I see you talk down of Brooks alot but you and 80% of the Columbine community wouldn’t know half of what you know without him speaking out

That’s assuming that all of what he’s said is accurate information. He’s been known to contradict himself, change his story as well as provide glaringly inaccurate timelines in ‘No Easy’.  

..and, it isn’t so much that I ‘talk down’ about Brooks it’s more like, mmm.. I hold no illusions about the guy – especially after his disappointing faux pas fiasco on Tumblr in March 2013.  Brooks Brown is just a dude with a lot of foibles. He’s not a perfect role model and shouldn’t be put up on a pedestal simply because he knew Eric and Dylan. He’s not the end-all-be-all authority on Columbine.  I feel badly that Columbine messed him up but I don’t feel badly about him using his mass murdering, ‘virgin loser’ former, ex friends to garner him more attention or even dates with much younger women.

I get the feeling you don’t like Elliot Rodger because you’re a feminist, and you believe he hated women which really isn’t true at all. I feel bad for Elliot Rodger. He was as bad mentally disturbed than Eric and Dylan. He had 0 friends while Eric and Dylan had friends. He never spoke to women while Eric and Dylan did. Hell they even had friends who were girls and had girlfriends and went on dates.

“I get the feeling you don’t like Elliot Rodger because you’re a feminist, and you believe he hated women which really isn’t true at all.”

I”m a feminist, huh?  You drew that conclusion, why?, merely because I’m female?  lol   Ridiculousness!  Though, you’re right about one thing, Elliot didn’t just hate women, he hated the good looking, built men that were able to have those select few kinds of women that he, himself, desired.   If any friendly brunette/brown eyed woman approached Elliot and asked him out he wouldn’t have even jumped at the chance. Why?  Because unlike Eric and Dylan, Elliot wouldn’t be caught just dating any average woman – even to end his loneliness and lacking sex live – all because he believed himself only worthy and entitled to blonde ‘10′ goddesses. What a snoot with a fucking high criteria. Lower your standards if you want sex so bad, dude.   Elliot also hated minorities too, he hated blacks and asians and people of non-caucasian decent. He especially hated when he’d see a minority male dating, holding hands or kissing a blonde chick.  He couldn’t understand how any ‘”brutish Neanderthal” men (his words) could obtain beautiful women like that.  Well, Elliot, stop being such a coward and try being friendly and approachable, try and put a little work into actually. asking. a. girl. out, dude.  Don’t think the $400 sunglasses and that expensive car are going to win you a free ticket to women asking you, your Highness, out.    Elliott also hated minorities so much he spent a lot of time trying to conceal his asian decent by bleaching his hair platinum blonde.  He used a knife to kill his,poor, unsuspecting, innocent asian geeky housemates for chrissakes.   No, Eric and Dylan dated no more than a few times you can count on your fingers but that’s because they actually made attempts to throw themselves out there and socialize.  They made the effort, at the very least, even though they weren’t very successful.  Elliott thought himself too good to even try. He pouted and stomped his foot when no one -no one perfect enough in his book that is – would come to him and ask him out.  I mean, Eric and Dylan were narcissists but c’mon, at least they gave it a shot and that’s why they had friends and a few dates.   Elliot, by comparison, is the supreme narcissist sitting on his lofty throne and glaring at the world for not doing his bidding.  The dude never even tried once. What a big baby.  He gleefully spilled his steaming Starbucks lattes on couples walking past;  he attempted to shove a bunch of girls off of a balcony with the hopes of either gravely injuring them or sending them to their deaths.   Feel badly for Elliot Rodger all you want but you’ve not given me one good redeeming reason why I should.  This entire argument is lame, quite frankly, and it’s the first and last time I’ll entertain the “ooh, poor ole Eliot who was oh so lonely, you should feel more sorry for Elliot over Eric and Dylan’ ploy. It’s ridick.

Are you interested in some other shootings and serial killers, or is it just Columbine?

Yes, I’m interested in some other True Crime cases and especially present day True Crime mass shootings.  It’s a personal interest of mine of which I find interesting and fascinating from a psychological/ sociological perspective – but it’s also that the reoccurring rash of present day mass shootings has everything to do with our systemic, dysfunctional isolated modern culture which perpetuates disconnection, bullying and violence  – all themes which relate to an educational program I’ve been in support of.   Columbine, however is closest to my heart as it’s connects and speaks to me on an intensely personal and spiritual level.

Eric is such a cry baby. Why didn’t he just go to the gym, and lift weights? Bitch and moan all you want isn’t going to get you a damn thing.

