Ahh… okay, gotcha. lolol

He might’ve worked up the nerve to just cut to the chase and end his life while in a particularly dark and desperate mood.  After all, he did ask his mom to buy him a gun as a Christmas present (though not at all really expecting she’d say yes). It’s hard to say if he was hoping to have that gifted gun to commit suicide or rather as a solution to obtain firearms for NBK with Eric.  We do know that he held on to the guns he purchased specifically for NBK and it seems as though he had committed to the plans with Eric- even though he was personally still suffering infinitely (as evinced in his writings). So, he appeared to hold out and not use his weapons on himself but rather to wait to commit suicide with his best friend at the proper place and time they designated. I think pre NBK planning (prior to ‘98), had his family kept firearms in the house, Dylan might’ve toyed with cutting his life short. We just don’t know whether he would’ve worked up the courage to do it on his own at an earlier point in time. I think Dylan sort of devolved and deteriorated from sophomore to senior year through various circumstances and he finally reached a point where he’d fully prepared himself to be super desperate enough to leave this place –  but NBK was the way to trap himself within the school so he could never back out of it.  Killing himself alongside his close friend would make it a much easier thing to do. 

It’s a plausible unconscious reason.  According to Eric’s recollections of his past, he always seemed to have one best friend above the rest, and he lost every one of them upon moving so his choosing Dylan to fill those shoes seems to be a reoccurring motif of ‘it’s just us two against the world’.  At this point in high school, it would be as if he was protecting and holding on to what he considered his one and only best friend -within his insecurity of the threatening climate at Columbine – and at the expense of losing other friendships that weren’t as loyal in his eyes. 

Other than Eric volunteering Penthouse as one of three of his favorite magazines on an internet questionnaire, there is no information as to what ‘porn and stuff’ he was into. 

I seem to recall that was Kristi Epling that imparted girl advice to Eric (but maybe it was Kim Carlin, I’d have to check).  Tbh, only he needed such advice since all the times Dylan ever asked chicks out you could count on one hand (er, ah, and less than five fingers). 

The broken glass was a school safety display as part of the conference that I attended there. I don’t recall specifically what it was but maybe another photo from all the ones I took would reveal that.  Yeah, I know.. still eerie as seen in that snap I took from Eric’s pov. lol

That’s certainly a good question. I’d speculate that since Devon confided in Dylan that she may have been vocal about his friend but that Dylan mostly silently listened to her complaints and likely just responded with a non-committal sort of  ‘yeah, well, you know, that’s just Eric.’ basically advising her to just take Eric blowing off steam with a grain of salt.  Unfortunately, we don’t have any information from Devon about this though.

No, I don’t think so.  Remember, Sue has a fair amount of private family videos and photos of her own for the moments when she craves hearing and seeing her son..and without having to tread on youtube where she’d be exposed to all the strange, obsessed and nasty public commentary. Besides of which, the majority of the videos on youtube are of him play acting in video productions and not the real Dylan as in her candid home vids. 

E-C Search “cross of Salem” to find out.

At prom Dylan danced with Devon Adams and made plans to see The Matrix on Wednesday, April 21st, which still perplexes her. “It could mean that they had planned [the shootings] and didn’t have a set date or something like that, you know,” she says. “It could mean anything. But it seems ‘cause Dylan never ever wanted to disappoint me.”

On the Basement Tapes, Eric with Dylan discuss Nick Foss in his psychology class and too much laughing:

Eric: “Shut the fuck up, Nick, you laugh too much! And those two girls sitting next to you, they probably want you to shut the fuck up, too! Jesus! Rachel and Jen…and.. whatever.“

and according to Brooks, Nick Baumgart…

Shortly after Eric and I had our falling-out, Eric figured out a way to get two of
his enemies with one shot. He and Dylan plotted a new “ Rebel Mission” against
Nick Baumgart. Eric had decided he didn’t like the way Nick laughed. It was ridiculous, but no more ridiculous than choosing to hate my brother for telling him to get off the computer, or hating me because I didn’t want to drive him to school anymore. The same “ clownish” traits that had made us laugh so hard at Nick’s antics in the library during freshman year now had Eric hating him with a passion. Go figure. Dylan and Nick had never been great friends, not even in grade school, and I imagine it wasn’t hard for Eric to convince him to help with the plan.

On prom night?  Yes.

It’s true that Chris Morris and Tom Klebold wanted to go inside the school to stop them. They wouldn’t allow Chris to and Tom got to the school way too late. When Tom had called Sue at her office it was already 12:05 pm – 3 minutes before the boys shot themselves. 😦

No. Jeffco considers the case closed so they would have no reason to release anything new. On the distant bright side, Eric and Dylan’s parents’ depositions are still due to release in 2027 so we’ve got another 9-year wait for that. Yikes, I know. 😉  My guess is that the 20th anniversary will sadly be a rehash with lots of Cullen propaganda used in media. Unless, of course, Randy Brown finally finishes and releases his book on Amazon.  We may get some documentaries from some of ex CHS students. I know Sam Granillo was creating one called Wounded Minds. I’m not sure if the project is on hold though.  Plus, the We Are Columbine doc.

Aww, why thank. 🙂 ❤  

Well, the L sign on the forehead means “Loser” and it became a thing in the nineties from pop culture.  I tend to think that, yes, Eric (and at times probably with Dylan), experienced that gesture from others – jock, preps, etc. and he didn’t like that Mike was flippantly doing it with people he probably felt didn’t exactly deserve to be on the degrading receiving end of it. 

Both liked and hated their parents all at the same time.  Just like any other older teenage boy, you know?   Their parents did things that annoyed the fuck out of them or pissed them off and that’s all natural, normal stuff when a dude starts to break away from his mom and dad, becoming an independent adult. At the same time, the loved their parents, of course.  Dylan felt he had “better parents than most” and Eric felt unworthy of how “great” his parents were even though he felt they made mistakes. Ultimately, Eric felt like he failed living up to his parents especially his military dad.  Dylan felt like he was in a state of failing his parents after being so model and perfect for them for many years in his childhood.. and it was only going to get worse if he continued on in this existence. Plus, over time, Dylan had mentally detached himself from what used to matter to him to the point where ending his suffering had become his goal priority.  But love and respect for their parents wasn’t enough to stop them from sending a message they felt needed to be sent with NBK nor, they believed, would it put an end to the pain and discontent they felt they were suffering in their lives. 

Thanks for taking a look at it.  I kind of suspected that was the case.  The police are often pretty sloppy with their handwriting in general on those reports. So, it wouldn’t surprise me if they lazily ticked off in a nebulous fashion or that the ink smudged.  Of course, had Dylan been uncooperative, you can bet his parents would’ve been notified and it’d surely be something mentioned in Sue’s book. Honestly, though, Dylan and Eric were docile little obedient, respectful fuckers once the shock and sting of being caught red-handed had fully begun to sink in.. Besides of which, the two had watched and mocked enough COPS episodes and were too intelligent to not become like the stupid fuckers that acted all belligerent and cray with the authorities on the show. lol   

They were busy little beavers with gear up and propane bomb prep to take care of. 

Wait why do you think she wouldn’t go there?