Quirks: The idiosyncrasies of DBK

Custom AoL T-Shirt

Ryan Walda stated that he attended an English class with him last semester, but he didn’t have much to do with Dylan, except to talk on a few occasions. I asked Ryan if he and Dylan had ever gotten into an argument and Ryan stated that he and Dylan exchanged word once about a T-shirt that Dylan had been wearing. I asked Ryan what the T-shirt had said and he stated that it had “AOL. where cool hackers hang out” printed on it. Ryan had asked about the shirt because Dylan had worn it almost everyday and he just wanted to know what it meant. Dylan replied that it had to do with him doing his own programming and an instant message group he used called “PuNtErS aNd PrOgS”.

What did Dylan’s AoL Shirt say and did he make it?

Dylan’s notebook sketches of his t-shirt design ideas

In Leetspeak

Front: AoL wHeRe KewLz HaXoRz ArE

Back: AoLeeT d∅∅d!

Did Dylan not like being Jewish? Did he celebrate hannukha?

I don’t think Dylan thought one way or the other about it. He came from a mixed faith family and was raised celebrating the significant traditional holidays of both religions such as Passover, Hanukkah, Christmas. When Eric became interested in Hitler and the Nazis philosophy, Dylan seemed to have ignored his partial jewish heritage; it was waaay on the back burner of his mind. He probably considered himself even less a christian because the overzealous turn-off the fundamentalist christian community was in Littleton. Overall, he was apathetic about religion in general so wasn’t fussed about any of it. Dylan went along with Eric’s nazi fascination and it doesn’t appear that he was nervous or needed to conceal his partial heritage. I think Dylan may have just wished it away by not entertaining that he was part jewish. Because of this, it was easy for him to join in with Eric’s Nazi fascination – which he, himself, also thought was cool in his symbolic representation of bad ass power. Dylan joining in with the ‘heil hitlers’ during each strike in bowling class was simply edgy fun for the two and a bonus if it got a rise out of their conservative classmates. Dylan was, apparently, so lax about concealing his partial jewish heritage to the point where he let slip that his family observed Passover in the Basement Tapes. Dylan then tried to minimize the percentage of jewish heritage he had on his mother’s side, to a very incredulous, confounded Eric. Apparently, this revelation did not change anything about their friendship – both were far too vested in NBK to let a little jewishness get in the way. 😉

What were Eric and Dylan’s favorite movies? I’m sorry I know you get that a lot ;(

Dylan’s favorite movie list and my hypothetical ranking:

#1 Fav: Lost Highway
#2 Natural Born Killers
#3 Reservoir Dogs
Pulp Fiction, Vampires, From Dusk Til Dawn,

 He saw these as well and not sure if they’d rank on his top 10.  We know he liked the soundtracks: The Doom Generation, Nowhere

Guilty pleasures: 😉 Beach Babes 2: Cavegirl Island,
Enemy Gold

Eric and Dylan’s movie list


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fromrussiawithlotoflove:

Dylan: “Get the fuck out!”

From the very rare footage taped by Brooks, of Dylan age 16, playing video games on playstation (mostly tekken 3) and watching rammstein music video at his home with Zack and Brooks.

We can hear a girl(?) laughing, maybe it’s Devon Adams or Robyn.

Dyl (or perhaps someone else?) doing The Donald Duck.

Mm..no. Get ready for this: that’s Dyl laughing like a girl and someone else is doing The Donald Duck “Get the fuck out!” voice. Yep.


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fromrussiawithlotoflove:

Dylan, Brooks and Zach thanks their fellow cast and crew members in a tribute video recorded late 98. Here is a little audio and transcript:

Dylan: Damn good job!

Zach: yeah!

Dylan: Brooks, you were ugly as shit. And that’s hard to beat with the way it is.

Zach: hehehe

Brooks: I was uglier than I even am usually.

Dylan : Sorry about that… sorry

Brooks : Tough job, tough job…

You can see the video here.

Dyl calls it as he sees it. Touche! 😉 Oh no, dude, don’t say you’re sorry.. We’re not.

I think im in love with dylan? do you ever feel this way?

I think it’s pretty easy to fall in a state of ‘love’ over Dylan. Essentially, the feeling of love is about caring.  Honestly, it’s almost par for the course when you intensely study the case and the inner struggles of both boys from the inside out.   Looking around on Tumblr it’s pretty evident that a great many of us feel this way about Dylan -or Eric-  or even both.  There is a quality about Dylan that has the ability to speak to a certain some of us.  It’s an intense identification/mirroring type thing and on top of that, he also strikes an emotional cord within us. When that happens it’s hard to look away, to not care.  I think my almost effortless ability to gravitate with Dylan upon delving into Columbine – my instinctual ability to simply want. to. care. coupled with the need to understand just who he was as an individual with such brilliant but wasted potential – translates into the overall positive love vibe energy of the Everlasting-Contrast blog.:) Understanding Dylan and his human struggle hopefully brings knowledge and inspires enlightenment to anyone that stops by.  Let’s take those lemons of the tragedy and turn them into lemonade. 🙂 

I know you believe in the spirit world and stuff. Does this mean Eric and Dylan are in complete peace now and when we die we will see them there?