I never did get the impression that Eric aspired to be a muscle head jock.  His beef wasn’t about wanting to be more beefy; his beef was over the favoritism that Columbine entitled beef heads received.

For the ultimate in ‘bitching and moaning cry baby’ tangents, I suggest looking at Eliot Rodger. Dude takes the cake at hating the built dudes that he claims automatically received the stuck-up blonde bitch goddesses. 😉 

Elliot Rodger.

I am Elliot Rodger… Magnificent, glorious, supreme, eminent… Divine! I am the closest thing there is to a living god. Humanity is a disgusting, depraved, and evil species. It is my purpose to punish them all. I will purify the world of everything that is wrong with it. On the Day of Retribution, I will truly be a powerful god, punishing everyone I deem to be impure and depraved.

How could an inferior, ugly black boy be able to get a white girl and not me? I am beautiful, and I am half white myself. I am descended from British aristocracy. He is descended from slaves. I deserve it more.

*stuffs fingers in ears* lahlahlahalahlah.  I’m sorry,..I CAN’T.. HEAR WHAT. YOU’RE. SAYING….

It’s not fair. You girls have never been attracted to me. I don’t know why you girls aren’t attracted to me, but I will punish you all for it.It’s an injustice, a crime, because I don’t know what you don’t see in me. I’m the perfect guy, and yet you throw yourselves at all these obnoxious men instead of me — the supreme gentleman. I will punish all of you for it

*violin starts playing*   

*slams palms over ears* YADDA YADDA YADDA  lahlahlahahahalhahlah

On the day of retribution, I am going to enter the hottest sorority house of UCSB and I will slaughter every single spoiled, stuck-up blond sl-t I see inside there.

*violin string snaps*

All those girls that I’ve desired so much. They would have all rejected me and looked down upon me as an inferior man if I ever made a sexual advance towards them, while they throw themselves at these obnoxious brutes. I’ll take great pleasure in slaughtering all of you. You will finally see that I am in truth the superior one. The true alpha man (creepy laugh). Yes. 

*Meanwhile Reb and VoDkA in the astral plane look at one another and eyeroll*  

V: This guy really annoys the fuck out of me, Reb. *shakes head*  
Status-y, stuck-up spoiled faggot.  I’m mean, who does he think he is, anyway?

R: Don’t ask..

V: Well..We should kill him.

R: Yeah, we should, V.   ’cept, well we can’t, dude. Remember?  

*shrugs*  Oh weelll..  At least we can have fun! annoying the shit out of the whiny-ass pussy.

*shotgun gestures in tandem*

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I disagree! Dylan lost 40lbs from 180-140 in a matter of months! If you check out January 30, 1998 Dylan’s junior year he still looks somewhat filler in the quick one second video of him being interviewed by RNN. His face looks a little “chubbier”. He was his 6’3 180lbs by this point. Then once you see him in the video in September ’98 from the Car Wax Commercial (roughly 7.5 months later) he lost ton of weight, and looks like the Grim Reaper In his shirt. He lost weight fast. No one noticed

My estimation for this is based on his drivers license dated 10/16/97 where he actually is listed at 180 lb. We don’t know precisely when Dylan began to drop the weight. We also don’t really know if it was a drastic, sharp drop or small amounts coming off over the months. I would say the latter. Why I say this is because it must’ve been so subtle of a drop that even his family and close friends really didn’t know notice anything significant about his weight so they never detected anything was wrong. To them it was just ‘wow, Dylan keeps growing and stretching out taller, eats like a chowhound but skinnier than ever’ by the passing months. In Sept 15, 1998 when the Carwax commerical was filmed, Dylan still has some meat on his bones. He still looks relatively healthy. His t-shirts armholes still fit him not too badly, and he’s not swimming in his blue jeans just yet. His legs still fill out the width of the denim. By Hitmen for Hire, in Dec ‘98, it’s a bit hard to tell as he’s covered up so much in his trench but his face looks thinner during the rant scenes in direct comparison to his fuller looking face in the RNN interview, Jan ‘98. Nothing abnormal really but a more thinned out face. Where it becomes painfully obvious that he is now around or at 140 pounds is during the filming of Radioactive Clothing in March of ’99. At this point, his arms look like sticks coming out of his t-shirt and he’s just swimming in those baggy, saggy jeans. (Yes, ladies, he had very little ass, I’d say pretty much no ass pop it’s all a flatline against the droopy backend of his jeans! It’s sad really not attractive nor ‘beautiful’. ) It’s a good possibility they were the very same jeans that fit him relatively well in Carwax filmed months ago. If you look at close-ups of his face in the prom snaps with Robin taken just a couple of days before 4/20, you can see his face has absolutely no baby fat on it. His skin seems tightly stretched over his bones especially around his cheekbones and his eyes which look even more deep set. If you watch his face from the side in the Breakfast Run, just the day before the massacre, his chin is drastically sharp and pointy. As I said, I’m technically basing this off of the fact he is listed on his license in Oct ’97 to be at 180 so by around March ’99, it is now the point where it’s extremely noticable that he must be around 140 lbs which is approximately 1.5 years. Actually, his autopsy report states 143, technically speaking.

