And I’ve answered this question before here. 🙂 

That’s true, yes.  Dylan noticed Isaiah under the table and called out to Eric something along the lines of “hey, Reb, there’s n—- over here”.  We don’t know exactly what he said though as eyewitness accounts vary just that he said this.

Take an onion, cut it in half, and set it by your bed. Bundle up when you’re cold and unbundle when you’re hot. Drink a lot of water and some hot tea with fresh lemon w/ honey for your throat, and rest., rest, rest. 💜☺️

 Heyyyy, it’s TJ Lame !   …I got something for ya.

It’ll be in an upcoming post I’ve been working on. 😉 

No. lol  I’m curious tho, what gave you that impression? 

Absolutely 100% capable but he was lacking in motivation due to his depression. He didn’t care and didn’t see the point of making an effort and getting top grades. He was also a gifted kid and he didn’t particularly like his teacher. I’m sure the teacher probably taught it in an uninspiring, dull, sort manner which probably didn’t encourage and nurture him to want to perform at his best with his natural abilities at math. As it was, he was in Advanced Placement Calc so even with Ds or Cs he was doing okay. His low-end grades were still good enough to get him invited to decent colleges. So it was boring for him. He was falling asleep a lot in class in the last few months. To give you an idea of how Dylan viewed it: he asked his math teacher if he could just do all the assignments from home and only attend class on test days. You can hazard a guess as to what the teacher’s responses to that was… 

Yes, that’s true, see video here at 06:58.  Devon hadn’t been friends with Eric for some time at this point. Not only did she not like him, she was afraid of him because of the threats he made by Dec ‘98. She hung out with Dylan when he wasn’t hanging out with Eric.  Dylan was used to Eric being hot and cold with people and he just steered clear of the drama between Devon and Eric or Eric and Brooks or Eric and Nate – and so on.

Keeping herself busy. Last year she was presenting at a conference on April 20. Sue has learned how to deal with this time over the many years by distracting as much as possible. I would expect she spent time with friends, including her suicide prevent support friendships she’s made and keeping herself occupied and productive among the company of others that make her feel good. I’m sure in quiet moments her thoughts return to the day and her beloved boy but she’s learned tools to not dwell. I think we here in this community spend far more time reflecting on this sad day than she does..because she can’t give herself over to dwelling on it as she once did in the early days after the tragedy. 

Sure, the Cancer Midheaven is sensitive to the feelings and thoughts of those surrounding them and combine that with Dylan’s heavy Libra chart meant it was like second nature, at an almost subconscious level, for him in going with the flow and adapting to the needs of people and providing for them in any given situation. Like a chameleon that is changeable but can give people what they want in order to keep them happy. People pleasing and protectively care taking. But his natural sensitivity and empathic receptiveness to the needs of others could then be at the expense of his own feelings and desires.  But far worse factors contributing to the innate depression was Dylan’s Mercury conjunct Saturn. A Saturn conjunction shows restriction of expressive speech and an inclination towards depressive thoughts and thoughts of hopelessness. Mercury/Saturn is very forlorn, it is not easy, it is like having a viewpoint of constant gloom with a huge propensity for self-loathing and being trapped inside one’s own mind. His one hopeful earth planet, Virgo sun. had a nasty square to Neptune, showing self-delusion, a lack of self-identity and an erosion of one’s ego and sense of self. It is almost impossible for a Sun square Neptune person to see themselves as they truly are. Extreme sensitivity, especially concerning what others think about you and how they treat you because that was how Dylan defined himself. Dylan’s emotions weren’t the issue, he had a grip on them and he wasn’t all that emotional tbh especially given his Aquarius Moon which caused him to distance from identifying and expressing/emoting feelings. Instead, it was his sense of self and his overactive gloomy mind. And that’s not to mention his 12th house Saturn issues which is the house of destruction of the self and internalization and submerging the hate and negative feelings.This placement is one of a great sense of loneliness, isolation, of being solitary and disconnected from others even while in their company.  In my opinion, Saturn in the 12th House defines the existentially depressed and lonely existence of ‘Dylan Klebold’ to a tee. I always tend to think of him as The Hermit in the Tarot card deck. Intelligent, alone, sad, hopeless standing on his lone mountain top looking down at this world and with no one to truly relate to.  

me is a god, a god of sadness
exiled to this eternal hell
the people i helped, abandon me
i am denied what i want,
to love & to be happy
being made a human
without the possibility of BEING human
the cruellest of all punishments
to some i am crazy
it is so clear, yet so foggy
everything’s connected, seperated
I am the only interpreter of this
Id rather have nothing than be nothing
some say godliness isn’t nothing
humanity is the something i long for
I just want something I can never have.
The story of my existence -Dylan

Yeah, I’m alright.    and are you sure about that?  I posted quite a lot yesterday if I do say so myself..

