Videotapes made by Harris and Klebold reveal that they were very concerned about hurting their parents with what they were about to do, especially Klebold. And it is fascinating that although he made the famous tell-all videotape, Klebold still took time to erase his computer’s hard drive immediately before the assault on Columbine. Leaving nothing to chance, the technologically sophisticated boy obliterated all traces of these files. In view of everything he told on the tape, what could he have been trying so meticulously to hide?

In 1999, at the time of the shootings, Columbine High School had no services geared toward gay youth and had never had an openly gay student. Aricia La France, a Mennonite youth worker in Littleton, says that one lesbian student told her she had been in class with Klebold when he protested to the teacher that another student had called him a “fag,” and the teacher replied, “But you are, aren’t you?”

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Actually, it was Harris that came across as more concerned about hurting his parents in the Basement Tapes. I believe the lesbian student that witnessed said despicable teacher interaction with Dylan to be Alejandra Marsh.

Do you think dylan would of been a good older brother if he had a younger sister/brother?

I think he probably would’ve prefered to have not been the youngest, the ‘runt of the litter’ as he described his extended family as treating him in the Basement Tapes. (I, myself, can relate to this feeling!) If he had a younger sister or brother, and was that level up in maturity, he might have felt himself treated as automatically more experienced and wiser. Then again, being ‘the middle’ has it’s share of draw backs as well. Given that Dylan had five planets in Libra, he may have been able to handle being the middle child as Libran energy is naturally inclined to balancing, harmony and mediation. He certainly was good at keeping friends and didn’t appear to have any strife with them even if his mutual friends were feuding but he was often caught in the middle yet chose to stay out of it. I think he’d be a decent older brother and if he had a sister, to offset the male energy, I think he have a close connective vibe with her. Adding a sister to the mix of two boys, would’ve thrown some more Yin female energy and offset the three male Klebold Yang vibe. A sister would interact with her brothers by communicating and expressing feelings. As a teenager, she would’ve automatically thrown in more emotional drama which would have forced to engage all of them on a ‘let’s air the feelings’ expression level. Dylan needed to be drawn out that way more and to see things from the inner world of a female perspective close to his own age. He also would’ve probably felt more comfortable around girls in school. I think a sister would’ve kept Dylan more anchored within the family unit. Instead, with Byron, who was a few years older and who left home fairly early to live on his own.  Dylan automatically became the ‘only child’ living at home with his parents (again, another thing I can relate to.) which caused him to disconnect, detach and spend all his time alone in his room as he there was no one his age to relate to. With a younger brother, Dylan may have felt like displacing some of his ‘runt’ baggage with his older brother. It would have gone either way, they could have gotten along famously or he might’ve wielded a bit too much ‘I’m older than you’ authority.

Hey, this is not a question but I wanted to share with you and your followers a quote by Mary Shelley. “I have love in me, the likes of which you can scarcely imagine and rage, the likes of which you would not believe. If I cannot satisfy one, I will indulge the other.”

That quote perfectly encapsulates Dylan’s contrasting, dichotomous struggles, doesn’t it? Slightly ironic, as he worked the sound for the Columbine HS production of Mary Shelley’s Frankenstein from where this quote originates.

Dylan loosely echoes Frankenstein in his ‘love letter.’ “To most people, I appear..well..almost scary, but that’s who I appear to be as people are afraid of what they don’t understand.”

What do you think would have happened had one of the boys not gone through with the suicide (almost like in The Klass ending) I mean we might have gotten some answers as to WHY they did it, but cause of that the MYSTERY wouldn’t make the shooting so infamous maybe..

Well, but they already essentially told us why they did it. Their why’s are fairly clear in all the released information and even the edited Basement Tapes transcripts pretty much spell out why they did it. You have to be not seeing the why right in front of your face to still be asking ‘but why?’..which, by the way, people still do regularly. If one of them had survived in prison, we would’ve gotten one of the boy’s individual, personal viewpoint on why they chose to do it which may have been a vastly different snapshot of why having evolved from the initial why that both boys shared together at that time. I do agree though that in both of the boys’ deaths, they left us with no means to speak to them, to address anything with them, and so they dropped a bomb, self destructed and then automatically created an air of mystery and intrigue about themselves and the terrorist-like act they chose to commit on their school and by extension the entire world. They are like the ‘Lost Boys’, lost and unknowable forevermore. Mythical anti-hero icons for some. So, yes, I think you’re right that the shooting would not be suspended in mystery -as much- if one of them survived.

