Iv just always wondered about the ‘I did try to call you but you must have been asleep’ or the ‘maybe I should call her or wait for fate’ lines in his journal , do you think he knew ‘her’ in the sense that he had her phone number as a friend or could it be a computer hacking school scenario to get her number,I just can’t imagine him having the nerve to call his love,unless he had a bit of liquor courage that is???

Yeah, he knew this particular her that he was trying to work up the nerve to call. I think liquor courage helped him manage to take a deep breath and dial that number of hers. (He was known to have used liquor courage while chatting up girls online like, for example, Sarah Slater). Dyl spent so much time enumerating about it that he missed her because it was too late and he then concluded, with a sigh of relief and frustration, that she must be asleep. He knew her number because he knew her just well enough to obtain it.

Isn’t it strange how even though Dylan would threat the kids during the shooting more, he didn’t kill as much. Whereas Eric was calmer, but killed more. It’s so strange

No, not really strange. It’s just that Dylan was more into the thrill of psychological terrorizing classmates rather than Eric who was trigger happy for the kill counts – well, that is, until he broke his nose and was less methodical about killing as many as possible. Once inside the school, Dylan got off running down the hall chasing after people,  shooting haphazardly at students and lockers and walls, yelling like it was his last, big party. At the end of the hallway, a girl was on a pay phone talking to her mom and saw Dylan approaching peripherally. She dropped the phone and ran into the girls bathroom. Did Dylan pursue her?  Nope. 

Dylan liked the power trip of being threatening but not necessarily a deadly, precise threat.  In the library, he walked around insulting students  and suggesting threatening things out loud to Eric, hinting to his audience cowering under the tables that maybe they should use their knives because he always wondered what it would feel like to cut someone. It was an idle threat he suggested loudly while his boots were on either side of a girls leg sticking out from underneath a table as he reloaded his weapons above her.  Yes, of course Dylan killed too, but he enjoyed the terrorizing more and so by comparison, he killed less than Eric.

Oh brother Jeffco’s department is very corrupt but they didn’t block out Nate and Dylan’s words because It would made Dylan seem less as a monster. They released Eric and Dylan’s home videos, and journals which actually makes them seem less than a monster, and Jeffco released it. They haven’t released the Basement Tapes which show E&D as monsters. Judging what you said those would have been the first ones they released, and they never did.

Jeffco, for the most part, released video productions of E & D acting scenes. Video productions showing them usually with weapons trying to intimidate or kill people (or clothes lol).  The Carwax video which is basically the two are acting/directing scenes, showing them throwing stuff on a bike and bashing it up which suggests (to the knee jerk judgmental public and media) their propensity towards destruction and vandalism. Only those that study the case know that the two were imitating a MAD TV car wax spoof. Rampart Range shows them being everyday dudes in small doses but again, with guns, lots and lots of guns. The journals are one dimensional words and not quite the same thing as seeing them/hearing them as everyday ordinary people talking and interacting with each other or friends. The journals have been construed as monstrous to some, especially Eric’s, and delusional to other as with Dylan as well as sympathetic or empathetic to a certain minority (ahem) that really are able to read between the lines and relate to them in certain ways. The Basement Tapes are a loaded weapon as they have a heavy potential of revealing them as both monsters but also simultaneously, just simply average, ordinary teenage boys behaving badly with bitterness and vulnerability but also humor as they make jokes together for their camera audience.  Additionally, the BTs were not released because the boys are speaking to US, looking directly in the camera, and seducing some to become like them and take up their rebel’s cause. That is the primary reason the BTs were not released. The irony is that their discussion of their monstrous plans comes across banal if not slightly amusing with them taking swigs of Jack Daniels, eating sweet tarts and spilling a soda pop can on the floor only to scramble and clean it up.  Those bits would surely endear some people to them so therefore, the Basement Tapes are more of a powder keg denied from public consumption.  

Making Dylan seem more human is just but one of two speculations I gave for the Morning Ritual’s audio being tightened up and the other was that teachers, friends and enemies names might have been mentioned in the course of their chit chat. That type of filming in a car would’ve heavily focused on their discussion and not so much the visuals. Easier to just edit all of that out to protect the people they’d mentioned but only keep in the bits where Nate and Dylan are alluding their school’s destruction “Columbine, there she blows” and “ready the torpedoes Mr. Nate *laughs.” 

