm and grace to reach goals.

While on a personal level, Dylan was struggling with the Saturnine 12th House “Island on to himself; I must go it alone” heavy shit, and keeping all that silent suffering to himself, he still appeared a very flexible, harmonious, easy going dude in public. Dylan made and maintained friendships to the point of no strife likely because he suppressed any personal upsets so as not to lose any friendships. Having friends defined who he was and his self worth. Dylan made it pretty clear in his journal that he felt like Zack and Devon made him feel a bit like ‘a doormat’ when they got what they needed and moved up and over him, leaving him in the dust. Dylan most likely never communicated any grievance about it.

Saturn Semisquare Uranus   – “Dwelling on the beautiful past”

You find it difficult to be spontaneous, to get away from routine and do something different. Others see in you a creature of routine. Travel may also be hard for you. It is not easy for you to change or to accept changes. When you do enact a change, it is always at the deepest or core level and affects everything else in your life. Once a change is made, it at once becomes a part of you, solid and immovable. Those near you may feel that you inhibit the proverbial “life of the party.” Code, computer programming, and the like should interest you.

Capricorns and Virgos have a lot of overlapping tendencies as far as Earth signs go but there’s a few distinctions that really set them apart. They’re like flip sides of a coin.. so I can completely appreciate that you thought Dylan might be a Cappy. 🙂

it baffles me how dylan had such an appetite yet was so underweight

Yes, it is baffling isn’t it?   There is the typical voracious teenage male appetite to eat large quantities of food and not gain an ounce as they grow in height because of that super efficient metabolism.  In addition to that though, Dylan was struggling with a concealed deep depression and the eventuality of NBK and his suicide looming in the not so distant future all of which would’ve been an additional stress factors taking a toll on him physically. Dylan could’ve continued to stuff himself akin to emotional comfort ‘binge’ eating but his body would have continuing to expend more calories than was being taken it  Based on the account below from classmate Jeffrey Marquardt, and also a few other people, Dylan seemed to have some extreme mood swings going on.  

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The fact that he was falling asleep in class due to apathy and also being sleep deprived from staying up late at night is consistent with his depression,  However, I have this theory about Dyl’s observed “unusually hyper and full of energy” mood swings. They might be attributed to his experimenting with popping over-the-counter caffeine and/or ephedra diet combination pills in order to boost his energy level to keep himself upbeat, if not jittery and ‘hyper’ and focused enough to get through the day, complete his homework at night and still have enough time to play video games late in the night with Zach. We know Dylan took natural St. Johns Wort but these supplements do not have side effects that cause hyper-like moods however, taking speed-like diet pills would amp him up enough for classmates to notice.  Dylan would have a suppressed appetite while taking these pills and probably forget to eat from school to working at Blackjack in the evening.  So, he’d be burning a lot of calories enough to lose at a more rapid rate than his usual fast metabolic rate which would explain such a rapid weight loss within the year. When he’d go off the pills, his appetite would level out and probably increase enough where he’d eat that entire bucket of KFC.  It certainly would explain the extreme and noticeable up/down vacillation of mood swings.. His weight loss would be attributed inadvertently to his depression because he was trying to interrupt his funk and lack of motivation by artificially jacking up his mood with acceptable over-the-counter substances.   Mr.Self Reliance was grappling with his misery and low energy so this might’ve been the occasional ‘fix it’ temporary solution to squeak by without completely failing in school; it’d be a way for him to continue managing his own problems in secrecy. Anyway, it’s a theory of mine to explain the unusual hyper-energetic moods in relation to the rapid weight loss and that contradictory ‘legendary’ appetite…;)

Which enneagram personality type do you think Dyl would be?

I’d easily place Dylan as a 5 wing 4.  I can also see him having 9 as another wing.

Primary – Enneagram Type is 5 – The Investigator

Thinkers who tend to withdraw and observe

People of this personality type essentially fear that they don’t have enough inner strength to face life, so they tend to withdraw, to retreat into the safety and security of the mind where they can mentally prepare for their emergence into the world. Fives feel comfortable and at home in the realm of thought. They are generally intelligent, well read and thoughtful and they frequently become experts in the areas that capture their interest. While they are sometimes scientifically oriented, especially with the Six wing, just as many Fives are drawn to the humanities and it is not at all uncommon for Fives to have artistic inclinations. Fives are often a bit eccentric; they feel little need to alter their beliefs to accommodate majority opinion, and they refuse to compromise their freedom to think just as they please. The problem for Fives is that while they are comfortable in the realm of thought, they are frequently a good deal less comfortable when it comes to dealing with their emotions, the demands of a relationship, or the need to find a place for themselves in the world. Fives tend to be shy, nonintrusive, independent and reluctant to ask for the help that others might well be happy to extend to them.