I asked you (maybe 1 week ago) about what would Dylan like in a girl physically and in her personality and i asked you (if you could) to write a lengthy response, describe Dylan’s “perfect” girl. Did you get my question?

If you could picture Dylan’s girlfriend, what would she look like ? Small/tall ? In your opinion. Would she be introvert/extrovert ? (I know he didn’t have a specific type or at least we don’t know, but let’s imagine).

What do you think Dylan would like in a girl mentally and psychically and how would he treat her (could you give a lengthy response if possible?)

I’m not sure if you answer these type of questions, but what type of girls do you think Dylan was into looks wise and personality wise?

I had a few of these similiar asks on ‘Dylan’s ideal girlfriend’ so I thought I’d add all of them into one big answer. 🙂 Some of these were asked a while back so my apologies for the delay in response. Luckily, holiday time off has given me the luxury of time to give a response back!

Dylan was pretty tall at 6’3. So, even if his hypothetical girlfriend was considered ‘tall’ at say 5’9 – 5’11, she’d still be a few inches shorter than him. I’d say taller girls are generally not the norm in High School. I know because I was one of ‘em. 😉 The odds would be that he’d end up dating a girl of average height 5’6 – 5’8 or possibly even a girl that was significantly shorter than him. While, I don’t think that the physical criteria of height mattered much at all to Dylan, he probably wouldn’t mind a sense of protectively towering over his girl just a bit. There Dyl would be walking down the hall with his girl by his side, hands interlocked, and she’d be gazing up at him with a smile of appreciation. That right there is an automatic teenage male ego stroke, yep. 🙂 That said, I do not think that the girl being shorter than him would be a make-or-break criteria for Dyl. Whereas, say, a dude like Eric who was significantly shorter than most of his male friends, would probably need to feel taller and physically taller with his girlfriend of choice.

I think I said before in the other ask, that I tend to think that Dylan was a bit more attracted to brunettes of various shades – light to dark Of course, Sasha Jacobs and Sarah Slater were blondes, right? Sasha, technically doesn’t quite count, since she apparently took the lead on getting a date with Dylan, all of two times. Sasha’s perception was that Dylan seemed ‘strange’ and she was uncomfortable with him – which probably amounted to a very shy dude clamming up on an official ‘date’ with full on female attention. Dylan seemed to develop a crush for Sarah Slater, blonde number two, based on the fact that she actually spent time talking to him over the internet in the evening. It’s easy to understand how Dylan would let his guard down and feel less intimidated conversing facelessly, connecting via words to a girl at a distance and as he revealed some personal problems to her lending ear she became comfortable for him because of that intimacy and he wanted to date her. Still, I think he naturally gravitated towards girls with darker hair that would include Kristen, Marla, Joanne and Tobin, who was a light brown haired girl that he checked out at the mall and bravely asked out a handful of times.

Generally speaking, I think it tends to be true that opposites do attract. Dylan was drawn to girls with hair color contrasting his own and so he likely might have also found a girl with warm brown eyes more appealing than the blue of his own. Beyond the superficiality of surface attraction stuff like hair and eye color, there’s also that unique spark about the girl’s personality that attracted and captivated his attention If you read Dylan’s love letter how he describes working on a report with “the girl” in class in 1st semester, you hear him expound on that radiance and joy in her personality that enamored him: “I still remember your laugh. Innocent, beautiful, pure. This semester I still see you – rarely, I am entranced during 5th period, as we both have it off.” So, a sense of mirth about her and a sense of ease he must’ve felt being in her company enough to laugh along with her over irreverent things like maybe poking fun of the ridiculous assignment they’re been paired up for together or the ideas they may have had timidly brainstormed together which had her laughing in response that literally made him stand up and take notice in a big way. From there on, Dylan begun to think of her all the time: ‘picturing her face’, ‘hearing her laugh’, ‘just being with her’ – all on an infinitely blissful feedback loop. 🙂