The killers’ bodies are taken from the school. There’s nothing left now but aftermath. The snow begins to fall as they’re hauled away. Big, locust flakes, blown by an east wind, banishing the earth, unbelievable except for the fact that they’re real and cling to everyone—the camera crews jockeying for tears, the governor’s entourage, which has just arrived to inspect the decimated building, and the kids, wearing tranquilized masks, who gather to mourn at makeshift memorials, held up by one another, their hair covered in veils of white.

On the night of the massacre, the minister, Don Marxhausen, calls an impromptu service at his church. “The body of Christ,” he murmurs again and again, and near the end of Communion a female parishioner approaches, answering not with “Amen” but “Klebold.”

“The body of Christ,” he says again, confused, but again the answer: “Klebold.”

“Don’t forget them in their hour of need,” she says.

Shortly after, Reverend Don gets a phone call from Tom Klebold, the father of Dylan. “I need your help,” he says, “but it has to be confidential.”

Reverend Don doesn’t shy from complicated spiritual transactions. He goes where he’s most needed, reaches out to those who most need lifting. He carries his 240 pounds as if he could still do a little damage in hell if he had to. Among the conservative evangelicals who dominate this place, he’s a liberal misfit. If you can’t laugh, even in the worst times, he says, if you can’t find some smiling note in the dirge—or, at least, forgiveness—then you may as well forget about salvation. So he agrees to do the memorial service for Dylan Klebold because the boy is a misfit, too, and still one of God’s children.

When he arrives for the service, Sue Klebold, the mother, embraces him. He can feel her trembling, and she leads him to an open casket in which her son Dylan—the killer formerly known as V—has been laid to rest. The image of him sleeping here, coiffed for good-bye, is startling: He’s surrounded by Beanie Babies, a ring of them that runs from one ear to the other.

How does one commend this sweet boy, a mass murderer, to heaven? Reverend Don doesn’t even try. “Do you mind if we just talk for a while,” he says, “and then we’ll worship.” And so they do. One couple says that the Klebolds are great parents. And another couple agrees and chimes in, “He was like our son!”

Then Tom Klebold speaks: We don’t believe in guns. We’ve never had any in our house.

And Sue: I don’t understand the anti-Semitism. I’m his mother, and I’m Jewish.

It goes like this for forty-five minutes—this confusion and disbelief suffusing everything, though they really try to remember him for the funny, sensitive kid he was. Only Dylan’s older brother remains silent. Nothing negative is said, though the enormity of what has brought them here crushes down on everything. How do you reach these parents who have not only lost a son but whose son set out, it seems, to kill an entire town?

Reverend Don tells a story about how, in the Bible, David, the king of Israel, once had a son named Absalom, a beautiful boy who was a fierce rabble-rouser, inciting civil war against his father. In the end, David’s loyal general, Joab, was forced to kill Absalom in order to restore the kingdom, and yet David, when confronted by his son’s body, was so overcome by grief, he broke down. “Would God I had died for thee,” he wailed, “O Absalom, my son, my son!”

It is the perfect parable about the purity and endlessness of a father’s love, no matter what the situation. And the Klebolds cling to it. After a few blessings, they’re done. Dylan is later cremated—for fear that a grave site would be defiled—and when the minister asks one of the Klebolds’ legal representatives what to do in case the media come calling, Reverend Don is mildly surprised when the man says, “Just tell them what you’ve seen here tonight.”

And so he does. He agrees to two nationally televised interviews. To America, he describes the Klebolds as a family in deep, unimaginable pain. About the service, he says he saw two innocent parents “questioning where their son came from.” He stays in touch with Tom and Sue, visits occasionally. Tom, a former geophysicist, rarely leaves his house. The driveway has two gates on it, and he sits up in his office, cloistered from the world. Sue has a position with a local college, working with the disabled. She pens letters to the victims’ families, expressing her grief. She has so many questions now about her son. She invites a small group over to watch the prom-night video they took of Dylan. He wore a tux and went with a friend, Robyn, a girl who also secretly bought guns for Reb and V. But in the video, they’re merely high school seniors, pinning each other with corsages, giggling embarrassedly, then getting into the limo on one of the biggest nights of their young lives. Sue Klebold scours the television screen for clues. There are no clues.

As for Reverend Don, when he twice defends the killer’s family on national television, when word leaks out that he led Dylan’s memorial service, well, something turns and hooks in his parish, and they begin to hate. There are forty-six families here who had kids inside Columbine High School that day, and suddenly he’s Absalom.

On the first-year anniversary of the massacre, even as the reverend addresses thousands in Clement Park, his church council unanimously votes for his firing. Within three months, he sells his house, packs and is banished from Littleton, Colorado, for good.

[Source for this entire beautifully written 2004 article –Columbine Never Sleeps]