You know, I don’t really think the boys even considered or fantasized what graduation might’ve been like for them at all really. Their minds were made up and anything beyond April, they were just completely checked out on.  The two weren’t really even raging or emotional this late stage in the game either. They planned the attack for at least eight months and so now they were on auto pilot mode with fine tuning the last minute details of their planning.  By the last couple of weeks, they were coasting in and winding down towards their date with destiny.  Even Brooks Brown mentioned that Eric seemed unusual ‘serene’ within the last couple of months  – whereas the year prior, in ‘98, he was more a frustrated, raging hothead. Dylan was chill and philosophical about it all if not quieter and sadder as perceived by a few people and family members.  Jocks drove by and threw bottles at their feet and Dylan said to Brooks matter of factly:  “don’t worry about it man, it happens all the time.”   So, there was this kind of focused  ‘calm before the storm’ demeanor about them.  It was too late by this point.  Had it been a few months back in ‘98,  if someone or something had made a drastic change either by making some kind of difference in either of the boys life or if someone had interceded with serious intervention and broken the two up then disaster might possibly have been averted.  Even if small, seemingly insignificant things happened, the ripples of positive change could’ve veered the boys off their destructive course.  For example, Dylan and Brooks had been spending time writing screenplays together.  If Dylan, Brooks and Zack had managed to convince the Ascot theater to allow them to put on their more edgy, creative productions (that Columbine disallowed) then Dylan might’ve found a creative outlet and a pinch more sense of self worth in doing something he felt some passion about. – or –  if Eric had begun dating Susan DeWitt back in the summer or fall of ‘98 she might have been the one to make that difference as he alluded in the Basement Tapes: ’‘Susan, sorry. Under different circumstances it would’ve been a lot different”.”  By March and April of ‘99, things were just simply too late.  They were going through the motions with mundane things like school and work, chugging along until the final countdown, and to do “what we had to do”. Their mindset was locked and they firmly believed what they would do was what had to be done and there was no other way around it.   Yes, it’s very sad and very frustrating when you watch the documentaries or a few of their funny, creative amateur video production tapes.  Many people senselessly lost their lives that day to a karma-like tragedy. All fifteen victims including Dylan and Eric.  Two victimized boys lashed out, randomly destroying the lives of thirteen unknown victims as forfeit recompense for their own pain.  A vicious cycle of victim->victimize->victim in which all are lost.