>>@8tracks: The Doom Generation Official Soundtrack

1995

Click here for samples including 1:Intro w/ Rose McGowan

Here’s some that I think Dyl would’ve liked. *

//1: Intro
//2: Curve – On The Wheel *
//3: Love & Rockets – This Heaven
//4: Cocteau Twins – Summerblink
//5: The Wolfgang Press – Christianity (the adrian sherwood mix) *
//6: Meat Beat Manifesto – Paradise Now (remix)
//7: The Verve – Already Here
//8: The Jesus And Mary Chain – Penetration
//9: mc 900 ft Jesus – But If You Go
/10: Lush – Undertow (the spooky mix) *
/11: Babyland – Double Coupon
/12: Medicine – Slut
/13: Pizzicalo Five – Groovy Is My Names
/14: Extra Fancy – Violator
/15: Slowdive – Blue Skied an’ Clear *

WATCH The Doom Generation

Synopsis:

Jordan White and Amy Blue, two troubled teens, pick up an adolescent drifter, Xavier Red. Together, the threesome embark on a sex and violence-filled journey through an America of psychos and quickiemarts.


The Doom Generation is kind of a teen take of Natural Born Killers written and directed by Gregg Araki  a dude that made a few cynical, grunge youth nineties flicks. Dylan wanted the soundtrack for this one as well as Araki’s flick “Nowhere’. We can probably assume that he liked the style of these two movies as well as the musical groups selected for them.

The lovey-dovey, doom and gloom emo character Jordan White is amusingly played by James Duval and reminds me just a bit, in a lolzy exaggerated sort of way, of how devoted and love besotted Dyl might have become had he landed his true lady love. Jordan lays in bed at night with his sarcastic, apathetic Amy spinning creative fantasies of how the two could go out together in a blaze of glory in a romantically poetic joint suicide. Amy, played by the always awesome 90′s ‘It’ gal Rose McGowan, mostly treats Jordan like crap yet he’s content to stay faithful and put her needs before his own. Brings to mind Dyl’s acquiescing mindset: “My happiness, her happiness, NOTHING else matters.”  😉

Do you think that Dylan may have witnessed coyotes kill an animal or something at an early age? Im trying to rationalize his fear of dogs. Bc I live in quite a wild enviroment (much as he did) and i saw my dog get killed by another, and i know for a fact thats when i started to become fucked up. Maybe im reaching too far with this, but there are SO MANY things Dylan and I have in common that its actually weird to me when theres something about him that i cant figure out lol

It’s possible that Dyl might have acquired a kind of trauma from actually witnessing predatory animals attacking prey out in nature that was pretty much just outside his door step.  His property didn’t quite belong to him and his family. He once told his friend that as a kid, he fell asleep on the rocks outside and woke up at night hearing the sounds of coyotes howling –  which scared the crap out of him. I seem to recall that he was so scared he was petrified.  That would be something right there that would’ve contributed to his sense of intimidation with wild critters.  We know he preferred to swim in his friends’ pools because he didn’t like that his pool tended to have some dead birds, frogs and lizards occasionally floating within it.   I think Dyl may have felt a bit surrounded by the wild that was his home. It wasn’t quite a place where he could be completely comfortable outside. He adapted by being cautious and respectful of dogs, especially Devon’s huskies, which look a bit akin to wolves or coyotes.   I go into a bit of detail here on Dyl preferring cats to dogs. 

indigo-intj:

Being born on September 11, 1981 gives Dylan the numerology life path number of 3, which is associated with creativity, self-expression, independence, moodiness, love, intelligence, humor, and sensitivity. I got together some of the quotes about it that related to him the most.

The greatest happiness for persons with life path 3
– to love and be loved.

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Happy early Birthday, Dyl.  

It’s still seven hours to go MDT till you’re officially 34 in human years at 9:11 a.m. but, of course, none of that stuff really matters as you’ve transcended age and time. Here on earth, you’ll never look a day over seventeen yet you’re an old soul far beyond your earthly 34th b-day. 🙂

So, I’ll just close out the night here on E-C with a song that resonates of you so deeply for me that I can sense that vibe of yours every time and it makes me smile and get those head tingles (reasons are under the cut at the end of this post).  