No, I honestly don’t feel Dylan thought of Robyn romantically. He liked Robyn, and he felt she was a nice person and a fun friend to hang out with but he just wasn’t attracted to her in that way.   I think Robyn was more open to the possibility that Dylan might eventually return interest but she never pushed it with him. I’m honestly revisiting this again.. Seems like I’m continually writing the same answer to the same question every couple of months. The only reason I’m ‘going there’ yet again is in light of the fact that tomorrow is the 19 year anniversary of their prom night out.

Excerpts from Sue’s book regarding Dylan about Robyn:

“Robyn arrived in good time, looking lovely in a deep blue-purple dress. Tom taped Dylan presenting her with her corsage, and smiling down at her as she struggled to pin a rose to his lapel. I made paparazzi jokes and asked them to move so I could get a picture without parked cars in the background. Since Dylan had assured us he and Robyn were just friends, I was a little surprised—and frankly tickled—to see him put his arm around her.
In the last few frames on the tape Tom shot, the two of them smile into the camera. Then, self-consciously but sweetly, they both begin to laugh.”

“Dylan didn’t have a girlfriend in high school, but he and his other friends did hang out with girls; “herd dating” was common among their age group. He met his prom date, Robyn, in class; they studied calculus together. When Dylan first started spending time with Robyn, I peppered him with questions about her and her family, as I did about all of his friends. He laughed: “Believe me, Mom: you have nothing to worry about with Robyn. She’s exactly the kind of person you’d want me to be with, an A student.” When I asked what she was like, Dylan shrugged and told me, “She’s just a nice person.” I met her a few days later, and realized Dylan had been right: Robyn was lovely. I was impressed by how comfortable she seemed around Tom and me.”

and thanks ❤

Robyn was hoping to date and get romantic with a guy by the name of Christopher Kirk who graduated Columbine a year ahead of Robyn and was in the Navy. He was her first choice to prom but when that didn’t pan out, she asked her best bud Dylan. See here.

I fail to understand myself. lol

Saturday.  *le sigh*

No, the boys used Wilder Wein for two of their scenes in their Hitmen for Hire video production. I restored Reb n VoD’s ® ‘original musical score’ 😉  in the two scenes that song was used and will try to post it next up.

You know it’s vague to me as to where Brooks might’ve said this. I’m not even entirely certain that I saw the original source other than others having mentioned that Brooks said as such. It may have been a rumor that got spun into fact from people passing it around.  If and when I see it, I’ll post it. 

Nah, he seemed cool and matter-of-fact about it.

“And I remember asking him about..he had like a patch of white on his head, in his hair. I remember when I was a little kid, we were sort of playing together – I was like: why is your hair a different color?’ Cuz kids sort of ask everything out of the ordinary. And he’s like “oh, it’s a birthmark. I was like: I have a birthmark on my hand. He’s like: ‘oh, that’s cool.’   My hair doesn’t look any different but ah, wow, I kinda wanted a birthmark on my head so I’d have this radical patch of different colored hair.  That’s something that always stuck with me.”
 [Sam Granillo]

I’m guessing you might have missed this post on Sarah that I linked a couple posts down?  Sarah and Dylan conversed online in freshman year;  she associated with Dylan in 9th and 10th grade and lost touch with him by junior year. This was quite some time before Dylan and Eric had started planning NBK so it’s unlikely Jeffco would’ve made any concerted effort to raid her computer for convos between them.  And I doubt she held on to them as they were just casual chats with a guy that she basically friendzoned. Sarah was part of the theater crowd and knew Rachel Scott. She was not a popular type but more of an artsy outcast.

Not just disrespectful but far too uncomfortable for students and staff to manage to spend any amount of time in that room again knowing what went on there.  Far too traumatic. The library was still there when the school reopened in August ‘99, just shy of 3.5 months after the massacre, but was sealed up and a row of temporary blue lockers put in front of it.  The library was later torn down and extensive renovations were done the following year after funds had been raised by the community. The victim’s families input were heavily considered in regards to the changes that would be made.