9,300 at present. 

I do, yes – and that goes for Eric too.  It’s interesting how both families mirror the exact same dynamic:  Dylan and Eric as both the younger brother to an older brother who is exactly 3 years older.  And I don’t think that’s coincidental that there is a linking pattern between them.  I feel as though the two would’ve benefitted from having some more yin or female energy in their families. It would’ve helped both boys learn how to feel more comfortable around the opposite sex. I explored this a tad bit here in regards to Dylan with a sister.

Yes.^^

Oh, it was pretty ridiculously stupid not really hilarious. Someone posted an advertisement for the Columbiner prom on April 17th and people would pick dates and ask one another out for a sort of mock prom.  askreb asked out a chick that went by something like ‘pistol’ (of course) and I think they sort of ‘dressed up’. Well, on the day of, nobody had the slightest idea of what to actually do since it was virtual reality, right?  lol  I think someone organized a Tinychat room,  someone posted an ani gif disco ball, but it was basically a half-baked idea that sounded a whole lot better than it actually turned out to be.

Well, we’ll see what I can do. No promises that I’ll be able to find any screenshots. 🙂 This is like coming up on 6 years now. Yikes.  Time sure does fly.

There’s some remnants of askreb here..but not enough to give you guys a really good idea of how well they channeled Rebster.  Perhaps I’ll poke around a bit this weekend and see if I can find anything. No one has ever beat that impersonator since. Not by a long shot.  Chicks were on heavy withdrawals when he decided to leave.lol  Which is evident how beloved the blog was if you scroll the link above.  The dude stopped because it fucked him up too much to stay in his vibe.

Dude, you’re using the wrong search.  Use this instead.  And consider this is me making you go on a quest for the answer.   Some things are worth the effort. 😉

Integrity, huh. hmm.. in what way exactly?   But, hey, thankss, I think. lol  

Well, I don’t disagree 🙂 but you know, a good part of that is how they handled themselves around girls. They weren’t confident enough in themselves or comfortable enough in the company of the opposite sex to really exude an attractional vibe with girls. Dylan was too shy and passive and Eric was trying too hard which came across as desperate. Neither would’ve been able to handle girls being attracted or interested if someone magickally cast a spell and they suddenly had women interested like catnip. Even though Eric landed some dates he said and did things that caused the girl to lose interest.  He didn’t know how to take things to the next level and to become closer with a girl and express feelings.  It’s really because of how they felt about themselves. They disliked themselves and so girls in general picked up on them being geeks and those type of guys that are more comfortable hanging out with each other playing video games all day rather than being able to manage a girlfriend. 

Glad you enjoyed the adorbs lil’ piggy. It was perf, I couldn’t resist using it, I just had to.. 🙂   Yes, well, I’m sure Dylan must have judged himself and his looks in relation to whether any girls showed interest.  “Ignored” his words,  = they hate this ugly fucker.  And since he landed no long-term dates, or a girl didn’t want to continue dating (Sasha Jacobs) or the girl that even Devon tried to set him up (Kayla Kathol) with wasn’t interested, or the girl he managed to ask out (Tobin Kennedy) turned him down, meant that he was an ugly freak and unlovable and there was no chance in hell that he was going to be normal like his dude friends and find a girl that would love him. 😦  You can just imagine how those voiceless, unidentified emotions and all the internal catastrophizing fed into the vicious cycle of his depression.

“ about girls, I know I can never have them, yet I can still dream…” – DBK

Last year a young girl who’d been chatting with him DM’d me and told me he confessed to her that he was going to be a father (at the time, some people didn’t believe me but his baby son was born Oct 13, 2017).  But she isn’t the only one:  I’ve had other young women, teenage girls, confess to me that he chats with them. Why should a 37 year old man need to chat up strangers, and more specifically young girls (that are obviously only interested in his connection with Columbine) to pass the time?   If you need more proof than that you’ll have to find out for yourself.

The abundant Libran energy would make him idealistic, yes, but at the same time easy going, cooperative, fair and indecisively flexible.  Dylan’s Venus was also in Libra. Libra is a peacemaker, and would rather not rock the boat in order to maintain the harmony in our relationships. They’re especially polite and charming and more likely to sweep issues under the rug. Which means Dylan wouldn’t be inclined to up and leave at a moments notice even if he wasn’t especially thrilled with his partner. He would be devoted and would want to stay to give the relationship a fair shot.

I won’t know until if and when it ever happens. lol 

That would absolutely not be ‘disrespectful’ m’dear.  Pretty much only you and everyone here in this community know that Dylan was into the Chembros. They are a good vibes sort of band and no one at all would make any sort of connection to the tragedy. I appreciate you being conscientious of all of this though.  Enjoy donning the Chem vibes!  🙂 

Here you go. It had better not be sinister or I’m coming after ya. 😉  hehehe

Yeah, you might want to check out what I said about that in this post from last week. 😉

And I think that goes for anyone that has an idealized fantasy expectation in regards to criteria for how they think a love relationship should be/should have been. Nothing is ever going to live up to the high standards people generate in their minds.  It’s an illusion of how you think things are supposed to be versus the reality of how they are.  So, Dylan would have been predisposed to being set-up for failure after the initial honeymoon haze of falling in love wore off.  He would have been in a suspended state of being in love with the idea of being in love..but then personality conflicts and recurring issues in the relationship would have come into play.  Through experience, he would’ve then understood that “Love” and being a boyfriend to a girlfriend is not enough to sustain a relationship. Acquiring a relationships means you have to go deeper with that someone to sustain true love. It cannot just sustain itself.  It takes work and effort and the ability to care and love someone for who they really are a person – including the bad with the good, their deficits as well as positive traits.  He would’ve wanted that someone for himself but he would also have to be that someone in return. 

You “hate it” because you can’t make something that isn’t working fit into your fantasy expectation like a square peg into a round hole.  What this basically means is, you have to keep dating and experiencing other people until you find someone that clicks and resonates the best with you.  But ultimately though, relationships and the struggles that go along with them aren’t necessarily always what you want but instead, what you need at that particular time in your life. This goes for a lot of things on planet earth as human beings. You are constantly growing and changing and so is your partner. Healthy love relationships can accommodate the changes.  All of the struggles, failures, and successes are a part of your existence’s growth and development down here: Finding ‘love’ is not a free and easy pass.  I find it’s best to not have any expectations. People are often happier when they can just accept the experience given to them but also to not hold on to something that isn’t working.  I feel as though Dylan would be the sort to do this: to hold on and become disillusioned in an unfulfilling relationship all because he wanted the ‘idea of love’ more than he actually did after having found ‘love’. At the end of the day though, it’s ultimately all about loving yourself. He craved love to fix things for him, to fill that empty, sad void, because he did not love or accept himself. That is why I feel Dylan would’ve held onto something even when it was slipping through his fingers like sand, all the while feeling resentful and sadder as a relationship was already over. Grappling with coming to terms with, and the understanding that it had not measured up with how he thought it was going to be like.

Juniors.

This was explored numerous times. You’ll want to search ‘slang’, ‘racism’ or ‘racist’ with the E-C Search for your answer.