Have u ever noticed that dylan inhales his ciggarette but eric dosent? ;)

Well, Dylan liked smoking and was a habitual smoker with a certain

je ne sais quoi  😉  whereas, Eric was trying to look like he smoked. just to look cooler – on occasion – but he obviously wasn’t an expert smoker and boy, is that ever obvy. I mean, dude can’t even light his cigarette. We’re all trying hard not to laugh along side Dyl on that one.  Eric refrained from inhaling because he was trying to be his usual control-freak self, attempting to look cool yet keep his lungs healthy and nicotine free. Not that staying alive and healthy mattered much anymore anyway, right? 😉 

Do you think Dylan would ever consider experimenting with a guy? I know he wasn’t 100% bi but he comes across to me in his journal as just wanting to give love and be loved by someone, maybe anyone, so maybe he had thought of it a little.

Dylan heavily emphasized interest in a girl or girls in his journal. He was starved to have a love -.someone that was meant for him, that understood and reciprocated those feelings.  He was very elated when Zack Heckler came along; he considered him to be his very best friend since he felt that Zack understood him as a person.  It’s possible, I suppose that if a dude came along and hung out with Dylan a lot, shared a lot of personal information with him regularly and eventually tried to make it really clear to him that hey, he had stronger feelings for him besides just friends, Dylan might have been open to that because he was starving for close companionship especially since Zack took up with Devon. (Of course, I am not suggesting here that Dylan viewed Zack romantically just that he felt that their bond as close friends was a kindred one). Then again, maybe not, if he was uncomfortable with just flat out dating, let alone giving himself permission to take things a next step to loving this guy beyond just friends.  Part of the problem there too would be the fact of the matter that they were part of a constricted, conservative community and peers in his school were knee-jerk homophobic, including his good bud Eric. If he did so it’d have to be very underground and secret.  At any rate, it’s difficult to say one way or the other since Dylan seemed to be dwelling on girls in his journal.

Do you think Dylan would have kissed Devon if she had confessed on Prom night like she planned?

That’s not the type of confession that Devon had in mind. She and Dylan were just good friends; she mentioned in a few interviews that she considered him her  “best friend and confidant”.  Devon was seriously dating Zack Heckler so this was not a “I secretly love you” kind of confession at the prom.  It was more of “you are a very fine person, and I want you to know I really value our friendship. I love you as my friend.” type thing.  See here and here.

Last time this one is being addressed. It’s going up on the FAQ right now. 🙂 

I wonder if there are any pictures of Dylan in his casket. If so I am glad we have never seen them and I never want to.

No, I don’t. There is no way the Klebold’s would’ve ever wanted to record and burn that image into their minds anymore than they already had. The ceremony was super private for obvious reasons and only a handful of people attended. I cannot think of any good reason in particular for family-private, morbid images of their dead mass murdering son in his casket to be taken for any good reason in particular. Can you? All that would end up happening is the images would risk winding up in the hands of the media and eventually here and professional gore websites. What was meant to be sacred to the Klebolds would only be made into something profane and lurid so, no.

rainflesh:

I finally got around to taking pictures c: I think this is about as close as it’s gonna get – much better than the last one too. Unfortunately Zazzle has strict dimensions otherwise the font front and back would be much much bigger. Their shirts are pretty decent in quality though, and they have sales literally every week which is a plus. Anyway the font used for the front is called Myraid Pro and the back is Arial Black. DJ Spooky shirt is on hold sadly because I am legitimately stumped on how to get it even remotely similar to Dyl’s lol. But whenever it’s finished I’ll put the design up for anyone interested

I think that’s pretty damn close, m’dear. The color is perf too. Nevermind the ubiquitous WRATH tees that are out there, resurrecting Dyl’s casual-wear stuff, especially his own tongue-in-cheek designs is a beautiful thang. ❤

for the anon asking if Dyl was asexual: as someone who is ace, it is a possibility, because there’s two different orientations: romantic and sexual. You can be romantically attracted to someone, while not experiencing sexual attraction. Grey-ace, not experiencing sexual attraction often, would also be possible.

Dylan exhibits romantic attraction in his journal. You can be romantically and aesthetically attracted to people without wanting to have sex with them. He may have been heteroromantic but asexual.

There’s so many varieties and combinations of sexual terminology these days that the nuance to it all makes it hard to pigeon-hole define someone like Dylan who we know was first and foremost, a very shy dude, so in part due to that factor, he never really got into the groove of consistent dating. In addition to that, his journal was incomplete and so we’re kind of grasping at straws assuming that he may be bisexual or asexual because there is just not enough information to go on either way.  He was a deeply private person about his sexuality so there is a certain mystique about him.  What we do know is that when he thought about girls he was (secretly) captivated by, his expression of his love tended towards romantic thoughts or blissful images of spending time with them. What they did together inside his head he left it rather vague?  
“
I imagine me & her doing things together,”  That very well could be going for a walk and holding hands as much as it could be him making love to her and cuddling afterward.  We have no clue because he spoke in hints of what he was imaging himself doing with the girl he was in love with.  It’s almost as if his fantasies were too private and precious to even express fully in his own journal. He basically sounds like a gentleman straight out of the Regency Period writing lengthy, angsty, sexually frustrated notes towards The Lady he is pining for.  

