So basically the friendship Eric and Dylan had wasn’t as “good” as people say it is? Dylan only did it with him because he was the only one who would actually do it right? Dylan wanted to either do it with his love or zach?

Oh, the friendship between Dylan and Eric was good enough..in a bad sort of way. 😉 According to Dylan, he was ‘very good friends’ with Eric; Eric consider Dylan his ‘best friend’. Above and beyond that, you can think of it like the two were the best sort of business arrangement in a friendship because both of the two were committed to having revenge and getting even with the school. They talked about blowing up the school and they knew they both meant it unlike when they talked about it with other friends. They understood it was a one -way mission, ending with their deaths, whether that’d be suicide by cop or by their own hand, and they were vested in their secret plan. Zach joined in on the regular ‘hate school/hate the jocks’ jokes but he wasn’t genuinely dead serious in his hate anymore as he used to be with Dylan. Zach now had a girlfriend in his life and so life was looking at bit more optimistic than it had been. Dylan still resonated with Zach as a person and missed him very much – but he knew things had just..changed. they would never be on the same page anymore with their misery. Still, he shared personal, emotional stuff with Zach which was not his relationship style with Eric. Dylan felt stuck and frustrated and only Eric was there – consistently- to meet him at the same level and to provide a solution for that pain. As for Dylan’s ‘love’, she was an ideal he had held in his mind. He ultimately realized and resigned to the fact that the reality of ‘she’ would never come forward or reveal herself in this lifetime. The two would never confess/return feelings for one another – as he’d hoped and longed for in his imagination – it just wasn’t in the cards. His dream of going NBK with “The Girl” was just that, a dream. Yet, the thoughts of happiness about her carried him forward, propelled him to meet one last goal that meant a hell of a lot more than getting good grades or graduating on to college. He would realize the reality of Judgment and his death day with Eric, his very good friend who would be there with him in their suicide pact. Then beyond that, he and his love would be in wait of each other, their reward would be in finding one another on the other side. While Eric and Dylan may not have both equally considered one another ‘best friends’, they were ideal friends, in that perfect storm sort of way: right time, right conditions and with a common interest binding them together in one shared goal they both badly sought to accomplish.

Why does Devon Adams always go on about being a bestfriend of dylan when he wrote in his journal that he wanted to kill her?

I get the sense that Devon Adams was very sociably inclusive and generous in calling close associates of her’s “best friends”. Like Robyn Anderson, Devon seemed to work on extending a friendship and building trust with timid Dylan. The reward of doing so meant that both girls got to know the “real” Dylan Klebold. It’d take a bit of time to get Dyl to drop his guard but when he finally felt comfortable enough in doing so around those few girls that worked at it such as Devon and Robyn, he’d reveal that more chill, zany side of himself and also the loyalty. Dylan also became very close with Zach and he mentions in his journal that he considers Zach his best friend. Zach and Dylan are super close because they talk on the phone nightly and share their upsets and bond in depression. At some point in ‘97, Devon and Zach become a couple. For Zach, the intimacy with Devon allows him to go to her for counsel to help him with problems. The dynamic for Dylan becomes like ‘threes a crowd’. By Zach and Devon wanting to spend all their time together, Dylan fells betrayed and kicked out like he’s the third wheel. It is not hard to see Dylan grappling with this sudden turn of events in his journal. He recalls all the good times with Zach, all the fun things they did together for the first time. Instead of being angry at Zach for not being there for him, he directs his anger at Devon. Devon is the one that took his best friend away from him. He holds her responsible. In his struggle with feeling angry and abandoned by his best friend, he jokes in a bitterly, sarcastic way about Devon “..who I wouldn’t mind killing.” Did he mean this in the literally sense? I say, no. Was he ranting about Devon maliciously to blow off steam? Yes. The fact of the matter is, Dylan is fifteen and a half years old and has just started writing in his journal and he is years away from the Columbine attack. In my opinion, people say nasty stuff all the time in their journal. This is what journals are for, right? To express all the ugliness you’re feeling. Dylan’s idle consideration that he wouldn’t mind killing Devon is not some red flag clue that he’s serious about doing so or that he is showing sociopathic tendencies. I think to reach that conclusion is a bit of a stretch. Dylan was deeply hurt. His two good friends had found an even closer bond in each other and Dylan felt left in the dust. Dylan was also jealous that he couldn’t have the same sort of thing with a girl. Devon was the key that took his guy friend away, his emotional sounding board. He was angry and expressed that he’d metaphorically like to kill Devon for instigating change that made him feel all the more alone. Saying you want to kill someone in your personal journal is normal and natural. Who hasn’t done this at some point? Come clean, now people. 😉 It’s a way to to exorcise the pain and outrage. It’s cathartic. Nothing more. Also, Dylan remained friends with Devon the whole time he said these things in his journal about her. He was still her friend even though it was a struggle to get used to the new dynamics.

