yuzu-nishi-ichi:

vodkasvixen:

c0atimundi:

alwayshereblog:

I think it was the way he choose. I don’t know why he choose that way. And I don’t think is girly at all. Many people commit suicide like that: a shot in the temple.

This anon seems kinda stupid tbh… I mean, for one, implying that girls are sissys by saying that a less gory/violent means of suicide is feminine. Two, ranking one form of suicide as more serious than another when both are done with the intent/expectation to die. Maybe if you were comparing someone impulsively swallowing a handful of tylenol to someone planning months in advance to shoot a shotgun slug through their head, maybe, but that really doesn’t apply here.

Now, onto what I’m guessing/hoping the anon’s point might have been, or at least what can be salvaged from it; “Why did Dylan shoot himself in the side of the head rather than through the roof of his mouth like Eric did, also, why did Dylan use the weaker 9mm Tec-9 rather than his shotgun?” I’ve wondered this a few times myself. Shooting yourself through the roof of the mouth is almost universally more effective than shooting yourself in the side of the head. I’m not sure why adeadlyinnocence feels the opposite is true, unless by “through the roof of the mouth” we are including putting the gun below your chin, in which case to the temple would probably be more effective (with the barrel on your chin, the bullet or buckshot has more bone and tissue to go through to reach the brain, also, you might flinch when pulling the trigger and just destroy your face, this is how most people who try to off themselves with a shotgun but survive end up failing). Most people don’t know which method (to the temple or roof of mouth) is more or less effective or if their is a difference, unless they do some research, I’m guessing Dylan did not research suicide methods. Maybe he chose the temple just because it’s slightly easier and is what is typically depicted in movies/tv/games (the reason probably being that you get a clear unobstructed view of the persons face if the gun is to the side of the head, thus showing us the persons expression and if they had the gun in their mouth they wouldn’t be able to say some dramatic one liner before they pull the trigger. Basically, it “looks cooler” so we see it depicted more.). As to why he didn’t use his shotgun, I have a few ideas; perhaps because it was a double barrel shotgun he couldn’t easily fit it in his mouth, and maybe he wanted to use the tec-9 so his face would be better preserved. It may seem somewhat strange to have that desire, but not that uncommon, nobody likes to think about what happens to your body when you die, and if you’re intent on offing yourself you especially don’t want to chicken out at the last moment because you don’t like the idea of blood and brains splattered everywhere or your face being impossible to recognize. So maybe he chose the less gory method of using the 9mm because he didn’t like to imagine the gore from using the shotgun, or maybe he didn’t want his family to have to see him like that. Another idea is that he didn’t think there would be a difference in effect and just used the tec-9 because that was what was in his dominant hand and thus easier to manipulate.

Maybe we’re just over-analyzing it and to him a gun was a gun and either one would do.

Plus putting a TEC-9 in your mouth is kind of awkward. He just wanted to get the job done.

I love your response, c0atimundi!

Definitely all of that. Plus…Dylan spent a lot of time fantasizing about killing himself. The Suicidal fantasy foreplay was not exactly how it had begun to play out in reality. So, I think when he actually got to the moment, Dylan found himself…stalling.. a bit. The police found a small pile of his items near by his body, personal items of significance to himself: his necklace, a silver pocket watch, and his triple-barred cross (the only thing he left on himself was his black onyx ring and that may have been something he overlooked as it was on his glove encased trigger hand.) Dylan seemed to be preparing himself, almost as if in a ritualized fashion and that very spot was his like a burial ground. Unlike Eric, he’d thought of suicide many times before but now.. he had preceded carefully preparing for his death. If Eric decided to do it quickly, to avoid losing the nerve or having second thoughts, Dylan likely saw or heard peripherally as his best friend just blew his brains out, saw the blood spatter on the ceiling. If this was the case, Dylan was then standing there all alone, probably having a bit of an out-of-body experience, standing by himself in a vacuum of time – seconds..a minute? feeling like hours.. time enough.. to consider and prepare for death by his own hand in actuality. I also think he considered he would not want to be disfigured for himself as well as his family’s sake. He obliterated his computer data but he left his personal journal and he also decided to leave his physical body intact. It was his choice.