And yet,  he clearly had sexual desires as evinced in his journal entries about masturbating and consuming porn.  And he also seemed to have a huge at-odds problem over this fact.  It’s like he was unable to reconcile and merge his feelings of love and adoration along side his natural teenage carnal desires for sexual release.  He seemed to even feel guilty when he masturbated to porn as if he was not being faithful to the ideal girl that he loved passionately within his mind’s eye. It would seem that he felt so devoted that he decided to stop masturbating as a sign of his loyalty to her.   But again, we cannot really say definitively that he only enjoyed porn due to the fact that he’s not interested in having sex with real people with live women and just has the physical need to get off watching porn.  All this means is that Dylan never dated a girl enough consecutively.  He had great difficulty working up the nerve to asking a girl out and when he failed and was rejected he just stopped altogether.  So, he never got to that point of actually kissing a girl properly which would have allowed him to move beyond just that into experiencing various levels of deeper intimacy like heavily making out, caressing each other and fooling around to the point of bridging that rather large gap between his sexual, carnal desires and that rather chaste romantic-love infatuation side of himself.  I believe that Dylan was not sexual – not by his own choice – but because he was shy, reticent and basically inexperienced.  He also seemed to feel very private about such matters because knowing and loving the girl was of more importance to him than just going out with hot chicks so he’d have the opportunity to ‘bang her’.  I think it made him uncomfortable to view girls he had crushes on in an objectifying way you know. He had to like the girl and he had to know her and be attracted to her first but he was too classy to express the base lustful thoughts that came into his teenage hormonal raging mind and body. Yet, at the same time he was getting off to porn that objectified women and so his sexual love map was kinda confused and messed up.  He wanted a girl friend. a lot a lot a lot.  He was hoping to find someone that was meant for him.  But he knew it likely wasn’t going to amount to that anyway let alone even have her say ‘yes’ to him asking her out.  I’m sure he thought if he was on a date with an attractive girl, he’d just clam the fuck up.   Even talking about sexual stuff like that with Eric or other dudes (”c’mon, you know you’d like to hit that, wouldn’t you?”)  likely embarrassed the crap out of him and made him feel awkward and self conscious.  Here he’d listen to other people and it’s like – if only they knew what he did in his room at night and what kind of kinky porn it was.  *blush*   Didn’t mean he didn’t like sex, he liked it plenty when he was getting off to porn but he also felt at odds with that side of himself and the intense kind of porn he found himself desiring made him feel ashamed. And when he was around women, he just became an observing wallflower blushing and trying to make lame idle chit chat. The more he liked the girl, the worse it probably got and the more he went into silent mode because he didn’t know how to express anything confidently enough.  If he’d even landed a date, as he did with Sasha, it was so awkward that she felt uncomfortable with him.  So, sadly, he never even managed to get the point of expressing his love so that it spilled over naturally into a sexually expressive manner.  So, personally, I don’t think there is any strong evidence to support that Dylan is asexual or gray-ace or bi or whatever.  Dylan was super sexually frustrated, shy and did not have any experience with dating to integrate his sexuality along with romantic feelings.

Sorry, that was a lot more long-winded than I expected!  

Im not religious but sometimes i wonder if there is a hell, Dylan and Eric are probably there and that really scares me. They only wanted to find peace after they died. I just really hope hell isnt real.

The only hell that Dylan and Eric could have gone to is of their own making as their spirits left their bodies and the earth plane. I’ve discussed this before here.   

This, and other similarly themed ask posts, will be going in the FAQ under the Spiritual asks section.

calaminedyldoairwreckposts:

everlasting-contrast:

tecnine:

my crosses have been taken down already…

A shame, yes, but honestly can’t say I’m surprised. You should’ve brought along a few backup crosses and some crazy glue. At any rate, it was an interesting experiment and it does make a statement.

Maybe, just maybe, it was because they didn’t feel like giving creedence to the feelings of girl who posed (while trespassing) inside the school so disrespectfully while completely ignoring their feelings to make a selfish internet attention grab. Grow up.

Mm, yeah, while I’ll agree with you that the implied gun pointing pose was a gratuitous, disrespectful choice within Columbine, I doubt anyone that patrols the memorial site knew the selfies they were snapping in the school linked those tiny crosses to them. It was likely the grounds keeper or patrol of the memorial that spotted and removed them as offensive to potential visitors.  