Fives are sensitive; they don’t feel adequately defended against the world. To compensate for their sensitivity, Fives sometimes adopt an attitude of careless indifference or intellectual arrogance, which has the unfortunate consequence of creating distance between themselves and others. Trying to bridge the distance can be difficult for Fives, as they are seldom comfortable with their social skills, but when they do manage it, they are often devoted friends and life long companions.Fives are usually somewhat restrained when it comes to emotional expression, but they often have stronger feelings than they let on. Few people know what is going on beneath the surface, as Fives have an often exaggerrated need for privacy and a deep seated fear of intrusion. Because of their sensitivity and their fears of inadequacy, Fives fear being overwhelmed, either by the demands of others or by the strength of their own emotions. They sometimes deal with this by developing a minimalistic lifestyle in which they make few demands on others in exchange for few demands being made on them. Other Fives make their peace with the messiness of life and engage it more fully, but they almost always retain their fears that life is somehow going to demand more of them than they can deliver.[more]

Enneagram Wing Type 4 – The Individualist

Identity seekers, who feel unique and different

People of this personality type tend to build their identities around their perception of themselves as being somehow different or unique; they are thus self-consciously individualistic. Fours tend to see their difference from others as being both a gift and a curse – a gift, because it sets them apart from those they perceive as being somehow “common,” and a curse, as it so often seems to separate them from the simpler forms of happiness that others so readily seem to enjoy. Thus, Fours can manage to feel superior to others while also secretly harboring some degree of longing and envy. A feeling of being a member of the “true aristocracy” alternates with deep feelings of shame, and fears of somehow being deeply flawed or defective.

Fours are emotionally complex and highly sensitive. They long to be understood and appreciated for their authentic selves, but easily feel misunderstood and unappreciated. They have a tendency to withdraw in the face of a world that seems harsh or crude, and are often somewhat moody or temperamental. They are emotionally centered and spend much of their lives immersed in their internal mental landscapes, where they feel free to cultivate and analyse their feelings. A desire to manifest this internal world often leads Fours to an interest in the arts, and some do become actual artists. Whether artistic or not, however, most Fours are aesthetically sensitive and concerned with self-expression and self-revelation, whether it be in the clothes they wear or in the overall nature of their often idiosyncratic lifestyles.

Fours are somewhat melancholic by disposition, and under stress tend to lapse into depression. They also tend to be self-absorbed, even under the best of circumstances, but when unbalanced, easily give way to a self-indulgence which they perceive as being fully justified as a way to compensate for the general lack of pleasure they experience in their lives. Rather than look for practical solutions to their difficulties, Fours are prone to fantasizing about a savior who will rescue them from their unhappiness.[more]

Combining the two it looks like this…

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I also think Dyl could tend towards 9 wing as well given all Libra influence in his astrological chart.

Enneagram Type 9 – The Peacemaker

Keeping peace and harmony
People of this personality type essentially feel a need for peace and harmony. They tend to avoid conflict at all costs, whether it be internal or interpersonal. As the potential for conflict in life is virtually ubiquitous, the Nine’s desire to avoid it generally results in some degree of withdrawal from life, and many Nines are, in fact, introverted. Other Nines lead more active, social lives, but nevertheless remain to some to degree “checked out,” or not fully involved, as if to insulate themselves from threats to their peace of mind. Most Nines are fairly easy going; they adopt a strategy of “going with the flow.” They are generally reliable, sturdy, self-effacing, tolerant and likable individuals.[more]

Was Dylan’s hair more brown or more blonde?

I answered that here. I’m going to maintain that Dyl had dark blonde/light brown (‘dirty blonde’) with strawberry blondish red highlight in certain lighting. In a nutshell, I would call him ‘blonde’.  I would bet that Dyl was probably a towhead when he was a baby/toddler and his hair darkened as he grew older around 4-5 years of age. When he spent any amount of time out in the summer sun, the exposure would make his hair lighten up quite a bit enough to be considered ‘blonde’ with massive highlighted streaks of it.  The autopsy report dubs his hair as ‘brown’.  However, you also have to consider that Dylan was laying on the autopsy table in a room with garishly bright lights and also a great deal of dark,coagulated blood saturated and caked all over his long hair which would make his hair color appear darker in that setting. Autopsy reports generally only stick with basic colors: it’s either a quick glance and they tick ‘brown’ or ‘blonde’ and no precise descriptions like say ‘molasses syrup blonde’. 😉   His facial hair, however, reveals fair ‘blonde’ hair. 

