I think Dylan initially thought of going NBK with best friend, Zach. They were very close, often commiserated in their shared dissatisfaction with life; they talked about intensely private stuff on the phone and even cried together. So, given that, it seemed the Zach was likely Dylan’s obvious choice when he had begun to entertain ‘NBK’ or ‘my killing spree’ in his journal. At some point, Dylan fell for a girl, or two (lol), and having watched ‘Natural Born Killers’ enough times, it seems equally plausible that his fantasies may have solidified on the ‘Bonnie and Clyde’ Us-against-The-World romantic scenario. How did he want this to go? If you look to the movie “Natural Born Killers” as a reference it pretty much gives you the gist of his potential suicidal foreplay with a guy/girl partner in crime duo. (I also think it’s pretty obvious that Dylan tried to emulate Mickey Knox with the same type of sun glasses and ponytail.)

After ‘“Fate” did not put Her in need of him and decide when they should be together,’ as he’d hoped, and since Zach was now happily distracted with a steady girlfriend, Dylan realized at some point, that his preferential options were running out to end his damnable ‘stasis’. His only remaining choice was to actually go through with doing NBK with Eric. “Maybe going “NBK” (gawd) with Eric is the way to break free.” He ends his concluded solution with a muttered resignation “I hate this.” It’s interesting because Dylan seems essentially preparing for two different NBKs simultaneously: in reality, he and Eric have been physically planning and preparing for NBK creating weapons, procuring guns and such for quite some time, yet, in Dylan’s fantasy world, he probably had envisioned His Love and himself together against humanity before fulfilling their suicide pact. “I’m STILL alone, still in pain, so is she.” After he embraces NBK with Eric, Dylan seems to be satisfied that his true love will never reveal herself on the earth because it just wasn’t supposed to happen in this lifetime – because “Fate” decided he would unite with Her on the other side or in the next life. So, no need to worry about it. NBK with Eric as his partner, would provide the necessary vehicle to his exit from this world so that he could find his way to His Love and be free.

“So I wait 5 more days. 5 more days. 5 eternities, & I know her & I are all conceived from ourselves & each other, every night of the self-awareness journey. The zombies were a test, to see if our love was genuine. We are in wait of our reward, each other. The zombies will never cause us pain anymore. The humanity was a test. I love you, love. Time to die, time to be free, time to love.”