The sentiment in the lyrics are simple and pure, no intricacy needed for unconditional love. Consider it a repetitive mantra even.  It’s what we all would’ve told you then..and it’s what all of us, as a collective consciousness, are saying/thinking to you now on your birthday – to stay with us today and receive the love.  It’s what we all need to tell one another because of you.  That’s why your life existence ultimately matters beyond your failing, your misdeed. 

“Beautiful”

Stay with us my darling
Tomorrow is a brighter day
Stay with us my darling
There are so many things to love

You are so beautiful to me
You are so beautiful to everyone

Heaven The Halcyons is a place I cannot see
When I’m beside you it’s so close to me
These are the reasons you should stay
There is so much that you can give

You are so beautiful to me
You are so beautiful to everyone
There are so many things to see
You are so beautiful to me

You’re a diamond I can’t buy
You’re a sin I can forgive
And when you sink into the dark
Know that I am there with you

You are so beautiful to me
You are so beautiful to everyone
There are so many things to see
You are so beautiful to me

You are so beautiful to me
You are so beautiful to everyone
There are so many things to see
You are so beautiful to me

I realized the reason I kept gravitating to this song was because it’s like Dyl’s essence is folded within it by way of that funky personal signature riff from Chico’s Groove [.29].  The moment it dawned on me was like discovering some subliminal message embedded within the mirroring melody – and in a song called “Beautiful” no less – of all titles. It made me laugh to myself in instant recognition. To me it feels as though this song is almost like a companion piece ‘book-end’ to The Smashing Pumpkin’s ‘Beautiful’ where, instead of his expounding about the splendor of his ‘her’, we are convincing him of his worth, his beauty, his right and reason to have lived -his value even now – despite everything… 

Anyway, enough metaphysical poetic waxing.  I should be off to bed at nearly 2 am on this fine September 11th… G’night all. 🙂

it’s kind of this halfway point
though the horizon stays the same
the sun always rises in the east
and sets near your home out west
(you’re not here to see it)

it’s kind of this halfway point
like standing on a bridge
thinking “what if I jump”
but remaining still instead
(you leaped further than any of us)

it’s kind of this halfway point
death balances the scales of life
the weight of a legacy remembers
all the bright and dark of time
(your everlasting contrast)

it’s kind of this halfway point
of seventeen long years
scratch out that number
it should’ve been thirty-four
(you know this as well as I)

it’s kind of this halfway point
between a hello and a goodbye
and it makes me say “I can’t
forget about you even if I try”
(happy birthday)

whispered at the sky
(via thedragonrampant)

You are seven when you come home
covered in red for the first time.
You skinned your knees playing in the schoolyard.
Your mother picks the grit out of the cuts,
and puts Band-Aids over them.

You are seventeen when you come home
covered in red for the second time.
You don’t want to talk about it, you say.
Later your mother creeps in and sees you
hugging your toy koala in your sleep.

You are still seventeen and
you will never come home again.
Now you are covered in red,
but this time
it’s for a very different reason.

34 today, s.b.w. (via lupihns)

So Dylan liked Dr. Pepper?? Was it his favorite drink?

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“Every year on Dylan’s birthday, Tom Klebold goes up to the place where the two used to hike and takes a Dr. Pepper, because Dylan loved Dr. Pepper, and the stuffed Koala that was Dylan’s childhood favorite.”

When Byron moved into an apartment in 1998, Dylan inherited his bedroom. He repainted the room, two black facing walls and two white facing walls with red shutters on the windows. He stocked a miniature refrigerator that had been a 17th birthday gift from the family with candy bars and Dr Pepper.”

Revolving subjects:

a.k.a. “Yeah, guess you could say Eric has a one track mind, pretty much. Hey… have you heard the new Rammstein cd?”