Dylan eluded in his journal that he was attracted to an introverted, observant sort of girl with an air of melancholy about her which appealed in reflecting his own sense of self. She’d be the intelligent sort but not overly bookish and couldn’t be too much like him in a sense of being painfully inhibited and shy. She would need to be able to hold her own, have a sense of warmth, compassion and be just enough on the assertive side to initiate interaction. However, I think an opposite of himself, an extroverted girl, would’ve coaxed Dylan out of his shell more. Dylan would’ve been greatly relieved of the burden of having to take the lead on dates and he’d learn from his interactions with a down-to-earth, open, easy going type personality sort ( a bit like Devon?) on how to be more comfortable just being one-on-one with a girl, dating alone and not in a group. On the first few dates, Dylan could be relieved in letting an extroverted girl lead the conversation and do most of the talking. An introverted girl was likely what he wanted but an extroverted girl was probably more what he needed, and if she were a little of both, all the better 🙂 I think though for his first initial girlfriend he would really need the girl to be more assertive and less inhibited than himself. Someone that would take Dylan’s initial silence on dates as more of a challenge to engage him, to ask him questions but be receptive yet also interactive with her own opinions, thoughts in response to him. According to Devon, Dylan had an unorthodox, ‘morose’ sense of humor so his girl would need to be appreciative and chill of that type of ‘anything goes’ offbeat sense of wit and humor and be able to return the favor. She would need to be sharp, observant, a bit coy, not obnoxious and wild but warm and easy going enough to get him to relax and reveal that ‘inner Dyl’ the very funny, witty side of himself.

There’s that beginning video snippet in the “Lost Boys” documentary where Dylan is beaming and giggling (yes, giggling like a girl) as he plays video games with his guy friends and you can see how he is just utterly relaxed and goofy, cutting loose and really having a good time with those crinkled up smiling eyes and that huge grin from ear-to-ear. I recall that Kristen Theibault mentioned that she and the other TCM girls used to gang up and beat Dylan and Eric at GoldenEye. Can you just picture the hilarity of this? So, you could just take that a step further and imagine Dylan seriously trying to give his girl pointers on some slick Quake maneuvers while she’s resting on his knee and then she suddenly gets the impulse to go maniacal on the controller attempting to whoop his ass and so he amusedly retailiates by tickling her until they’re both cracking up and segway on to a completely other type of game playing. 😉 He was used to being casual and letting his guard down with the guys but to be able to be free and comfortable with a girl would be true bliss for him.

I think he’d like his girl to be liberal, spiritually open, perhaps pagan, wiccan, or someone simply skeptical and questioning, agnostic even – but definitely not religious or restricted in ‘thinking inside the box’ sorts of beliefs. I think he would’ve appreciated her self-directed/chosen individuality and free spirit. Sharing thoughts and ideas would be important. He would want to be able to express his love for certain movies or tastes in music and he would also like to know her thoughts in return. He would be stoked knowing she embraced some of his own musical tastes “I hope she likes techno. 🙂 “. Being an observant, receptive sort, his girl would be intuitive enough to notice when Dyl was having difficulty expressing himself or that his emotional frustrations were bottling up in his silence. She’d need to be able to approach and handle him in a manner that would encourage him to reengage and express those disconnected feelings into words so he could identify exactly how he was feeling. I think this was the case between Devon and Zach. Zach had found a sounding board in her, and Dylan was jealous that Zach had found that ‘perfect soulmate’ – that safe confidant to help him with his emotional struggles, depression and suicidal thoughts.

It would take Dylan a little bit of time getting comfortable so he would go slow with his girl while things warmed up between the two of them. I could see them talking in the car at night with the lights off and the depth of conversation meandering because they’d be like two voices, two minds listening to one another and exploring one another’s thoughts. She’d probably be the one to initiate the hugs or the handholding – but only at first, until he gained in confidence to reveal depth of feelings. He’d have a bit of trouble with public displays of affection initially in school but would let her lead the pace and follower her lead and gain confidence with experience. He’d be gentle, very tentative and sweet with her, a bit in awe of this girl that’s bothering to spend time with him. The more he’d begin to feel comfortable in the girl’s presence and knowing her better, the more physically, demonstrative and affectionately free he would allow himself to become with her. Then It would’ve been like, whoa, look out Dylan’s girlfriend. 😉

Of course, all of what I’ve said here is an an ‘ideal’ laundry list of the sort of girl for Dylan. In reality, it wouldn’t be perfect, just imperfectly perfect, for however long his HS relationship lasted.