Apparently, the new Tumblr settings doesn’t allow for adding images (?!) so I’ll add an image post in relation to this ask next up. 

Dylan’s autopsy hair color description

Do you think anything could of made Eric and/or Dylan not want to do Columbine anymore? Stuff like; the Marines accepting Eric, or one/both of them being in a relationship that they care about, or the bullies suddenly apologizing to them, etc

Certainly, yes.  Anything simple and ordinary could’ve reengaged either of the two to begin to care one iota again, to feel reconnected and valuable enough on the planet to change their course of destiny like the switch of a train’s tracks from a crash course over a cliff’s end onto another route that sprawls onward towards a sunny horizon.  Once one of the two cared enough, I do believe the deadly dyad dynamic would’ve fizzled and come to a halt. I do not think the two separately had the momento and strength to do what they did as in their alliance. It was a symbiotic relationship.

I’m curious how old are you? If that’s not too personal. Your blog is ah-mazing and you have such a way with your writing and analyzing. I just want to sit down and pick ur brain, love ur views… Yup I think I’m fan girling ya haha

if you dont mind me asking, how old are you?:)

You can ask and I don’t mind curiosity.  Lessee..I’m young enough to own a few Tumblr blogs and (should be) old enough to know better for it. 😉 
So, ponder away all you ponderers. 

And my goodness, a fan girl?  OoO  *blushes*  Gee, I’m feeling almost, well., dare I say, Godlike.. by your lovely comment.   😉    Very gratifying that you appreciate my Dylanosophy meanderings.  Thank you ever so much for making my day!

what did Dylan’s family do with his ashes?

“Dylan doesn’t have an ‘official’ grave site that anyone can visit, so there’s no information to share. The truth is, he’s buried in our hearts. He’ll be there as long as we live.” — Sue Klebold

You can draw your own conclusion from this. I would say that it’s a likely possibility that Dylan’s cremated ashes reside in an urn on the fireplace mantel of his parents home. 

why do you think Dylan was saying all these mean things to people before he kills them, but eric doesn’t?

Because Dylan was normally shy, quiet and introverted he typically tended to suppress the negative aspects of his personality. He sat on his feelings and for the most part, peers thought him easy going and ‘gentle’. Occasionally though, Dyl blew off steam being openly resentful in class with certain teachers. His parents remembered him as their brilliant golden boy but they also acknowledged that there were plenty of times when their son was mouthy, resistant and ill tempered. NBK was the opportunity, for once, in which Dylan could literally not have to hold himself back in any way – to externalize everything he’d always normally had kept under lock and key. He could be as nasty as he wanted to be – no holds barred. ‘Judgment Day’ represented a catharsis that afforded Dylan one last opportunity to be free and truly let every censored vestige of himself go – to in a sense, blow the lid off that quietly simmering pot of anger, jealousy and resentment. It was his last day on earth – a day to celebrate – ‘today is the day we die!’ was the eerie battle cry that a few witnesses couldn’t help but hear resounding throughout the halls of Columbine. NBK was that last hooray to go out with a literal bang, to finally get revenge on ‘the society’ symbolically encapsulated by the toxic, exclusive rigidity of his school. Anyone Dylan didn’t know on a personal level was a fair game to taunt and mock, make fun of and shamelessly bully back. Those faceless symbols, those small-minded, petty ‘zombies’ stuck in a state of ‘humanity’ who added to his rage; they all played a part in making him what he’d become, what he hated the most of all. He could yell and scream as loud as he wanted; he could cheer and relish in the power and destruction in his wake. For what fun is life without a little death?

What is your thoughts on Dylan misspelling his middle name? I mean that’s always struck me as so odd. Who does that past 1st grade? And he’s so intelligent it makes it more bizarre

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Sometimes things are as uncomplicated as our intelligent Dyl being nothing more than in a lazy ass mood while writing in his journal..or… a bit tipsy and in that half assed mood. a-hem. Of course, he may also have preferred to spell his middle name with with one ‘n’ instead of two so that it matched the one ‘t’ on the end. I do something similar where I put an ‘e’ on the end of my name because I think it looks more symmetrical; I always write my name this particular way on a personal level rather than using the correct, legal spelling of my first name. Since I favor equipose, I usually have the impulse to spell Dyl’s last name with two ‘n’s’ and two ‘t’s’ to finish it off – as in Bennett.

I always wondered if it was some lost in-joke referencing Jonbenet Ramsey.

