Suicide is the end result of a complex mix of pathology, character, and circumstance that produces severe emotional distress. This distress is so great that it impairs one’s ability to think and act rationally. From the writings Dylan left behind, criminal psychologists have concluded that he was depressed and suicidal. When I first saw copied pages of these writings, they broke my heart. I’d had no inkling of the battle Dylan was waging in his mind.

Susan Klebold (via lsd137)

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Eric and Dylan’s first class during spring semester was bowling.

At 6:15 a.m.

“It’s just to have fun,” classmate Jeni LaPlante said.

It was the only class she had with her closest friends: Sara Arbogast, Kim Carlin and Cindy Shinnick. Dylan and Eric bowled on a team with Nate Dykeman and Chris Morris.

One reason Kim and Sara liked the class is they could catch up with Eric. They hadn’t seen him much after quitting Blackjack in the fall.

“Eric bowled like an idiot,” Kim recalled, giggling.

“He’d throw it,” Sara said. “A lot of people laughed because it worked and he would get strikes and stuff.”

Sometimes Eric and Dylan shouted “Sieg Heil!” when they made strikes.

But something else stands out for the bowling partners: Dylan’s explosive temper.

Dylan would get so mad when he didn’t get strikes, Jeni said. One time he hit the bowling return machine really hard.

In fact, a tendency to flash quick anger was a trait Eric and Dylan shared.

“Eric had a short fuse,” said friend Joe Stair. “You could just tell he got mad easier than most people.”

But the way Joe saw it, Eric’s anger was a reflection of Eric’s passion.

“He got angry. But with other things he was really happy,” Joe said. “He was a very passionate person.”

Dylan Klebold Lived Life of Religious Contradictions

Dylan Klebold, one of two suspects in last week’s bloodbath at Columbine High School, led a life of contradictions.

Klebold, along with classmate Eric Harris, killed 12 fellow students and one teacher on April 20 before they committed suicide. Both were seniors at the Littleton high school, apparently members of a shadowy clique known as the Trenchcoat Mafia. Police have identified neo-Nazism and a fascination with Adolf Hitler as among several hate-oriented themes that influenced the pair.

Reports of the Klebold family’s Jewish ancestry first appeared last Friday in the Columbus Dispatch of Columbus, Ohio, where Dylan Klebold’s maternal great-grandfather, the late Leo Yassenoff, was a Jewish community leader and philanthropist. Also known as an outstanding football player for the Ohio State Buckeyes in his youth, Yassenoff had such lasting influence in Columbus that the city’s Jewish community center still bears his name.

The elder Yassenoff and his son, Milton Yassenoff, were members of the Columbus Reform congregation, Temple Israel, the Dispatch reported. Milton and his wife, Charlotte, who was not Jewish, raised their daughter Susan — Dylan Klebold’s mother — as a Jew. Although by Orthodox standards Susan wouldn’t be considered Jewish because her mother wasn’t Jewish, she was active in the Reform congregation during her youth his mother considered herself Jewish, yet the family belonged to a Lutheran church.

Dylan recited the Four Questions at a Passover seder recently held at his family home, yet he was buried in a Lutheran service on Saturday.

Traditionally given to the youngest person at the Seder table (usually the youngest son) to read aloud, the Four Questions are actually one question plus four clauses each of which are a short but complete overview of the story of Passover as told in the Passover Haggadah, or Book of Passover, which is given to each person at the table.

The Four Questions

On Saturday, the Denver Rocky Mountain News carried an interview with her hairdresser, Dee Grantz, who said that Susan Klebold had spoken to her about her shock at her son’s deed.

She reportedly told Grantz: “It’s so hard to see my son portrayed as a monster when that isn’t the boy I know. I don’t know where all this comes about prejudice. We never taught any prejudice in our home. [Dylan] never talked that way to me. I’m Jewish.”

Rabbi Raymond Zwerin of Denver’s Temple Sinai might have been speaking on behalf of many area Jews when he questioned the apparent media fascination with the issue.

“I wouldn’t consider him to be Jewish in any way or form,” Rabbi Zwerin said of Dylan Klebold. “He wasn’t raised Jewish. I don’t see anyone making a big deal about the fact that Harris was Catholic. Let’s not blame religion for this. This has nothing to do with religion or the failure of religion.”

As for Klebold’s Jewish forebears, the rabbi said simply, “I’m sure the grandfather and great-grandfather are twisting in their graves.”

Source – April 30, 1999

Susan Klebold did tell her pastor that something in her son’s voice spooked her Tuesday morning.

The goodbye had an edge to it,” she said, describing her son’s tone to the Rev. Don Marxhausen as “almost fatalistic.”She thought, maybe he’s in a bad mood,” he said. “Maybe he’s got a test today or something.” Dylan’s father, Thomas Klebold, who runs a mortgage business from his house, told the pastor he had detected “this slight tension” in his son a few days before the attack. Klebold made a mental note of it and thought he would get back to it, the pastor said.

They Hoped to Kill More

Dylan was incredible talented at sound design, at computer work, and at baseball". According to Devon, Dylan’s talents didn’t get the value it deserved, which depressed him. “He didn’t make the Columbine baseball team because he didn’t have a ‘name’ for himself, so he just gave up. He became apathetic, which is so dangerous

Devon Adams

It will be the most nerve-racking 15 minutes of my life, after the bombs are set and we’re waiting to charge through the school. Seconds will be like hours, I can’t wait. I’ll be shaking like a leaf.

Dylan Klebold (Transcript of The Basement Tapes)