If you mean are they are more at peace in comparison to the lives they led here in the 90s? then yes, in that regard, they are.  It’s just that.. they have a whole new level of soul challenges on the other side some of which is dealing with residual unfinished business in regards to their personalities developed in their last incarnations. As energy forms, we constantly grow and change; we reach various states of peace through wisdom and enlightenment.

Here is my answer to whether we can ‘see them when we die’.

Quirks: The idiosyncrasies of DBK

Sickle and Hammer Soviet medallion pin

Matt Cornwell and Dylan were in composition class, but they only talked once.“That’s because he wore this Soviet pin on his boot,” Matt said. “One of the last days I was like, ‘Why do you wear that pin on your boot?’ And he was like, ‘Just to get a reaction out of people."’

Present on the left boot was a red star medallion containing a sickle and a hammer. – Dylan Klebold’s Autopsy , External Examination.

Will we all be able to meet Eric and Dylan when we die? I like to think that Eric and Dylan are now friends with all the victims they killed.

Mm..we can meet anyone we have intent to meet in the spirit world. If the boys are still relevant to you in some meaningful way by the time you pass on, you can resonate that connection. Friends with the victims and one big happy family, you think? Possibly for some but not all. Each soul that participated in Columbine is in varying states of enlightenment. I tend to think there is still unresolved work that needs to finish to complete the circle of forgiveness. It’s not exactly what you’d think would be obvious: the assumption that the victims have to find it in their hearts to forgive the shooters for stealing their lives. It’s more about the shooters fully coming to terms with their actions, owning full responsibility in seeing not only their own short sighted perspective but also including the victims pov and then the hardest part: forgiving themselves first, in totality, before they can find healing and absolution with their victims. 🙂 I’m not suggesting that that hasn’t happened – even if partially – only that it’s not as neat and tidy (for everyone) that crosses over to simply bury the hatchet with everyone and be reconnected. Depends on how much earthly ego/personality attachment is involved.

I know that Dylan and Eric are in the spirit world but are they there together? Still good buds? Btw will Eric be 18 and Dylan will be 17 forever?

Dylan and Eric are sometimes together in the spirit world but definitely not joined at the hip like the co-dependent best buds as they were on the earth in 1999.  In some ways, the two recognize what each had intensely experienced together with one another as separate souls joining forces and so, in a way, that bond will never be broken. However, as spirit that are continually on a path of evolution and maturation so they are likely working separately, as individuals, to strive towards each of their own journeys of spiritual advancement.

Dylan had expressed in his journal many times how he believed that there were other existences.

Dylan describes it specifically like this: “Existence is a great hall, life is one of the rooms, death is passing thru the doors, & the ever-existent compulsion of everything is the curiosity to keep moving down the hall, thru the doors, exploring rooms, down this never-ending hall.” Dylan expresses how he longs to explore those potential possibilities. “Questions make answers, answers conceive questions, and at long last he is content.” 

He intuitively knew that there was more to universe than the one lifetime and he was having a hell of a time staying grounded within the restrictions of the earth.   Dylan also wrote with expressed intent as to what he believed his life would be like after death.  He was constantly comparing his struggles in humanity versus how effortless, blissful and loving it should be here as it was There, which caused him great consternation.  It was like he had a soul memory of how it was before he incarnated into the being of "Dylan Klebold.” So, he just already seemed to intuit the bigger picture, that there was more to it all.  He simply knew it to be true.  Dylan had one foot on the earth and the other firmly rooted in the previous memories of the spiritual realm of where he was conceived from.  He was homesick..he longed to go back home. 😦

Eric, on the other hand, just wasn’t sure of what was in store for him after death.  He hoped it’d be something akin to a ‘dream like state’ or entertained that maybe it could be like his Doom world.  He just didn’t see/visualize precisely the way Dylan knew and conceived of it in his mind.  I believe Eric struggled a bit more than Dylan with his self-inflicted re-entrance back within the spirit world, I think it’s likely that Dylan embraced and welcomed the spirit world almost immediately after death and with open arms.  

“Just know I’m going to a better place. I didn’t like life too much, and I know I’ll be happy wherever the fuck I go. So I’m gone.”

