Hey, I wanted to know if you had an idea of the 3 close friends Dylan had that he put down on his survey thing from the January incident? Because Eric only put one (which I’m assuming was Dylan) but Dylan put 3, I’d guess one was Eric and other was Zach but would you have an idea of who the 3rd one is? (I love your blog btw, you go into so much detail with your answers and have a really good idea of how Dylan and Eric must’ve felt / thought during their years)

Eric, Zack and Nate

Thankss 😊

Why do i keep seeing “Rachel was not perfect, she made mistakes” everywhere? Lol i mean nobody is perfect and everyone makes mistakes, but what did she do so terrible that people feel the need to point that out?

Abigail Boles account in the 11K of Rachel pushing her down the stairs.
Abigail is sister to Tad Boles who was in the TCM. That’s pretty much the only record or Rachel being ‘a bully’. The assumption is that Rachel, earlier on at CHS, hung out with friends of questionable character. At a certain point, as Rachel became deeper in her christian faith and let it be known she felt strongly about it, ended up being defriended and so she eventually acquired new friends that shared her religious values.

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I read somewhere that Nate Dykeman’s mom also attended the funeral? Do you think that Dylans friends didnt want to come or were afraid of what others would think? Do you think that Dylan and Eric would be hurt about so few people showing up, or they wouldnt care?

Not at all likely that Nate’s mom, Julie, would’ve attended and here’s why.

Yes, Dylan and Eric’s friends were easy prey for being judged by classmates as to whose funeral they’d choose to attend and align loyalties/allegiance to. Even Brooks Brown who normally wouldn’t foil under such pressure, made the popular choice to go to his friend Rachel Scott’s funeral instead of his childhood friend, Dylan. Primarily probably because JeffCo was riding Brooks’ ass as to being a potential third suspect so he had to be especially good and careful in the publics’ eyes, well, as good as he could manage in all of his anger and resentment for being vilified. Devon also attended Rachel’s funeral and felt badly for it afterward. One of her ‘biggest regrets’ she says. The politically correct choice of preference had to be made on that day (Dylan and Rachel’s funeral were both held on April 22nd) and she seems to feel as though she abandoned Dylan when he needed somone there to honor the memory of who he was as a good friend to her, regardless of the horrible, evil, mistake he had made. Rachel had literal droves of people and friends flocking to her funeral but Dylan needed only one, and that never happened, so Devon feels badly for her choice.

I’m sure Eric and Dylan would say they didn’t care..even though they probably really did. Neither expected to be there for it so ‘who cares’. *shrugs* It’s just the narcissistic mindset they were in at the time. If they’d cared that much about lack of attendees at their funeral they wouldn’t have done the kind of damage they chose to do. They knew they’d be blamed and vilified and so I doubt they’d really consider who, if any, besides their own parents and brother, would show up at their funeral. Probably were hoping to be cremated beyond recognition via the damage done to their school…

Please don’t ever go away. This blog means so much to me (and hopefully many others). Honestly, when I’m having an episode I come to your blog and just scroll through the archives to calm myself down. I’d be heartbroken and lost if I ever lost this wonderful gem of a blog!! <3

Your words are considered. 😊 It’s truly nice to know E-C is a comforting haven of sorts for you. It has been..is..for me too. Thank you for expressing this. 💗

Do you think they hugged or felt the need to hug each other before they committed?

You mean, before they committed suicide? If so, no, the two were too disconnected and checked out. Think of it like the two are suddenly finding themselves in this surreal bad dream, where they find themselves going through the motions, maybe even detachedly sort of observing themselves preparing for their eventual end at a distance. They are almost in their own separate vacuums. Hugging is an action that is too physically grounding and by the time they reached the point of preparing for suicide, they just wanted to be gone and quickly. It’s like, well, especially in Eric’s case, getting into an escape pod on a spaceship that’s damaged and rapidly going down – so he quickly does what needs to be done: gets in the pod, shuts the door, flips the switches and jettisons himself off of it real quick. No time to think or hug or talk. Time to just..leave. Adios!

i just want to thank you for being one of the most intelligent, kind, deep and spiritual people i’ve ever come across on this website. honestly i sometimes wonder if you’re real because the things you write are laced with such beauty and your explanations are so poignant and touching that i can’t imagine your blog not existing. you’ve found light in so much darkness and transformed the heartbreaking tragedy that is columbine into a beacon of hope for me. you’re my idol… sorry im gushing lol.

Aww, well, now you’ve gone and done it as I’m both gushing and blushing foolishly over your too kind words. Honestly, I don’t know how much of me is ‘real’ here either. lol If you say you’ve found the light in the darkness of the tragedy here on my blog, there really is no higher compliment because a beacon of hope by way of Dylan, in his name, is ultimately my purist aim. Helping others through the lessons that is Him. This blog has obviously touched you in a deep way, and I’m profoundly gratified that you feel so strongly as to why E-C should remain in existencez. Again, thank you for taking the time to express your depth of feeling. Reading this has touched me deeply. 😘 💗 💞And, btw, I love that you’re using my old Tumblr username triple cross image.. 😉

You don’t think the “im full of love and nobody wants it” is authentic? It does sound like something he would write in his journal to me

LOL Nope, that’s a fake if ever there was one. While the essence of the phrase really does embody the place where Dyl is coming from, Tbh, I think he’d be simultaneously cringing and blushing that someone would assign him such a pussy, emo tagline 😢- especially when Reb’s is so much more bad ass “I’m full of hate and I love it. 😈 The taglines work well in yin/yan contrast to one another – even though Dyl’s is made-up because they’re essentially like those happy / sad theater masks.