Quirks: The idiosyncrasies of DBK

Custom AoL T-Shirt

Ryan Walda stated that he attended an English class with him last semester, but he didn’t have much to do with Dylan, except to talk on a few occasions. I asked Ryan if he and Dylan had ever gotten into an argument and Ryan stated that he and Dylan exchanged word once about a T-shirt that Dylan had been wearing. I asked Ryan what the T-shirt had said and he stated that it had “AOL. where cool hackers hang out” printed on it. Ryan had asked about the shirt because Dylan had worn it almost everyday and he just wanted to know what it meant. Dylan replied that it had to do with him doing his own programming and an instant message group he used called “PuNtErS aNd PrOgS”.

What did Dylan’s AoL Shirt say and did he make it?

Dylan’s notebook sketches of his t-shirt design ideas

In Leetspeak

Front: AoL wHeRe KewLz HaXoRz ArE

Back: AoLeeT d∅∅d!

Did Dylan not like being Jewish? Did he celebrate hannukha?

I don’t think Dylan thought one way or the other about it. He came from a mixed faith family and was raised celebrating the significant traditional holidays of both religions such as Passover, Hanukkah, Christmas. When Eric became interested in Hitler and the Nazis philosophy, Dylan seemed to have ignored his partial jewish heritage; it was waaay on the back burner of his mind. He probably considered himself even less a christian because the overzealous turn-off the fundamentalist christian community was in Littleton. Overall, he was apathetic about religion in general so wasn’t fussed about any of it. Dylan went along with Eric’s nazi fascination and it doesn’t appear that he was nervous or needed to conceal his partial heritage. I think Dylan may have just wished it away by not entertaining that he was part jewish. Because of this, it was easy for him to join in with Eric’s Nazi fascination – which he, himself, also thought was cool in his symbolic representation of bad ass power. Dylan joining in with the ‘heil hitlers’ during each strike in bowling class was simply edgy fun for the two and a bonus if it got a rise out of their conservative classmates. Dylan was, apparently, so lax about concealing his partial jewish heritage to the point where he let slip that his family observed Passover in the Basement Tapes. Dylan then tried to minimize the percentage of jewish heritage he had on his mother’s side, to a very incredulous, confounded Eric. Apparently, this revelation did not change anything about their friendship – both were far too vested in NBK to let a little jewishness get in the way. 😉

What were Eric and Dylan’s favorite movies? I’m sorry I know you get that a lot ;(

Dylan’s favorite movie list and my hypothetical ranking:

#1 Fav: Lost Highway
#2 Natural Born Killers
#3 Reservoir Dogs
Pulp Fiction, Vampires, From Dusk Til Dawn,

 He saw these as well and not sure if they’d rank on his top 10.  We know he liked the soundtracks: The Doom Generation, Nowhere

Guilty pleasures: 😉 Beach Babes 2: Cavegirl Island,
Enemy Gold

Eric and Dylan’s movie list


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fromrussiawithlotoflove:

Dylan: “Get the fuck out!”

From the very rare footage taped by Brooks, of Dylan age 16, playing video games on playstation (mostly tekken 3) and watching rammstein music video at his home with Zack and Brooks.

We can hear a girl(?) laughing, maybe it’s Devon Adams or Robyn.

Dyl (or perhaps someone else?) doing The Donald Duck.