Danielle Danford said that she’d met Dylan Klebold in her Freshman year
(his Senior year), and that she met him through Kristen Theibault.  She said they usually met him out in the parking lot by his car.  She described Dylan Klebold as a good kid and she didn’t know of him having any major problems.  She said their conversations never was really involved.  Their conversations usually revolved around how their days were going.  She knew that Dylan Klebold was into the rock group Rammstein, and that’s all he seemed to talk about.  He would ask if they’d heard their new CD or the new album or new songs.  She said she never had any conversations about him being picked on, but she knew that the jocks had been giving him trouble.  She said that on one occasion, he spoke about how the jocks were giving him trouble but he didn’t elaborate any further.  She said that she had heard from Klebold that he was friends with Eric Harris and that in one conversation she remembers Klebold telling her that Eric Harris’ life revolved around guns and that was all he ever talked about.

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Eric was the only one that knew Dylan was capable of doing what he did tho, while his parents, Zack, Nate and everyone else had no idea (and i dont think Dylan himself was sure). Talk about “knowing” Dylan…

Eric thought he was the only one that knew what Dylan was ‘capable of‘ and the reason they both never told anyone what they both were capable of was because it was a secret meant for business partners in crime.  What Eric didn’t know about Dylan was that he wasn’t at all planning to do what he was ‘capable of’ with Eric at all, really, and all the way up until January ‘99, when Dylan finally resigned himself to going NBK with Eric for no other options.  The fact is, Zack knew what Dylan was capable of, and on a regular basis. But unlike Eric, Zack mostly just entertained their violent fantasies as a way to blow off steam.  Dylan’s preferential best friend didn’t take it to the level that Eric was committed to.

I get the feeling you don’t like Elliot Rodger because you’re a feminist, and you believe he hated women which really isn’t true at all. I feel bad for Elliot Rodger. He was as bad mentally disturbed than Eric and Dylan. He had 0 friends while Eric and Dylan had friends. He never spoke to women while Eric and Dylan did. Hell they even had friends who were girls and had girlfriends and went on dates.

“I get the feeling you don’t like Elliot Rodger because you’re a feminist, and you believe he hated women which really isn’t true at all.”

I”m a feminist, huh?  You drew that conclusion, why?, merely because I’m female?  lol   Ridiculousness!  Though, you’re right about one thing, Elliot didn’t just hate women, he hated the good looking, built men that were able to have those select few kinds of women that he, himself, desired.   If any friendly brunette/brown eyed woman approached Elliot and asked him out he wouldn’t have even jumped at the chance. Why?  Because unlike Eric and Dylan, Elliot wouldn’t be caught just dating any average woman – even to end his loneliness and lacking sex live – all because he believed himself only worthy and entitled to blonde ‘10′ goddesses. What a snoot with a fucking high criteria. Lower your standards if you want sex so bad, dude.   Elliot also hated minorities too, he hated blacks and asians and people of non-caucasian decent. He especially hated when he’d see a minority male dating, holding hands or kissing a blonde chick.  He couldn’t understand how any ‘”brutish Neanderthal” men (his words) could obtain beautiful women like that.  Well, Elliot, stop being such a coward and try being friendly and approachable, try and put a little work into actually. asking. a. girl. out, dude.  Don’t think the $400 sunglasses and that expensive car are going to win you a free ticket to women asking you, your Highness, out.    Elliott also hated minorities so much he spent a lot of time trying to conceal his asian decent by bleaching his hair platinum blonde.  He used a knife to kill his,poor, unsuspecting, innocent asian geeky housemates for chrissakes.   No, Eric and Dylan dated no more than a few times you can count on your fingers but that’s because they actually made attempts to throw themselves out there and socialize.  They made the effort, at the very least, even though they weren’t very successful.  Elliott thought himself too good to even try. He pouted and stomped his foot when no one -no one perfect enough in his book that is – would come to him and ask him out.  I mean, Eric and Dylan were narcissists but c’mon, at least they gave it a shot and that’s why they had friends and a few dates.   Elliot, by comparison, is the supreme narcissist sitting on his lofty throne and glaring at the world for not doing his bidding.  The dude never even tried once. What a big baby.  He gleefully spilled his steaming Starbucks lattes on couples walking past;  he attempted to shove a bunch of girls off of a balcony with the hopes of either gravely injuring them or sending them to their deaths.   Feel badly for Elliot Rodger all you want but you’ve not given me one good redeeming reason why I should.  This entire argument is lame, quite frankly, and it’s the first and last time I’ll entertain the “ooh, poor ole Eliot who was oh so lonely, you should feel more sorry for Elliot over Eric and Dylan’ ploy. It’s ridick.

