When [Dylan] was very young, he would dump five or six puzzles into a pile, so he would have the thrill of working on them all at the same time. He liked mazes; he liked word searches. He played chess with Tom. He was just a delight.” …. “You can’t imagine how long it’s been since I had a chance to brag about my son.
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…My friend Don, the Lutheran pastor who had to leave his job after doing Dylan Klebold’s funeral. Dylan Klebold was one of the Columbine shooters, and Don had the gall to think that the promises given to Dylan by God at his baptism were more powerful than the acts of evil he committed.
It helps me to think about Don because I realize that he wasn’t saying what Dylan Klebold did was ok. He was defiantly proclaiming that evil is simply not more powerful than good, and that there really is a light that shines in the darkness and that the darkness cannot, will not, shall not overcome it
Nadia Bolz-Weber (via ernhole)
[Dylan] and Eric worked together at the pizza parlor. A couple weeks before Columbine, Eric’s beloved dog was sick, and it looked like he wasn’t going to make it, and so Dylan worked Eric’s shift as well as his own so that Eric could have the time with his dog.
– Sue Klebold (via r–e–b)
I was taking a walk not long before he died, and I’d asked him, ‘Come and pick me up if it rains.’ And he did. He was there for you, and he was the best listener I ever met. I realize now that that was because he didn’t want to talk, and he was hiding.
Sue Klebold (talking about Dylan)
I said, ‘Dylan, help me understand this,’” Sue said, “‘How could you do something so morally wrong?’ And he said, ‘Well, I didn’t do it to another human being; it was to a company. That’s what they have insurance for.’ And I said, ‘Dylan! You’re scaring me!’ He said, ‘Well, it scared me, too, because I don’t know why I did it. Just, suddenly, we’d done it.’"
Sue Klebold talking about the van break-in (via r–e–b)
About one month after the van break-in, Dylan scratched something into another student’s locker. Peter Horvath, the dean, doesn’t know why Dylan chose the locker, and doesn’t recall the student’s name, only that the student felt threatened when he saw Dylan scratching with a paper clip. Because Dylan didn’t finish, the design he was scratching was unclear.
Dylan was detained, and Horvath was with him for about 40 minutes while they waited for Tom Klebold to arrive and deal with the incident.
“Dylan became very agitated, and very upset with the school system and the way CHS handled people, to include the people that picked on him and others. He was upset for being suspended for what he felt was a pretty minor incident. Dylan understands the politics of how like a school systems work. He was smart around that. And he was angry at the system; not angry at me, but angry at the system; that the system would be established that it would allow for what he did to be a suspendable offense, if that makes any sense to you. He was mad at the world because he was being suspended, but he was mad at the system because the system that was designed was allowing him to be suspended. Talking to Dylan was like talking to a very intellectual person. He wasn’t a stupid kid. He’s not a thug kid that’s getting suspended. He’s a smart, intelligent kid. I just remember the conversation being at a level; that would you know, you’d sit there and you’d think, ‘Wow, this is a pretty high level conversation for a kid like this’. You could just tell his feeling around, I’m going to use the word politics again, but again, he was too intelligent, sometimes I felt for his age. You know, he knew too much about certain things and he spoke too eloquently about knowing the law and why he was being suspended and knowing, just you know, speaking about how society is this way towards people.” Horvath explains.
Thinking of suicide gives me hope that I’ll be in my place wherever I go after this life – that I’ll finally not be at war with myself, the world, the universe – my mind, my body, everywhere, everything at PEACE – me – my soul (existence)
Dylan Klebold
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Dylan (the Hippie) and Charles Manson – Part 2
According to Dylan, Manson preached that “death was not bad, just another high.” In reading the book Helter Skelter (it was listed in the bibliography), Dylan would have seen other Manson comments about death. Manson told his followers that “death is only an illusion,” saying that it was a releasing of the soul. Manson also said that “Death is beautiful.” These passages could explain Dylan’s references to dying and achieving happiness.
What was the connection among death, happiness, and love? Perhaps the most intriguing line in Dylan’s report occurs in the context of describing Manson’s life with his so-called family: “We played a lot music, we did a lot of drugs, we loved, we were happy" replies Manson when later asked about life at the ranch. “The family did these things, and more. They lost their humanity at the ranch.”
That last sentence sometimes has been seen as Dylan’s recognition that what Manson and his followers did was “inhuman.” there is another possible interpretation, however, based on Dylan’s frequent use of the word “humanity” in his journal.
Dylan wrote about his humanity as an impediment. His humanity blocked him from calling a girl he liked. His humanity had a foot fetish. His human side was associated with the “zombies” he looked down on – all the normal people living their normal lives. Thus, “humanity” had a particular meaning for Dylan. In addition, he did not write that Manson’s followers lost their humanity by committing murder. Rather, they lost their humanity in the midst of happiness and love. Dylan seems to be saying that Manson and his family lost their human ity by transcending to a higher realm of existence, a realm of pure love and happiness. Perhaps this is why he wrote: “I’m stuck in humanity: Maybe going ‘NBK’ …with Eric is the way to break free.” In Dylan’s mind, murder, death, freedom from humanity, love, and happiness were entwined. It seems his thinking was influenced by Manson’s ideas of the beauty of death.
