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I think about human things. All I try to do is imagine the happiness between us. That is something we cannot even conceive in the toilet earth. The everything, the halcyon, the happiness is ours. There will be no notes from me. Let the humans suffer without my knowledge of the everything. I am trying not to think about the happiness, somehow thinking that fate will destroy it if i conceive/relish in it when I’m a human.

Dylan Klebold’s journal. No date. (via seeyou-in-disneyland)

Lately I can’t change my mind from the fucking deeds of zombies. Earth, humanity, HERE. That’s mostly what I think about. I hate it. I want to be free…. free… I thought it would have been time by now. The pain multiplies infinitely. Never stops. Yet i’m here, STILL alone, still in pain.

Dylan Klebold’s journal, 1-20-99 (via seeyou-in-disneyland)

Hand Signals Practice for NBK

enemy – fist   (fist symbol)

                               or hand shake  10, 20, fl .= dist

hold fire  (diagram for gesture)

Suicide – gun to head

fall back (diagram for gesture)

??            (diagram for gesture)

unload – victory scream

cover fire

Bombs – fist wave

———–

enemy – (finger # for direction)

hold fire  (diagram for gesture)

have fun  _?_load)

take course –

fall back –

follow me –

self distruct ( ? sign er will do – so ?)

Bombs away

Dylan’s Ode to Death Countdown

          One day. one is the beginning? the end. hahaha
         reversed, yet true.  About 26.5 hours from now the
         judgement will begin. Difficult, but not impossible,
         necessary, nerveracking & fun.

                             What fun is life without
                                            a little death?

              It’s interesting, when im in my human
             form, knowing im going to die.  Everything
             has a touch of triviality to it.  like how
             none of this calculus shit matters the way
             it shouldn’t.  the truth.  In 26.4 hours i’ll 
             be dead, & in happiness. Oh little zombie
             human fags will know their errors, & be
            forever suffering & mournful. HAHAHA, of course
            I will miss things. not really.

Precisely right now…
26.4 hours = roughly 8:25 – 9:15 AM (UTC Mountain Time) on April 19, 1999, when Dylan was in *3rd period (9:25-10:15 AM)  2nd period calculus class per the day planner schedule (JC-001-026244). He likely wrote this at the very end of class from 9:15 – 9:30 AM before shooting the Breakfast Run video with Dustin Gorton.  

*corrected in correlation against Dylan’s class schedule, Robyn Anderson’s account and Dustin Gorton. Dylan’s Calculus math class was 2nd period and he was off 3rd period and did the Breakfast Run video from 9:25 – 10:15 AM

Online Crush – Sarah Slater (JC-001-004433): Sarah said she was close to Zach Heckler, and also knew Dylan. Sarah said she used to chat with Dylan online, that Dylan had a “crush” on her, and during her Freshman year. Dylan “wanted to date her”, but she declined. Sarah said that Dylan did not persist in his efforts to go out with Sarah.

At age 14, Dylan started at his freshman year at Columbine High School together with Eric. They were good friends with their classmates, and fit very well into the environment. “That’s back when they were just like everybody else”, said classmate Katie Rutledge. “They dressed normal, I’d even say preppie.”

But in his sophomore year, Eric and Dylan started hanging out with the group later known all over the U.S. as the “Trench Coat Mafia”. They were angry and rebellious, and united by their differences. People said they always wore black trenchcoats, therefore the name.

Dylan became an “outsider”.

But Sarah Slater, a member of the same theater group as Dylan, e-mailed with him for a while, and she didn’t at all think he was that much more different than anyone else.  “I liked him”, she said. “He was really shy, although he wasn’t all that shy with me.”

When they came home from the theater at nights, they spent hours communicating by e-mail. “We talked about a lot of stuff, mostly about alcoholic beverages and how he hated school.”

Sarah understood that hatred. With her baggy pants and spiked jewelry, she didn’t fit in until she started dressing more conventionally at the end of her freshman year. She worked hard to change her negative attitude, and discovered when she did that she enjoyed Columbine.

Dylan never did.

“Just when I talked to him, I don’t know, it was like he would end the conversation with, ‘(expletive) the school’”, Sarah said. “If I asked how he was doing, he’d say, ‘I wish I didn’t go here’, or ‘I wish I was somewhere else.’”

Sometimes during their online chats, Dylan would say he had been drinking. Sometimes Sarah could tell by his typing mistakes. Sometimes he would invite her to go out drinking.

But other classmates doesn’t remember Dylan drinking a lot. Maybe he was just trying to impress Sarah, trying to come across as a party animal, trying to make her think he was living up to his nickname, VoDkA.

After Sarah quit theater, she lost touch with Dylan.

Source

Dylan rarely dated. “He liked girls, you know, but he would never approach them because he was too shy or waiting for them to approach him,” said Sarah Slater, a friend from theater.

Nate Dykeman has another opinion on why Dylan didn’t date. “Dylan wanted to wait,” he said. “He didn’t want to get into anything in high school.”

Source

White tablets taken from Klebold’s room: “per Sgt West, the tablets will not be analyzed.”(18701)

“Among the items police found in his room were two half-empty bottles of St. John’s Wort, an herb believed to elevate mood and combat mild depression. I asked one of Dylan’s friends if he knew that Dylan had been taking it. Dylan told him he hoped it would increase his "motivation." 
– I Will Never Know Why” – Sue Klebold

“he’s either really hyper or really kicked back,” – Devon Adams

“Dylan was the same happy person that he normally is and was very talkative and friendly… with him joking a lot. Over the last month or so Dylan had become more and more withdrawn.” – Kelli Brown (10680)

In discussing any drug use that Tim was aware of concerning Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold Tim stated that he was aware that Dyian took some kind of energy pills that he bought at the store.  – Tim Kastle (004322)

Jeffrey reported that he had noticed a behavioral change in Dylan the prior several weeks before the incident. He stated that Dylan was normally a very good student but had been falling asleep in the 2nd period class each day. The teacher kept threatening to throw him out of class if he fell asleep again but never did. And there were times in that several weeks that Dylan appeared unusually hyper and full of energy. – Jeff Marquardt (000988)

There is good evidence that St. John’s Wort may reduce symptoms in people with mild-to-moderate but not severe (or major) depression.

EBay Pulls Listing for Columbine Gunman’s Car – March 8, 2006

A 1982 BMW advertised as once belonging to one of the gunmen in the Columbine High School killings was pulled from an online auction, a spokesman for eBay said.

“If the owner wanted to sell this car, there’s nothing stopping them from doing so," eBay spokesman Hani Durzy told the Rocky Mountain News. "They just can’t market it as being owned by Dylan Klebold.”

Durzy, citing privacy reasons, would not say whether the San Jose, Calif.-based eBay would apply any sanctions to the prospective seller, whose handle is “isubars.”

“The car was bought without knowing who previously owned it,” the seller said on the site. “Once I found out it was Klebold’s I put it up here.”

Bidding on the black 320i, which has 144,000 miles, reached at least $1,825 before it was pulled Monday. The seller did not respond to an e-mail request for an interview.

Investigators returned the car to Klebold’s family Aug. 2, 2000, once it had “no remaining value” to investigators, said Jefferson County sheriff’s spokeswoman Jacki Kelley.

A police report shows investigators seized Klebold’s car after Klebold and Eric Harris shot 12 students and a teacher before killing themselves April 20, 1999. Among the items inside the car were two 20-pound propane tanks and seven pipe bombs.

The vehicle identification number for the BMW listed on eBay matches the number on a police report, the newspaper reported.

Source: http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,187206,00.html