As for Eric, I feel he has spent more time reconciling the “question mark” direction he blasted himself off into with that shot gun to his mouth. His vibrational levels that he engages in would likely be different from Dylan’s.   In my opinion, Dylan and Eric may occasionally cross intersecting paths based on their previous incarnation bond –  but I think for the most part, each is experiencing separate spiritual journeys in relation to what each of their soul’s need for growth, enlightenment and wisdom that would continue to raise them to higher vibrational planes.  So, no, Dylan and Eric are not constantly together as they once were but this doesn’t mean that they are never together either. It’s simply that they no longer have the need to be that duo that they once were. They are multi-dimensional spirit now and no longer only the personalities of “Eric” and “Dylan” as they were in only one lifetime experience on the earth.  That is only one personality, one facet, within the totality of their soul being.

Also, as spirit, Dylan and Eric can and do present at the ages of their former selves. They can also present at a younger age, as a child of five or thirteen, and they can also even project as older men beyond the ages of their death.  Spiritual souls transcend the human limitations such as “age” and so they are not confined by the physical and can assume any form of age or state of being by way of thought. 

“Thought is the most powerful thing that exists – anything conceivable can be produced, anything & everything is possible, even in your physical world.”

Why did eric and dylan call themselves indigo and green?

In a multiplayer game, the other players appear as marines in differently colored uniforms and armor. In the Doom games the colors are green, indigo (gray), brown, and red, although various source ports permit more choices of color, and sometimes more than four players in a game. 

Personally, I think Dylan chose ‘Green’ because he liked the color. The t-shirt design ideas that he doodled in his journal/notebook tended to specify “dk. green shirt”  and his ‘AoL" shirt was a dark olive green. I think most guys pick basic black t-shirts.  So, Dylan’s signature Doom player color was ‘Green’.  Eric chose indigo (essentially gray) maybe because red was too flashy and brown was so blah and also his Prelude was gray (maybe?).  I don’t know. That’s a guess. lol   At any rate, these are the player colors they habitually used in late night multi-player ‘Deathmatches’ to the point that they secret code dubbed themselves “Green” and “Indigo”.

did Dylan really want to pull the NBK with his lover? how did he want this to go? i know that he didn’t really want to do it with eric but he knew that it was his only option because obviously his love wouldn’t do that with him.

I think Dylan initially thought of going NBK with best friend, Zach. They were very close, often commiserated in their shared dissatisfaction with life; they talked about intensely private stuff on the phone and even cried together. So, given that, it seemed the Zach was likely Dylan’s obvious choice when he had begun to entertain ‘NBK’ or ‘my killing spree’ in his journal. At some point, Dylan fell for a girl, or two (lol), and having watched ‘Natural Born Killers’ enough times, it seems equally plausible that his fantasies may have solidified on the ‘Bonnie and Clyde’ Us-against-The-World romantic scenario. How did he want this to go? If you look to the movie “Natural Born Killers” as a reference it pretty much gives you the gist of his potential suicidal foreplay with a guy/girl partner in crime duo. (I also think it’s pretty obvious that Dylan tried to emulate Mickey Knox with the same type of sun glasses and ponytail.)

After ‘“Fate” did not put Her in need of him and decide when they should be together,’ as he’d hoped, and since Zach was now happily distracted with a steady girlfriend, Dylan realized at some point, that his preferential options were running out to end his damnable ‘stasis’. His only remaining choice was to actually go through with doing NBK with Eric. “Maybe going “NBK” (gawd) with Eric is the way to break free.” He ends his concluded solution with a muttered resignation “I hate this.” It’s interesting because Dylan seems essentially preparing for two different NBKs simultaneously: in reality, he and Eric have been physically planning and preparing for NBK creating weapons, procuring guns and such for quite some time, yet, in Dylan’s fantasy world, he probably had envisioned His Love and himself together against humanity before fulfilling their suicide pact. “I’m STILL alone, still in pain, so is she.” After he embraces NBK with Eric, Dylan seems to be satisfied that his true love will never reveal herself on the earth because it just wasn’t supposed to happen in this lifetime – because “Fate” decided he would unite with Her on the other side or in the next life. So, no need to worry about it. NBK with Eric as his partner, would provide the necessary vehicle to his exit from this world so that he could find his way to His Love and be free.

“So I wait 5 more days. 5 more days. 5 eternities, & I know her & I are all conceived from ourselves & each other, every night of the self-awareness journey. The zombies were a test, to see if our love was genuine. We are in wait of our reward, each other. The zombies will never cause us pain anymore. The humanity was a test. I love you, love. Time to die, time to be free, time to love.”