Still, it can’t be denied that these simple crosses they fashioned together were tastefully put together with honest messages entreating people to stop and reflect and reconsider Eric and Dylan and why they might be included as victims in those walls too. So, I applaud them for their courage and effort in testing the waters and seeing what might happen all these years later. Though, I doubt the crosses would last in the memorial even for the night, still, it was an interesting experiment to see how long they would last in the memorial before someone removed and/or destroyed them.  Just goes to show that 16 years after the tragedy, the community still rebukes the concept that the two boys were victims first, long before they took the 13 victims lives and then snuffing out their very own on that day. The boys were marginalized and ostracized in life and vilified, condemned and exiled in their deaths, their crosses standing in tandem with the other victims were eventually yanked off that hill from the rest. Granted, it’s easy to understand how painful it was for the community so fresh after the massacre happened but despite the anger an pain, Eric and Dylan’s crosses lasted a small window of time which was miraculous.  People wrestled with those crosses but despite that, loving and compassionate messages were written on their wooden crosses along with all the vitriol.  Now after all this time, there appears to be not even an inkling of long-term reflection and understanding or the possibility of forgiveness which can be extended to them even after all these many years.

The embracing, loving, healing, circular walls of the Columbine Memorial will only always be an exclusivity club for the their victims not meant for those hurt boys who had decided to hurt others. No, they are the permanently condemned and their victim category can never be welcomed at the Columbine Memorial despite the fact that ‘We are all Columbine" as they all like to preach in regurgitated, meaningless mantra.. signifying nothing.   Mm, I suppose it’s as it should be though..since we cannot speed up the grief and forgiveness process of the victims families and others touched by the tragedy in various ways. We do need to have regard for them and the fact that their family member was stolen away forever by E & D and reminders of the perpetrators is like reopening and throwing salt on their wounds.  We cannot make them understand that the boys are an intrical part of that memorial circle by way the cycle of victimization.  All were lost in tragedy both perpetrators and victims. We can not make them see what we do because their pain is just too great, still, all these years later, and the community backs them by relegating the tragedy that befell their town as some dark, murky memory of a skeleton  to be forever locked up in a closet and not dealt with in a positive, proactive way. The tiny crosses usurped in a matter of a few hours in the memorial gives us our answer of whether they’ll ever rightfully belong there – and in 2016, they still don’t and quite possibly never ever will, out of respect to their victims’ families’ wishes.  It just means that, anyone of us here that truly wants to retrain a memorial of sorts for the Lost Boys, it can’t be done in a blatant public, political statement sort of way because all that will ever happen is our memorial tokens that we spent time crafting lovingly will be quietly removed like a piece of garbage picked up off the grounds and placed in the garbage. End of story.  Ultimately, a power struggle of continually doing the same thing over again and getting the same results is never going to get any of us here a victory because we feel so strongly the boys deserve to be remembered, and have a place within the walls of the Columbine memorial. I tend to think that the memorial for the boys, done properly, would need to be a secluded, secret natural location (think google coordinates that only we’d known and share.) It’d be a memorial for the forever tainted and exiled but it would also be a peaceful place that would have less chance of being disturbed or removed.  A place where those of us who feel the need to express our grief could visit to pay respects, to put tokens and flowers and to communion in their memory to those boys who were also victims too despite the fact that the rest of the world continues to brush them under the carpet and deny the bigger picture as to why this all happened in the first place.

I addressed this in another post here.

Was Dylan asexual? Mind you, asexuals *can* and often *do* masturbate to porn and get off to the actions in it, they just aren’t sexually attracted to *people*.

I get what you’re saying but…

Oh My God….I am almost sure
I am in love w/ [redacted] Hehehe…
Such a strange name like mine…Yet everything
about her I love..From her good body to
her Almost perfect face, her charm, her wit,
her cunning her NOT being popular. Her friends
(who I know) -some- I just hope she likes me
as much as I LOVE her. I think
of her every second of every day, I want to be
with her. I imagine me & her doing
things together, the sound of her laugh,
I picture her face, I love her. If
soulmates exist, then I think I’ve found
mine. I hope she likes Techno… 🙂
[redacted], I love you -Dylan

“Dylan, the whole time I knew him, never had a girlfriend. And he never talked about a girl he liked or anything, I mean, I know that there were girls he liked and you could tell when he talked to them or looked at them but he never had a girlfriend or anything. It was never something we talked about, it wasn’t something he was comfortable talking about.” – Devon Adams

Hi :3 What’s the name of Sue’s book? Thanks Have a nice day

Where is Sue’s interview going to be? And what date is her book coming out? (:

Is Sue Klebold’s book coming out the same day as her TV interview? 

Sue Klebold’s book, A Mother’s Reckoning: Living In The Aftermath Of Tragedy will be launched February 16, 2016 and her interview with Diane Sawyer as part of an ABC news special which will air around the book publication (so it will coincide with the book release but no official date has not been announced just yet) and it will be Klebold’s first-ever TV interview  

Excerpts from Sawyer’s interview will air across all of ABC News’ platforms including “Good Morning America,” “World News Tonight with David Muir,” “Nightline,” ABCNews.com, ABC News Radio and ABC NewsOne.

ABC News will air the interview with air during a one-hour special about school shootings, the lasting impact on the community, ideas for prevention and mental health.

See ABC News details here.

I’m definitely hoping Oprah gets her chance. She’s been wanting to interview Sue since day one and frankly, she’d be more decent at it than Diane Sawyer, imo.