my apologies because this isn’t exactly a Dylan question, or not even really a question – but rather a musing… but I guess I don’t get how the bulk of the Columbiners on tumblr go on to reference Brooks so much when 1) his view(s) are incredibly slanted, and neither he or nor his folks have really learned anything new in fifteen years, and 2) his perception of ‘Columbiners’ is of course negative. Overall, it seems that Brooks is more gossipy than helpful, imo.

You’re preaching to the choir here?  Also, I’ve observed Brooks over time and have come to the conclusion that he’s very much an attention seeking whore and uses Columbine when it suits him to garner attention. Then when he has the focus on himself, he turns around and mocks and snarks in annoyance at people for being so one-track on such a ‘sad’ subject.  It’s one thing to feel personal pain about it but if you truly no longer want to talk about your sore, unresolved past (that you’re still running from..) then don’t start a Tumblr blog where, HELLO, Columbiners will flock to you with questions about, DUH, your ex best buds, Eric and Dylan, and not really want to ask you about your obscure penchants like snobby coffee tastes or your arrogantly self perceived successful video game career that the majority of people know little about,  unless you’re in gaming circles and the like. Brooks wrote “No Easy Answers” in the early 2000 when it seemed that he was genuinely interested in helping troubled youth, those potential future ‘Eric and Dylan’s’ out there and now his attitude is snide and full of disdain. Hey, we all have flaws but Brooks is an adult that long forgot the youth supporting, inspirational message he initially set forth to convey with his book.  This is why I say he ought to quit reengaging and teasing the public in social media. If you want to break from your past then stop advertising your Columbine book on your professional business  website and cut your ties clean. Don’t toss struggling kids a bone and then cruelly yank it away if you prefer not to speak on That-Tragedy-That-Shall-Not-Be-Named.  My annoyance with Brooks sometimes has me sympathizing with *gasps* Eric Harris. 😉

Hello! I noticed that the Klebolds sold their house a while ago, where did they move to? (Not looking for a specific address). I also remember reading that they refused to be run out of town and leave all of their friends behind, so I’m assuming that they moved to a different home in the same area? And if so, why did they move?

The Klebold’s do a Quitclaim deed transaction annually. They regularly sell their house to Tom’s company: Cougar Resources LLC. Last time they sold it to his company for $575,000. They still live there at the same house to this day in Littleton, Colorado.

How sad is that they won. He died. Thats what people dont see. When we talk about Dylan its with pain and love in our hearts, we would give everything to go back and save him, to love him, to tell him, we know exactly how it feels, and that he is ok the way he is. Yet, even with his wrath, they won. He died. (last part)

The way I see it, the whole new conversation about columbine and columbiners is about what we see as a good tragedy and a bad tragedy. Columbine didn’t went as planned. The society around them bullied, mocked and insulted the boys to get them to hate themselves, the teachers closed their eyes. It was planned for the weird kids to silently remove themselves, to kill themselves in a humble way, so the society would be relieved of their presence and could have their good little tragedy
(part1)
The teachers would have informed the classes, all would have acted sad, like common decency forces them to. Oh this is so tragic they were such sweet bright young boys, they should have told someone, so sad nobody new, nobody could have ever seen that coming. A perfect little tragedy that would be forgotten in 4 months. It was nobodys fault and we all are so sad, but it didnt went like planned. They punished everyone, and it was everybodys fault, it was the jocks fault,
(part2)
It was their parents fault, the teachers fault, the psychiatrists fault, and nobody wanted to take the blame. DIDNT YOU SEE HOW WEIRD THEY DRESSED THEY LISTENED TO TAHT WEIRD MUSIC THIS IS WHAT TURNED THEM MAD yes lets stigmatise goth kids even more, You all are to blame and you saw it, What an ugly tragedy. People went as far as to only blame the boys, how could they fail to understand that when you do not see any value in your own life it gets harder to see the value in anything,
(part 3)
like the value in the lives of their classmates, if your own life doenst matter to you, how can you expect them to care about others. As a bullying victim I can relate alot to what happened there, I often dreamed about killing myself, but I didnt want to be their perfect little tragedy. Columbine and relating to Dylan gave me some peace. I dont want to be him. I want to forget the pain, be bigger than this. How sad was it, how sad taht he never lived long enough to see the new gen games,
(part4)