Oh, niiice, I like the possibilities of this idea.. Consider that JonBenét Ramsey was murdered on December 25, 1996 in Boulder, Colorado and this particular journal entry was written March 31, 1997  –  three months after the mysterious murder of which the media hype was enormously widespread.  I could see Dylan and Eric collectively rolling their eyes over little JonBenét the sexually exploited little brat whose image was plastered all over the tv and magazines and whose parents deserved what they got for dressing their daughter like a little whore.  I do recall JonBenét was mentioned in one of Eric’s rants. So, inside jokes? That’s plausible.  Dylan may have been playing at it with his middle name in this instance in the mid journal muse:, ”- when Dylan Benet Klebold got covered up by this entity containing Dylan’s body” referencing a connection of  his ‘little self’, the natural, normal ‘boy Dylan’ being covered up by this foreign, older entity as in relation to little girl JonBenét who was involuntarily covered up with a promiscuous adult-like image and robbed of her own childhood.  On the other hand, wouldn’t he have played up the inside joke a bit more by referring to himself as DylanBenét Klebold with his first and middle name joined as one with the accent mark?   At any rate, it’s a good speculation based on what was going on in the media at that time.  There again, Dylan  could’ve even unconsciously misspelled his middle name while deep in thought because of all the ubiquitious ‘JonBenét ’ references everywhere. 

I’m not ignorant therefore I can recognize Dave Cullen is, but is his book “Columbine” still worth reading even if it’s to understand some of the wrong perspectives.

Sure, I’ll agree with you on that.  Any book can be worth reading to obtain perspective even if you don’t particularly agree with much of it. There were a few things in Cullen’s book I liked amongst all of it’s tripe. I mention the good, the bad and the ugly of “Columbine” here.

I read somewhere that the basement tapes have been destroyed please tell me this isn’t true! D:

Clap your hands together and recite three times: ”I do believe, I do believe, I do believe the Basement Tapes still exist!!”    At this point. all we have to go on is to keep calm and carry on with our faith and and hope – that Jeffco was merely being sneakily literal to stop the incessant requests – and while the actual VHS ‘tapes’ might’ve been physically destroyed, their digital copy counterparts are still in existence, under password encrypted lock and key. If by some twist of Fates chance, they’re awaiting release, someday.. somewhere.. sometime..in the not too distance future.    Anything can happen, right?  Well, maybe..

I want to believe! – Fox Mulder

Do you think if Dylan had a girlfriend, would he have been really jealous of her around other guys (i.e. jocks and stuff)

Outwardly, Dylan would not have let on that he was jealous.   She, however, would’ve noticed some signs of him being more withdrawn and sullen in her presence. He’d internalize it and would’ve automatically relegated himself as unable to compete for her affections. If he saw her associating with jocks, a mortal enemy in his eyes, Dyl would’ve stewed about it. Pissy arguments would likely have ensued if she pressed him and asked why he was being such a stick-in-the-mud. So, jealous, yes, but passive-aggressive about it. He’d be sure to let her know in an indirect way that something was wrong but would not want to be direct or openly angry because it might mean he’d risk losing her by expressing his upset – even if he felt he was losing her all the same – just because she was talking to other guys.

Are you a cohort of E & D? Because I am and I think it is really interesting how kids today are into the 90s. I think part of the Zeitgeist back then contributed to the whole massacre. The late 90s were a very Nihilistic, consumer driven age (not that that has gotten any better) but it was the climax of blissful, remorseless consuming. “I,I,I am Tiger Woods. It was the nineties. Now it´s the twenty-first century and you are either with us or you are against us. Where is your flag?” (Rankine)

Well, aren’t we all? At least, figuratively anyway.. 😉 Yeah, tis true. There is a sort of romanticism about the 90s for those that didn’t sentiently experience what it was like. Everything seems more ‘perfect’ because the grass is always greener on the other side, huh. I think that is a typical thing of younger generations thinking what came before them was better. The decade was a combination of nihilistic cynicism mixed with that illusional sense of promise with all the dot.commers cropping up and then tanking by (the dreaded) Y2K with all those suddenly worthless stock options. Dark tv shows with X-Files and alien obsessions, Millennium or cheesy Xena Warrior Princess. Kids having it all, seeing it all, bored, restless and dissolutioned with what society has to offer them for a future. It was a ripe time for Columbine as you’d said. 1966 had it’s hippies with their love revolution and just flip those two last digits to 1999 and we have the hate revolution with the warrior Indigo children rebelling against the establishment, compliments of R & V.