I just reaf your theory on Dylan in gym classes. It actually made me cry because thats basically me in my gym classes (except for going rogh at girls, even tho i wanted to). You hit the exact spot with every single detail, even with subconscious stuff. I guess i never admitted to myself being late on purpose. I didnt get that me wanting to hit a girl was coming from anger because i knew she wouldnt let me hug her. You are incredible honestly and idk if i like it lol

Sometimes I ponder whether it’s time to put E-C to rest and stop blogging altogether but then I get an inspirational message like this one and it propels me… I’m glad you had the guts to share that this hit home for you personally. Seeing yourself in Dylan here may have been brutally honest but at least in your recognition, it clicked for you as to why you felt or did certain things in gym class. Now you can look back and understand yourself better in knowing that the anger was really rejection and hurt in disguise. This greatly means a lot to me that you took the time to share this – put a smile on my face, even.
So, thanks. 👍😊❤️

Most romantic things dyl has said/wrote?

Hmm..that’s a tough one because his sophisticated use of language often comes across romantic and full of pure feeling.  I wouldn’t be surprised if Dylan had a previous incarnation in the Regency time period. Such precious gems his words are – so unique and full of longing.  Getting regular love notes dropped in your locker from Dylan would’ve been, well, something else… Just a simple gesture like that and you’d surely be floating on Cloud Nine all day long.

I’m going to cheat on this one since I can’t decide on just one or two things he wrote and go with a few that I find swoon-worthy..

I have thought you my true love for a long time now, but … well … there was hesitation.

“I
catch every one of these gazes with an open heart.”

“I still remember your laugh. Innocent, beautiful, pure. This semester I still see you rarely. I am entranced during 5th period, as we both have it off. “

“I see her in perfection, the halcyons. I await endless purity. I exist as less than
nothing without her
. –O. my humanity, –O.”

“I think
about you all the time, how this world would be a better place if you loved me as I do you.”

“I love you, ——– “

Do you think Dylan would go bald? I mean his hair was quite thick and plentiful but his dad was bald though. An interesting thing I HEARD (idk if its true) though is that the gene for male balding actually is determined by a guys maternal grandfather. Do YOU think he would go bald? I couldn’t imagine it lol

I’d say it’s a genetic given that Dylan would have premature baldness in his thirties and at the very least, a severe receding hairline. You can already see that he has a high forward and his front hairline is set back a ways. Of course, I”m not really basing any of this off material grandfather genetics but just for the sheer fact that Byron in his mid thirties (in the top/right pic below) is definitely following in his father’s footsteps with the male pattern balding. So, given that, it’s highly likely that Dylan would be too. As for Dyl having thick hair, I don’t think that was the case. It was curly so it’d would fluff up but I don’t think he had a lot of hair. 

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Chillin’ with Dylan

Tonight’s offering….

Prana

are Tsuyoshi SuzukiNick Taylor, and Andy Guthrie, a Goa trance project from
Japan. They were one of the most acclaimed pioneers of Goa Trance music style. They formed around 1995. Prana are one of the pioneers of Goa psy-trance subgenre, as their music brought about the exciting textures and unimaginable rips that characterize Goa psy trance to these days. Prana still considered as one of the most imaginative psychedelic trance groups around, and as one of the most acclaimed groups in the genre. Geomantik (Matsuri Productions 1997), is the band`s 2nd album, featuring remixes and collaboration by leading psy-trance artist of the 90`s, such as Total Eclipse, Tristan, Chakra, Green Nuns of the Revolution and more. The album is filled with solid, massive base-lines, blended with exciting spacious textures.

TRACKS

1. Geomantik (Feat. Merv from Eat Static)  (Eric purchased an Eat Static cd)

2. Alien pets

3. Primal orbit

4. Boundless

5. Scarab (Snake Thing rmx)

6. Scarab (Green Nuns of the Revolution rmx)

7. Starchild (Total Eclipse rmx)

8. Kiba (Tristan and Process rmx)

9. Taiyo (Chakra rmx)

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