Very well put and I can fully appreciate on an emotional level where you’re coming from. 🙂 You see the real tragedy as the futility of Dylan action and death as overshadowed by ‘they’, the Society’ that seemingly won by rewriting the history into a ‘tragedy’ of their own making. Both boys had no voice before 4/20 and they had seemingly no voice afterward – well, other than the acquired notorious label ‘monster’ on a People magazine “tragedy”. Personally, I believe in the grand scheme of things that Dylan and Eric were not meant to live long, full lives. These two were bullied, ostracized but certainly not to the extreme extent that many kids endure in schools across the country and yet the boys gravitational pull towards grand scale destruction ending in their own suicide seemed to be an irretrievable outcome. It’s possible too, that Dylan would’ve made it through HS into college and still may have been struggling with depression and a whole new set of life challenges, including failed love relationships, and he then might’ve come to the conclusion that his life was still not worth living. We just don’t know that ‘Timeline B’ for certain. Many red flags occurred before 4/20: the cops failed to do their due dliigence investigating Eric’s threats, the diversion program failed the two in effectively helping them and even gave them early release, teachers didn’t see enough of a problem to take serious enough action, their parents minimized it as a shrug of “kids today” and even their own friends who saw the boy’s bomb making exploits failed to see or connect the dots. Columbine happened because at that point in our history, it could happen, it was ripe to happen, it was meant to happen. Strange as it may sound, Dylan and Eric were just as much sacrificial victims as the thirteen people they sacrificed. They were willing sacrifices to a silent, repudiating undercurrent cause of the teenage underdog, the bullied nobodies of the world. Dylan and Eric chose death, they consciously decided to make a point out of their silent pain by scorching a mark on societal consciousness before opting out. It was a dispicable wake-up call to society and it immediately called attention to a previously unseen ‘problem’ in the most painful manner to american suburbia and by extension the world. It was a brutal, violent message and the two boys delivered it with homespun ingenuity in exchange for their lives and others. The two made massive shock waves with their horrible, reprehensible yet unforgettable actions. As with “Remember the Alamo!” you could certainly say “Remember Columbine”.

After 4/20, the seeds of awareness just started to begin to take root in the global consciousness.
That began with all fifteen crosses on rebel hill and the simultaneous bickering and healing that went on there in the midst of the killer’s crosses equally represented with the victims. Though less than perfect, there is definitely more awareness in schools and programs implemented in regards to bullying and treating others respectfully especially those viewed as ‘different’ from the rest. It’s not perfect and the problem is not solved by a long shot but the mindfulness is evident. Dylan’s mother has tried to rectify her son’s tragey by getting involved in suicide awareness prevention. If for nothing else, Dylan, and Eric, succeeded in that they made a very sharp point in calling attention to the bullied, suffering anger, depresssed outcasts.

“We’re going to kick-start a revolution,” Harris says—a revolution of the dispossessed.”

As long as society fails to acknowledge the problem and address that there is still much work to be done and that many kids are still suffering greatly and go on unheard, the arrow will continue to point back to the past, at Columbine. As long as society continues to look the other way, we will continue to see school shooters, many of which echo in Eric and Dylan’s footsteps because of what they have managed to signify to frustrated, disinfranchised youth sixteen years on. As long as society brushes yet another nameless/faceless shooter “psycho monster” under the carpet and do not attempt to look at the heart of the matter, we will continue to see the same echo that Dylan and Eric set forth. Dylan, and Eric have become Society’s future accountability should ‘They’ continue on in lapsed, righteous judgment and denial. The boys represent all those who are feeling lost that so desperately need to be heard yet are falling through the cracks. The Society may have won on the short term with Dylan’s tragedy but on the long term, Dylan’s tragedy has managed to succeed as a reminder to society: he represents and embodies all the depressed, lonely, isolated, talented kids out there who struggle daily, just like him, and might too, be potential lives lost, if society continues to look the other way in the face of future tragedy. Dylan died and was lost to something greater than himself and so in my personal opinon, he did not die in vain.