Mm..no. Get ready for this: that’s Dyl laughing like a girl and someone else is doing The Donald Duck “Get the fuck out!” voice. Yep.


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fromrussiawithlotoflove:

Dylan, Brooks and Zach thanks their fellow cast and crew members in a tribute video recorded late 98. Here is a little audio and transcript:

Dylan: Damn good job!

Zach: yeah!

Dylan: Brooks, you were ugly as shit. And that’s hard to beat with the way it is.

Zach: hehehe

Brooks: I was uglier than I even am usually.

Dylan : Sorry about that… sorry

Brooks : Tough job, tough job…

You can see the video here.

Dyl calls it as he sees it. Touche! 😉 Oh no, dude, don’t say you’re sorry.. We’re not.

I think im in love with dylan? do you ever feel this way?

I think it’s pretty easy to fall in a state of ‘love’ over Dylan. Essentially, the feeling of love is about caring.  Honestly, it’s almost par for the course when you intensely study the case and the inner struggles of both boys from the inside out.   Looking around on Tumblr it’s pretty evident that a great many of us feel this way about Dylan -or Eric-  or even both.  There is a quality about Dylan that has the ability to speak to a certain some of us.  It’s an intense identification/mirroring type thing and on top of that, he also strikes an emotional cord within us. When that happens it’s hard to look away, to not care.  I think my almost effortless ability to gravitate with Dylan upon delving into Columbine – my instinctual ability to simply want. to. care. coupled with the need to understand just who he was as an individual with such brilliant but wasted potential – translates into the overall positive love vibe energy of the Everlasting-Contrast blog.:) Understanding Dylan and his human struggle hopefully brings knowledge and inspires enlightenment to anyone that stops by.  Let’s take those lemons of the tragedy and turn them into lemonade. 🙂 

I know you believe in the spirit world and stuff. Does this mean Eric and Dylan are in complete peace now and when we die we will see them there?

If you mean are they are more at peace in comparison to the lives they led here in the 90s? then yes, in that regard, they are.  It’s just that.. they have a whole new level of soul challenges on the other side some of which is dealing with residual unfinished business in regards to their personalities developed in their last incarnations. As energy forms, we constantly grow and change; we reach various states of peace through wisdom and enlightenment.

Here is my answer to whether we can ‘see them when we die’.

Quirks: The idiosyncrasies of DBK

Sickle and Hammer Soviet medallion pin

Matt Cornwell and Dylan were in composition class, but they only talked once.“That’s because he wore this Soviet pin on his boot,” Matt said. “One of the last days I was like, ‘Why do you wear that pin on your boot?’ And he was like, ‘Just to get a reaction out of people."’

Present on the left boot was a red star medallion containing a sickle and a hammer. – Dylan Klebold’s Autopsy , External Examination.

Will we all be able to meet Eric and Dylan when we die? I like to think that Eric and Dylan are now friends with all the victims they killed.

Mm..we can meet anyone we have intent to meet in the spirit world. If the boys are still relevant to you in some meaningful way by the time you pass on, you can resonate that connection. Friends with the victims and one big happy family, you think? Possibly for some but not all. Each soul that participated in Columbine is in varying states of enlightenment. I tend to think there is still unresolved work that needs to finish to complete the circle of forgiveness. It’s not exactly what you’d think would be obvious: the assumption that the victims have to find it in their hearts to forgive the shooters for stealing their lives. It’s more about the shooters fully coming to terms with their actions, owning full responsibility in seeing not only their own short sighted perspective but also including the victims pov and then the hardest part: forgiving themselves first, in totality, before they can find healing and absolution with their victims. 🙂 I’m not suggesting that that hasn’t happened – even if partially – only that it’s not as neat and tidy (for everyone) that crosses over to simply bury the hatchet with everyone and be reconnected. Depends on how much earthly ego/personality attachment is involved.

I know that Dylan and Eric are in the spirit world but are they there together? Still good buds? Btw will Eric be 18 and Dylan will be 17 forever?