See this post which includes photos of him from Carwax Commerical (9/98) on the left and Radioactive Clothing (3/99) on the right.

What do you think Dyl meant by saying that he wanted to be ignorant? Love your blog sososo much by the way 😍

Dylan was a gifted kid. Basically that means that his brain excelerated intellectually at a very early age compared to average grade-level peers. He grasped how to learn and do things at a faster pace and because of that fact, he needed to be stimulated by having new things to learn being introduced to him so that he could feel mentally stimulated and challenged – otherwise- Dylan would get bored and unfocused. He’d get lazy, procrastinate even, on doing assignments and then waited up until the last minute to complete them so that, in itself, would be the challenge. His mind was constantly going and he mentions this in his journal that all he does his “think, shit loads of thinking” and “his mind never stops”. He also had a hyper sensitive awareness of his surroundings – which I think, is impart exacerbated by his super shyness (which I believe to be AvPD). He had that sense of ‘self awareness’ and it was glaringly abundant to him that his intelligence compared to others made him feel isolated and acutely different from everyone else. In his self awareness, he could help but notice himself as being glaringly, markedly different from others. Those of ‘average’ intelligent seemed, to him, to be having more fun in life than himself because they seemed to be less complicated, less conscious of their surroundings. The jocks for example, were going out doing things, simply having friends, getting women and leading actual fun lives. Whereas Dylan was stuck in his insane asylum bedroom ruminating and feeling overwhelmed inside of his genius mind.

So, Dylan decides, at some point, that these people were ‘ignorant’ because they were less conscious of their surrounds in addition to having less intellectual capacity in comparison to himself. Therefore, those who are ignorant are less plagued with the bombardment of constant thoughts and mental chatter. The ignorant ‘zombies’, as he begins to refer to them, were simplistic and their mental abilities less cumbersome. They could just simply exist and ‘just be’, to just live and do in a state of happiness with not a whole lot of mental complexity to bog them down to make them jaded and weary of the world in which he felt he knew all too well about all by the age of seventeen.

Because the majority on the earth were ‘ignorant’ zombies’, they also felt a sense of well being in feeling connected and of the same ilk of one other, all existing on the same level. Whereas, the fewer intelligent, self-aware people such as Dylan didn’t fit in with the rest of humanity and suffered for it. He felt a huge chasm between himself and the ‘ignorant’ aka ‘average’ rest of the world. “People are alike, I am different’ He felt himself excluded and ostracized by the world as if he could never fit in and be like all the rest yet, earlier on in his journal, he was envious, and lamented about how he wished and inspired to be just like them. There’s something about his envy that reminds me a bit like Pinnochio, the wooden puppet that was made in the likeness of a human boy yet was cursed by the fact that he could seem like a boy but never could actually be one. At some point, he decided it was futile; he lamented that he never could be like them. Eventually, Dylan concluded it was because he was superior, that he was a god, ‘an einstein stuck in an ants body’ compared to the the ignorant zombies. He decided that he would have something infinitely better than the happiness the jocks seemed to have by not resisting what he was born as but embracing it. His mind and thoughts would afford him his rightful place in the Halcyons ‘of his mind’. He would conceive of this afterlife, this place, as being much better than this world he presently suffered in and he would do this by the use of his mind to create such a place.

Why was Rachel’s funeral such a huge deal? I mean as in why her and not any other victim?

That’s a good question. Possibly because she was all inclusive with a variety of friends from different cliques in school and so she stood out with an open, friendly personality and a cute-pretty fresh face – that, combined with her parents connections with the church. She was the Columbine ‘It" girl and her death came along at the right time, right place, right conditions to which publicity and media combined with organized christianity got a hold of it and swept her life up into a big matyrdom tragedy of glamourous proportions. Why not Cassie, Lauren or Kelly? For some reason Rachel just made the most dramatic impact with classmates in school.

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