‘Dylan was the sweetest, cutest kid you’d ever meet,’ said Brooks’s father, Randy. ‘He was really shy, though, and it would take him fifteen or twenty minutes to warm up to us every time he came over, even though we knew him and we were close to him. After he’d warmed up, he was okay.’ Judy Brown remembers Dylan Klebold as a ‘sensitive, caring child’ who worried a lot about what other people thought—-perhaps too much for his own good. She recognized the way that Dylan seemed to internalize what was bothering him, rather than being open about it.

No Easy Answers: The Truth Behind Death at Columbine by Brooks Brown (via rebtiful)

Quirks: The idiosyncrasies of DBK

DIY black cut fingerless gloves

Dylan wears his trademark fingerless cut tipped gloves and gives us his disarming famous Dyl wave [0.23]. Unfortunately, there doesn’t appear to be any information from friends or classmates on his fingerless gloves. I would imagine that Dyl modified his gloves for practicality and hey, incidentally it also became his own brand of ‘anti-fashion statement’ – sort of the way he blatantly wore his broken glasses with the tape visibly binding them together or got his kicks out of wearing that Soviet Hammer & Sickle medallion on his boot – “to get a reaction out of people.” Niiice, Dyl 😉 It’s a ‘cold, frosty morning’ as Nate Dykeman narrates, describing how chilly it is as they exit Dylan’s BMW and make their way into Columbine HS early in the morning – as seen in the Morning Ritual video [1.45]. Practically speaking, Dylan has just enough hand and palm warmth with the thick, warm fabric of the gloves but having cut off the the finger portions renders the gloves functional. It’s a whole lot easier to be tactile and manipulate shit with your bare fingers – yet oh, so edgy Klebold très chic at the same time, n’est-ce pas? The ‘punk gloves’ that is mentioned above was on his NBK shopping list along with “Buy WRATH” t-shirt" but instead of purchasing the punk variety he had in mind, likely because they ran out of time, Dylan ended up sharing one half of Eric’s pair. A DIY bro fashion statement in it’s own right.

Dyl seemed to have had a bit of an affectation for certain dangerously beautiful accent embellishment such as black spiked gloves and gothic finger armor. That will be coming up in a future post. 🙂

mrs-ericharris:

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“I’m forever sorry, infinitely, about the pornos. My humanity has a foot fetish & bondage extreme liking. I try to thwart it sometimes to no effect. Yet the masturbation has stopped”

The virgo obsession with purity is not always obsession with organization and material tidiness, in fact most of us are messy pigs. The cleaning can manifest as a mental and physical process. Virgos have pure hearts and they value modesty, their innocent sincerity is undermined by physical vices and it makes them feel like a “dirty” house that they must clean. So you can see Dylan’s distress here, as he felt he was devaluing his love for the girl by his masturbation and porn, bless him. The behaviours that the virgo themselves percieve as impure cause distress and they need to be stripped and “bleached” otherwise they clutter in their souls and they find it hard to live with this mental and emptional filth. He must have felt like a toad, and he shouldnt have, because it’s perfectly normal.

Well said. ^^

I thought I saw a quote by Eric Harris that said “you know what I hate racism” but now I hear that he was racist which one is he? Also I heard Dylan’s dad said that he didn’t know where the nazism came from so is Dylan in favor of the Nazis?

Eric Harris was a racist who hated racism, which means he hated himself because he, himself, was a racist. If you’re confused by all of that it simply means, hey, he was too. 😉 Dylan thought the Nazis were interesting in a bad ass sort of way because his good friend Eric was really fascinated by the idealogy. Good friends support each others interests, ya know? I go into more detail on Dylan and racism/bigotry here. Parents are always the last to know about their kids digging taboo subjects.

so that girl, who was in love with dylan, wrote him that note while she was in the school and then found out he’d done it and then took it to his cross and put it on it and then she watched that tv show and said it helped her grieve or something, and then something about a guardian angel. Does this girl think that Dylan is her guardian angel or something?

They weren’t super close but he was always nice to her. She had a crush on him for over a year and when the shooting was going on, she hid, but she wrote a note right then and there she was going to give to him if they survived and she delivered the note to him by leaving it on his memorial cross.