Dylan and Eric are sometimes together in the spirit world but definitely not joined at the hip like the co-dependent best buds as they were on the earth in 1999.  In some ways, the two recognize what each had intensely experienced together with one another as separate souls joining forces and so, in a way, that bond will never be broken. However, as spirit that are continually on a path of evolution and maturation so they are likely working separately, as individuals, to strive towards each of their own journeys of spiritual advancement.

Dylan had expressed in his journal many times how he believed that there were other existences.

Dylan describes it specifically like this: “Existence is a great hall, life is one of the rooms, death is passing thru the doors, & the ever-existent compulsion of everything is the curiosity to keep moving down the hall, thru the doors, exploring rooms, down this never-ending hall.” Dylan expresses how he longs to explore those potential possibilities. “Questions make answers, answers conceive questions, and at long last he is content.” 

He intuitively knew that there was more to universe than the one lifetime and he was having a hell of a time staying grounded within the restrictions of the earth.   Dylan also wrote with expressed intent as to what he believed his life would be like after death.  He was constantly comparing his struggles in humanity versus how effortless, blissful and loving it should be here as it was There, which caused him great consternation.  It was like he had a soul memory of how it was before he incarnated into the being of "Dylan Klebold.” So, he just already seemed to intuit the bigger picture, that there was more to it all.  He simply knew it to be true.  Dylan had one foot on the earth and the other firmly rooted in the previous memories of the spiritual realm of where he was conceived from.  He was homesick..he longed to go back home. 😦

Eric, on the other hand, just wasn’t sure of what was in store for him after death.  He hoped it’d be something akin to a ‘dream like state’ or entertained that maybe it could be like his Doom world.  He just didn’t see/visualize precisely the way Dylan knew and conceived of it in his mind.  I believe Eric struggled a bit more than Dylan with his self-inflicted re-entrance back within the spirit world, I think it’s likely that Dylan embraced and welcomed the spirit world almost immediately after death and with open arms.  

“Just know I’m going to a better place. I didn’t like life too much, and I know I’ll be happy wherever the fuck I go. So I’m gone.”

As for Eric, I feel he has spent more time reconciling the “question mark” direction he blasted himself off into with that shot gun to his mouth. His vibrational levels that he engages in would likely be different from Dylan’s.   In my opinion, Dylan and Eric may occasionally cross intersecting paths based on their previous incarnation bond –  but I think for the most part, each is experiencing separate spiritual journeys in relation to what each of their soul’s need for growth, enlightenment and wisdom that would continue to raise them to higher vibrational planes.  So, no, Dylan and Eric are not constantly together as they once were but this doesn’t mean that they are never together either. It’s simply that they no longer have the need to be that duo that they once were. They are multi-dimensional spirit now and no longer only the personalities of “Eric” and “Dylan” as they were in only one lifetime experience on the earth.  That is only one personality, one facet, within the totality of their soul being.

Also, as spirit, Dylan and Eric can and do present at the ages of their former selves. They can also present at a younger age, as a child of five or thirteen, and they can also even project as older men beyond the ages of their death.  Spiritual souls transcend the human limitations such as “age” and so they are not confined by the physical and can assume any form of age or state of being by way of thought. 

“Thought is the most powerful thing that exists – anything conceivable can be produced, anything & everything is possible, even in your physical world.”

Why did eric and dylan call themselves indigo and green?

In a multiplayer game, the other players appear as marines in differently colored uniforms and armor. In the Doom games the colors are green, indigo (gray), brown, and red, although various source ports permit more choices of color, and sometimes more than four players in a game. 

Personally, I think Dylan chose ‘Green’ because he liked the color. The t-shirt design ideas that he doodled in his journal/notebook tended to specify “dk. green shirt”  and his ‘AoL" shirt was a dark olive green. I think most guys pick basic black t-shirts.  So, Dylan’s signature Doom player color was ‘Green’.  Eric chose indigo (essentially gray) maybe because red was too flashy and brown was so blah and also his Prelude was gray (maybe?).  I don’t know. That’s a guess. lol   At any rate, these are the player colors they habitually used in late night multi-player ‘Deathmatches’ to the point that they secret code dubbed themselves “Green” and “Indigo”.