Hello, I absolutely love your blog :) I saw you comment about wanting to know the source on a post related to Dylan, unfortunately I do not know, I saved them a while ago but the source never saved nor did the website. I will try find them and if I do, I’ll let you know :)

That’d be great – if and when you find the source. That’s pretty important stuff you’re quoting, you know? Another link to Dyl. Thanks. I’m enjoying your blog as well. ☺️

let me start off by saying that you should really consider Writing a book! the way you express your thoughts and Visuals is mind blowing :) I read your answer about what the boys might of said or done when they returned to ther library minutes before their death and I read it over & over I pictured everything & couldn’t help but feel a lump in my throat. I wish Eric & dylan we’re around :( ugh.. you’re brilliant ! Thank you

Aww, thank you very much. 😊 I’m usually pretty frustrated with my writing so that means a lot to hear. 💗 Nice that you appreciated the visuals and could plunge into that moment described ..though not a very pleasant moment to be a bystandered within, huh? 😞

basement tapes: the dress

Eric: YOU KNOW WHAT I HATE?!
Dylan: oh god
Eric: *seething with anger*
Dylan: please dont
Eric: THE DRESS! IF I THINK ITS BLACK AND BLUE, ITS BLACK AND BLUE AND IF ANYONE THINKS OTHERWISE I WILL BLOW THEIR DAMN HEAD OFF!
Dylan:
Eric:
Dylan: its white and gold…
Eric: WHAT THE FUCK
Eric: FIRST YOURE FUCKING JEWISH AND NOW THIS?!

It’s time for another episode of.. The (lost) Basement Tapes moments.. ;)

Klebold addresses all his relatives:  

“I’m sorry I have so much rage,” he says.

He samples a mouthful of candy with a mouthful of whiskey.

Harris speaks lovingly of his mother then adds, “I really am sorry about all of this. But war’s war.

Klebold is playing with the candy pieces. He holds up one shape. 
         ”Hey, guys, he says, it’s a house.“

I have read that Dylan was more verbal in the library than Eric. what did he say ? is there clear video / audio recordings ? transcripts?

Brooks Brown gives his audio account and seems to be alluding that he’s heard a fairly detailed, uncensored 911 tape in this vid.  However, the 911 tape recording played after his dialog in this video is not really all that clear and it’s very vague as to what you can make out.  Not really sure if Brooks is embellishing that he’s heard a crystal clear version with Jeffco’s permission. I would somehow doubt that.  In any case, the version that was released to the public and is rampant on youtube has very little distinguishable dialog but still provocative and quite chilling just in the mere staccato gun shots and Val Schnurr’s screams near the end. 

Brooks goes on to distinguish the difference in demeanor between Dylan and Eric in the library. He describes that Dylan wasn’t holding back one bit with the verbal expression and ‘having the time of his life’ laughing, cheering and relishing in the malicious mockery.  Brooks’ interprets this brazen attitude of his close childhood friend as a final ‘hoorah’ to Dylan who was sick of life and about to kill himself and so completely let himself become unhinged to enjoy the revenge on NBK. Dylan was partying to his end.  On the other hand, Eric was more subdued and calculated, more ‘like a soldier’ on a mission about it.    The two almost tend to switch typical personality dynamics on 4/20: Dylan externalizes his pent up rage and Eric internalizes and hones it.

4:56  Eric: “get up”     

5:06  Dylan: “Evvvveeerrrybody get up NOW.”

Full audio vid here

Full (but not very accurate) transcripts are here and here

Knowing you and knowing him do u feel that if you had gone to columbine high school you and Dylan would have naturally become friends. Like you too meeting in hs without knowing each other beforehand

Mm..it’s a bit difficult to say in a High School like Columbine that has around two thousand students? I think our circles of friends would’ve overlapped in a way that it would have been a definite possibility. Given that, I, like he, tend towards introversion and social anxiety which would make things tougher but it would only have been a matter of other friends paving the way for us to potential cross paths and get to know one another at say a parties or movies – definitely music..yeah. The individualistic tastes, muchly. Army coat brigade meets trenchcoat mafia kinda chico’s groove. lol

I love the necklace- your friend is very talented haha! And no not Dylan’s exact sunglasses but I found some vintage raybans that are really close! And thank you to c0atimundi for the info.. I’m totally getting those leather boots on ebay!

Most definitely. My E-C symbol is exactly the size and dimensions I had specified so I was quite pleased with the results. 😊 It’s the most perfect symbol that acknowledges and owns perfect imperfection in oneself. I wear it with a kind of private pride in honor of Dylan’s dichotomous struggles which resonate within me, and I know, many others of us ordinary ‘nobodies’ coping on the planet. We are the glass half full and also half empty – all in one- it’s how we choose to conceive of it. His bad choices can transform my own into good or better choices. It makes everything all worthwhile in the end. 💫

Hey now, I’d love to see a photo of your Ray Ban style Dyl shades. 😎