Yes, the Ever-lasting contrast. Since existence has known, the 'fight' between good & evil has continued. Obviously, this fight can never end. Good things turn bad, bad things become good. My fav. contrasting symbol, because it is so true & means so much – the battle between good & bad never ends… Here we ponder on the tragedy of Dylan Klebold.
Cullen did, in fact, use the pseudonym “Harriet” in place of the redacted name occurences of the The Unknown Mysterious Girl that Dylan wrote about in his journal. However, I don’t recall that Cullen was alluding that Robyn was the unknown girl or Dylan’s ‘first love’.
Correction: in the last five years, Gun Laws and Mental Health brought up only to be dropped with the next part of the cycle (blue arrow).
Chad was a friend of Dylan’s. As kids, they were both in the gifted elementary school program called CHIPS. Chad wrote a beautiful, bittersweet tribute called “Chess” to the brilliance and tragedy that was Dylan in his memories and retrospect reflections of him.
On the morning of April 20th, as Chad was pulling out of the CHS parking lot to go to lunch, Dylan was hastly driving in to the lot for the very last time and the two almost collided. Chad good naturedly flipped him off and shrugged apologetically. Chad describing Dylan as having nodded a slight bit but had this expression that seemed as if he was relieved that Chad was leaving the school. Like Two Ships Passing.
Dylan (and Rachel’s) funeral took place exactly four days after Columbine. At this time, Robyn was still very much shocked and processing what had just happened along with majorly grappling with what was largely still a secret to only a select couple of friends that she finally worked up the nerve to spill the beans to: the fact that she was the one responsible for supplying Dylan and Eric the majority of their guns unknowing of what they were going to use them for. Robyn was feeling all kinds of uncomfortable at that point, shock, remorse, embarrassment, shame and a whole lot of fear and anxiety. She would have spent a great deal of time laying low and under the radar. Attending the funeral of the the dude she helped supply a gun to so he, (her best friend and prom date) could commit a massacre was an inconceivable consideration and it would have attracted far too much attention on her. Any friends and associates of Dylan and Eric were witch hunted after the massacre. Disassociating their connections with two mass murderers was the easiest way to cope for many of them. Brooks and Devon took the easy way out and attended Rachel’s funeral so they would not have to deal with any stigma.
Yes, Marla Foust had thought for some reason that Devon was Dylan’s ex-girlfriend and stated this in her eyewitness account. Her perception was probably because Devon was good friends with Dylan who was best friends with Zach her boyfriend. So, she saw Devon and Dylan hanging around together and assumed this.
“Since existence has known, the ‘fight’ between good & evil has continued. Obviously, this fight can never end. Good things turn bad, bad things become good, the ‘people’ on the earth see it as a battle they can win. HA fuckin morons. If people looked at History, they would see what happens.”
There isn’t anything that says alcoholism had a history in either Sue or Tom’s sides of the family. It’s a possibility that there is a potential substance addiction in the family genetics somewhere along the line given that Bryon acquired a drug habit. Given that Dylan was both shy and depressed, alcohol would have a certain appeal to allow him to loose his inhibition and also numb himself from pain. That alone – a part from the genetic factor – would be criteria enough to lure Dylan into drinking regularly to avoid unpleasant feelings. The fact that Byron had a drug habit and that Dylan was rapidly following in his brother’s footsteps might have something to do with hidden problems within their family that hadn’t been properly acknowledged, voiced, confronted and dealt with and so both boys’ way of coping was to numb out and not deal with what was actually bothering them. For example, it’s possible that Bryon was somehow given subliminal messages by his parents that he was intellectually inadequate in comparison to his younger, gifted brother. So,as a result in his resentment, he blew everything off, did mediocre in school and partied hard.
Dylan, otoh, was the youngest, and his bond with Byron lessened, as his brother began to cause strife at home with an addiction habit. Byron was basically kicked out by his parents house which seems a pretty harsh punishment. That speaks volumes how they handled the situation (see family dynamic issues above). So, Byron acquiesced and moved out which basically amounted to an abandonment of sorts for Dylan. He covered his deep seated resentment toward his oldest brother in the diversion report by alluding in a dismissive sort of manner that ‘it was not a problem’ his brother wasn’t around anymore. Essentially, Dylan became like the only child at home by ‘98. He was all by himself, with his one and only oldest sibling ousted out of the home for his drug habit basically leaving one son for the Klebold’s to manage. Dylan now garnered the full attention of his parents which seemed to favor him as the ‘golden child’ with the potential to do them proud with his future aspirations (unlike their oldest son that failed them) but really, Dylan just became more isolated, disconnected from his family altogether – and deeply depressed so that the drinking when and where ever he could, to get wasted and numb – held a very strong appeal.
Ball cap worn forward was not the style in the late nineties. He may have lazily worn in a few times at home but the majority of the time, fashionably backward most especially around friends and peers.
Judy Brown filmed Dyl working theater production as seen here. He was wearing a different t-shirt bounding down the steps of CHS.
Honestly, there’s not a thing I said that sounded as though I took ‘issue’. If anything I was trying to lighten you up a bit. Seems like you’re, idk, deflecting your own self image issues on to my response? Wishing you could look a tad more physically like Dylan is one thing but mentioning you’d want to correct your appearance in order to look exactly like him is another entirely. You simply can’t be him nor would he want you to either. You see, he felt himself as ‘ugly’ as you seem to feel about yourself. The grass is always greener on the other side, hm? So, why not lighten up on yourself with a healthy compromise? Be yourself, embrace who you were created to be both inside and out but wear his awesome hat as a nod to him. 🙂
The Everlasting Contrast 