Why Kids Kill – Chapter 3 A God of Sadness – Peter Langman P.H.d.
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Excerpts from Dylan’s Journal:
"Society is tightening it’s grip on me, and soon I and (redacted) will snap. We will have our revenge on society and then be free to exist in a timeless, spaceless place of pure happiness. The purpose of life is to be happy and be with your love who is equally happy. Not much more to say. Goodbye.”
“What fun is life without a little death?” – V
“The humanity of here and now clouds all that I see, yet the me, the one, can now control the pain, and it is done.”
“The zombies will never cause us pain anymore, the humanity was a test. I love you love. Time to die, time to be free, time to love.”
In one episode, they saw state wrestling champion Rocky Wayne Hoffschneider shoving his girlfriend into a locker, in front of a teacher, who did nothing, according to a close friend. “We used to talk about Rocky a lot,” said the friend, who asked not to be identified. “We’d say things like ‘He should be in jail for the stuff he does.’ ” Another friend of Klebold’s, Andrew Beard, remembers distinctly Klebold’s rage at four football players’ “getting off” after destroying a man’s apartment last year.
I have lost my emotions… like in hurt the song, NIN.
People eventually find happiness i never will. Does that make me a non-human? YES, the god of sadness….
– Dylan Klebold
In writing about people joining the Manon’s family, Dylan said (in his essay “The Mind and Motives of Charles Manson”) that it was “a way to stray from the norm and live opposite of what one was raised to learn.” This was exactly what Dylan did in following Eric.
In fact, Mrs. Klebold stated that Dylan did not commit murder because of how he was raised but in contradiction to how he was raised.
(David Brooks interview 2004)
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Dylan and Charles Manson – Part 1
On November 3, 1998, Dylan handed in a research paper called “The Mind and Motives of Charles Manson.“ Why did Dylan write about Manson? If he wanted a gruesome topic, he could have chosen many other serial killers and mass murderers. Manson, however, was different; he transformed other people into killers. In his paper, Dylan wrote about how Manson found people from “normal” backgrounds and taught them to become cold-blooded killers. Did he see a connection between Manson’s tranformed “family” and the process of transformation that he went through as a result of his friendship with Eric? Was he aware of the parallels? Did he see that Eric was playing Manson’s role in changing shy Dylan Klebold into a cold-blooded killer?
Although his paper sometimes has been seen as a straightforward account of Manson and his followers, there are several revealing and suggestive passages. Dylan began the paper by writing about the two killers in the film Natural Born Killers. He stated that the killers “got lost in their own little world.” This could be applied to two other killers: Eric and Dylan, who named their attack “NBK” after the initials of the movie. Did Dylan have a sense that he was getting lost in a fantasy world?
Dylan wrote that Manson trained his followers “to try to be exactly like him,” commenting that they “started to live Manson’s reality.” He quoted a former follower who said that Manson “can get people to do things for him, without them questioning his motives.” Robyn, one of Dylan’s closest friends, said that Eric was able to convince Dylan to do things. In addition, Dylan appears to have adopted Eric’s reality and followed him without questioning his motives.
Dylan acknowledged that Manson was labeled “insane.” According to Dylan, however, “The question of whether or not he is insane is a question of opinion; which cannot have a “true” right answer.” Dylan was defending Manson, and possibly himself, by claiming that insanity is a matter of opinion. Similiarly, Dylan wrote that Manson and his family can still “logically explain his actions.” Dylan was already planning NBK with Eric, apparently wanted to believe that murdering innocent people could be explained logically.
Why Kids Kill, Chapter 3: A God of Sadness – Peter Langman PH.D.
Joe Valentine, who runs a computer store in Littleton, said Klebold had applied for a job, sending a résumé that claimed he “built my personal computer and helped build those of friends and family.” He said he offered the young man a job — “He has all the right stuff to be a technician” — but that Klebold did not show up on the day he was supposed to start work.
A fan of the Boston Red Sox, he was one of a dozen students who took part recently in a fantasy baseball draft party, said one of the participants.
In an apparent display of his penchant for slurs, Klebold called his team the Border Hoppers and chose the Taco Bell logo as his team symbol.
In honor of Dylan’s dylectible neck and throat. 🙂
St. John Wort, the Herbal remedy the police found in his bedroom and that Dylan was taken for depression.
Among the items police found in his room were two half-empty bottles of Saint-John’s-wort, an herb believed to elevate mood and combat mild depression. I asked one of Dylan’s friends if he knew that Dylan had been taking it. Dylan told him he hoped it would increase his “motivation."
The Everlasting Contrast 