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Did Dylan ever trip over his big feet

I imagine the Klebolds holding on to it and keeping it either in the guest bedroom (his former bedroom) or somewhere else in the house. Or, hmm..they might’ve possible given it to Nate or Zack for college.  We can only guess… Kind of funny that people think about little things like this. lol

Dylan was in love with the notion of ‘love’. He loved and cherished his fantasies of how ‘love’ would be while envisioned being with a girlfriend basically ‘made for him’.  At first, newly being in a relationship with a girlfriend, Dylan would be besotted and giddy. He’d be love drunk basically in the early days when everything was new and exciting.  Once he got past his inhibitions and shyness, he would want to spend a lot of time with her too partially because being in love is about loving yourself just a bit more too in knowing someone else cares about you.  But I tend to think the reality of being in a real relationship over time and experiencing not only the positive but also the negative aspects of his girlfriend (in response to his own deficiencies) in various relationship struggles would tend to lessen his fantasy idealized expectations of her. So, his girlfriend wouldn’t be on a pedestal but now on an equal level as himself. Him simply having a girlfriend and being with around her wouldn’t make all of lifes difficulties go away because new challenges would present themselves in their own dynamics and circumstances surrounding. That’s just how life here on earth is!   He would learn that a real relationship isn’t just about being in love with someone that seems ‘perfect’ for him but also takes mutual work on both parts to unconditionally love the genuine person, flaws and all.  Don’t get me wrong, I think he’d adore his girlfriend but that’s not the same as holding her high up on a pedestal. He would be naturally inclined to take good care of her but she would not be the ideal love perfection he’d imagined in his naive pre-relationship fantasies.  I spoke a bit more on the pedestal thing here and the issues he might have in a relationship.

I think Eric silently suffered through the rest of NBK with a throbbing, swelling, bloody nose. He was miserable but he was running on what was left of his adrenaline to see him through to the end.  Whining and complaining about pain is something someone does that plans to live. He was a soldier on a war mission that needed to be strong during battle until the very end, no matter what.

His pants were tucked in but I think after the kickback of shooting himself in the head, he fell back hard in a total reclining position and so his pants partially untucked from his boots.

No, that was just perfect. *applauds* You did a fine job reiterating my (now rather redundant) soapbox speech lol on bullying and how it destroys people.  

If you actually read the content of this blog you’d know better than to accuse me of forgetting.  I’m quite transparent and upfront about the bullying that the two occasionally progressed into engaging in at the school.  Even still,  there is no near-equivalent comparison to the severity and frequency that the kind of bullying the school’s favored jocks participated in at this school with multiple students. It’s apples to oranges.  The only thing agreed on here is that yes, the boys had bullied but no, they did not come to the school throwing their weight around and instigating it. It was behavior they learned over time as a result of having been on the receiving end of bullying.  Yes, on the last day of their lives, E & D were certainly “no better than the people that bullied them” . I would agree with that point but I’ll add, that on the last day of their lives they were far, far worse dear anon. They outdid the jocks but then, that was their point.  For years, the jocks went low so in ultimate retaliation, E & D’s solution was to go the absolute lowest to have the last word on their school.  It was the ultimate ‘fuck you’.

They’re alright  While I appreciate some of their contributions and enthusiasm, I find that they can be a bit sloppy and are off with accuracy and facts about the case at times.  

No, some other student that attended CHS experienced that abuse:

“When Tom went to pick up Dylan’s car from the police station a few weeks after the event, one of the officers said to him, “My son came home from that school one day and they’d set his hair on fire right in the hall— his whole scalp was burned. I wanted to take that school apart brick by brick, but he said it would only make it worse.”  

– Source: Far from the Tree by Andrew Solomon

Diversion File Intake Questions:

[EH Diversion p. 3] he reported letting his anger build up and punching walls

[EH Diversion p. 24] EH reported he had a “short temper; often get angry at almost anything I don’t like”

[EH Diversion p. 39] punched walls four times a month 

Eric began taking Zoloft for depression about 6 weeks ago [Feb. 21 1998]. He said that he is feeling better now that he is on medication. Eric said that he has problems with anxiety and allows his anger to build up until he explodes. Eric says when he gets really mad he punches walls. He is seeing a therapist once or twice a month. The family also meets with him on occasion. Eric said that he has thought about suicide a couple of times, but never seriously, mostly out of anger.

Parents version:
[EH Diversion p. 17] parents noted outbursts including punching things (at work and school, but not at home) 

Problems Your Child Had or Is Currently Having: Anger, Depression, Suicidal Thoughts • After this incident occurred, Eric expressed his feelings concerning the above items to a psychologist. The doctor recommended antidepressant medication which seems to have helped. His mood is more upbeat. Eric seems to suppress his anger, then “blow up” and hit something or verbally lash out. He hasn’t done this at home but has done it at school and work.

Eric punched walls very often when he was angry. He was taken to the hospital freshman year for punching a brick wall and thought he broke his hand. So, it is unknown of how long he had been punching walls in a way to express his anger, but it had been at least four years.

As a military recruiter, he had access to a list of local high school students. That’s how he called Eric Harris on Friday, April 2, 1999, eighteen days before
Columbine. They had a twenty-minute phone interview as Gonzales did a
pre-screening. He asked about medical background, divorce, mental
health, counseling, prescription drug use, along with height, weight, and
any use of glasses. Eric said he had had a broken nose and broken wrist
when he was younger;Gonzales didn’t recall how they happened.

Source: Columbine: A True Crimes Story – by Jeff Kass

I typed Eric as an INTJ. So, you and I are in agreement. 🙂  You can E-C Search “INTJ” (or “INFP” for Dylan) to find all the posts on this. 

Doubtful. Sue describes him as a very self-managing and flawless child.  Only needed to be taught something once and he was up and running. I tend not to think he had such problems as bed wetting. 

His ballcap was returned to his parents. 

Who you ask?  The narcissistic, rule-flouting assholes that dominated the school for years and psychologically murdered and damaged a great many innocent kids by bullying and harassing them and right in plain sight of the teachers. What they did is criminal in its own special fucked up way.  None of these fuckers ever even reflected and owned up to the fact that much of the shit they pulled created a toxic climate in the school that escalated the birthing of this tragedy. 

Ultimately, the assholes had a hand in creating victims, yes, but also those other ‘assholes’ that wanted to blow up their entire school.   

I’ll be damned if I’m going to spend any more time devoting a whole post to showcasing photos of Rocky and the rest of the thug jocks. My stance is that they are undeserving of any kind of gratuitous attention, especially on a blog about an individual who had an intense disliking on them for reasons stated above.  

I like all of you. 🙂  

And I prefer not to play the favorites game every month.

This question has been asked before so you can always search for blogs I’ve mentioned in the past.  I honestly am not fickle and don’t change my likes on a monthly basis.

This blog is all-inclusive. Namaste. ❤

Nah.. E-C Search “

hygiene

“ for all of the many answers to this question.

You’re probably referring to Melissa Sowder?  See here, 

here,  and here

Same, tbh.  I guess they are applying it to themselves while asking the question holding out hope that Eric and Dylan would give them the time of day.  Ironically, in reality, most girls wouldn’t give E & D the time of day.

Both parents account about their boys.  I believe the victims’ families were given the opportunity to ask them questions as well.

Eric and Dylan  (they are a two for one 😉 )