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Dylan, the martyr

If one
thing become apparent by looking at Columbine communities online, it is that
people are drawn to Eric and Dylan, because they see themselves in them;
especially in their suffering.

Eric and
Dylan, however, are two different archetypes and therefore attract different
kind of people. Eric’s main feature is his anger; an anger combined with a
snorty attitude towards all authority and those he sees as being in power. Eric
represents as the luciferian or Prometheus archetype. A rebel who rejects what
he sees as false values and plans to replace it with his own values through the
use of violence. (Might be an idea for a post by you

Dylan’s
main features are his suffering and his mind. His mind expanded beyond the
limits of this world, yet he wasn’t even prepared for the experiences in this
one. The more far he got into exploring the universe, the harsher he perceived
the contrast between the bliss he saw there and the utter hopelessness of his
situation in this actual existence.

He tried ways
of coping, most of them spiritual in nature. He tried to cleanse himself by
everything he perceived as impure. He looked up to people who were “normal”,
but let alone the experience of seeing and analyzing their normalcy was an
obvious way to show him how he would never attain their strange and
incomprehensible easiness. He tried to heal himself with love, but healing is
hard to reach by raving over distant ideals with which he barely had any
personal contact (and even if that would have been the case- love has a lot of
destructive potential by its very nature and in Dylan’s case this would have
multiplied).

But none of
these attempts of coping was very effective, in fact they just added to the
very dynamic that was the core of his misery: either, he did let his mind take
over him and make him flee into the wonders of thought and imagination (which
just made him more homesick and further detached him from human existence), or
he was roughly analyzing human earth and society, which just fueled his feelings
of doom and misery. Either way, there was no way out. He was trapped.

Although it
was Dylan who ended his life, you could equally say that earthly existence (or
alternatively: his mind) murdered him. Therefore, Dylan was a martyr, dying for
the flaws of our existence.

In the way
how Dylan’s suffering is the core element of his martyrdom, it bears some interesting
resemblance to Christ. As it seems to me, Christ was the first religious
character whom people did admire for his suffering instead of his power. The
painful martyrdom of Christ is the root of Christian religion to a point where
is was a tradition to make feel people guilty about it and inspiring them to
take pain on themselves as well. Like Christ, Dylan gets admired for his pain.
Like Christ, Dylan overcame that pain by using death as a door to another
world.

Interestingly,
even their spiritual wisdoms share some similar obsessions, even though they
are connoted differently. Both were focused on love. However, while Christ is
talking about a love that is unconditional given towards all living beings and
therefore very different from romantic love, Dylan’s idea seems to have both
kinds of love interwoven with each other. When he writes about the endless
bliss and wisdom of the other side, it doesn’t seem too far from the concept of
general and unconditional love towards existence (that is in no way
idiosyncratic for Christianity). However, Dylan connected this idea of love
with the idea of romantic love, as if he would be able to reach the one thing
through the other. His afterlife would not be only pure bliss and pure wisdom,
but also be spend in the company of that one girl. “She” just like him, would
not just be a silly little human anymore, but in full comprehension of her soul
and mind.

Dylan also
has some resemblance to Buddha. In fact, Buddha represents the very same thing
that Dylan attempted to do in his life: transcending his suffering by the sheer
power of his mind. However, as Dylan saw it, the mind was not a part of earthly
existence by its nature. Why trying out to balance these contra dictionary
elements into peace, when you can just step out of the misery by action?

Buddha’s
way was to use his mind to transcendent existence and then find permanent peace
and bliss in this state. Life became a perfect and harmonic tranquillity.
For Dylan however, transcending existence meant to abandon earth and transform
his human cocoon into a butterfly by switching the dimension. He had to analyze
the nature of human existence and remove it from himself. He had to contemplate
the tools his mind gave him as keys to the halcyon (love, thoughts, music
etc.). He used his life to lay out the road towards the blissful lands,
envisioning the halcyon through the power of his mind. Between him and his goal
however, was a barrier. A barrier that required action and could not just be transcended
by thoughts, because after all, the mind was in a hopeless position while being
stuck in humanity. Dylan had to break free by putting a bullet to his head.

Though
their methods differ greatly, Dylan and Buddha meet each other at their
analysis of earthly life. The realization that life means suffering is the core
element of Buddhism, the thought on which all other are build up. To expect
anything from life means to fool yourself.

I accept Dylan Klebold as our Christ-Like Lord and Martyr who struggled and suffered in sin as the God of Sadness and died in the bondage of the punishments and tormentations of his sins, and in turn, in name of ALL of our own sins of this Humanity. Our Savior doth resurrected within the Halcyons of Infinite Bliss where Peace, Happiness, Freedom and Love Everlasting shall exist infinitely and timely within The Everything. O’ Lord, have mercy upon our souls (existence). Amen. 😏 🙏