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“I always dream about Dylan. I had a dream about him a couple of nights ago where I was in a van and a policemen was driving this van. I looked out the window and Dylan who was about four years old in the dream was with a little boy, a friend, and the van was driving away and I looked down, and Dylan was chasing the van trying to catch up to me. And the policeman who was driving the van slammed on the breaks, got out of the car, threw both of these little boys into a dumpster, and slammed the lid down and locked it so they couldn’t get out. You know, I’m always having ‘drama queen’ dreams, always crying and pounding things in my dream. But in that dream, I’m in this van trying to get to my son and he’s just been locked away. You can get the full symbolism here. The front door of the wall of the bin opened and Dylan ran to the van where I was pulling  away and he chased this van. And I opened the door, and I grabbed – I pulled him in with me. When he got with me into this van, he was telling me that he was hurting. ‘I’m hurting; I am sad’.  And I looked at his face, and he had this terrible – these spiky sores were coming out of his face. And I was trying to fix him and put lotion on him and he said “It can’t help, it hurts too much for you to touch these.”  And ah, in this dream I was – all I could do was to hug him and let him rest his head on my chest and then I woke up..”  
–Sue’s dream, excerpt from her Reaching for Hope speech, Feb 16, 2017

Sue is really engaging and especially really thoughtful, attentive and receptive to people’s questions and comments at the end of this particular intimate speech given in a small conference room.  Seems this casual setting is easier for her to manage than the TEDMED speech where she didn’t have a podium to hold on to for a bit of security while placing herself in the seat of judgment in front of an audience.  Another highlight was near the end, when a guy mentioned that he too had been a gifted kid that was severely bullied in school dealing with  homicidal thoughts poses important questions to Sue as yet another could-have-been Dylan.  

I must say that I found the nose level of the audience offensive and it seemed strange that the event planners decided to allow the audience to dine while listening to Sue’s speech. Plates were clattered and people were milling in and out of the room and a couple of times, they walked right in front of Sue as they were likely making a restroom break. Very distracting and disrespectful. In my opinion, the meal should’ve been arrange after her talk so that the audiences’ full, undivided attention could’ve been given to her as she was imparting her tragic happening and lessons learned from it.

Enjoy!

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(from the page https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o46sDt_i8Ds)

I’ve never seen this before

Interview of Reverend Don Marxhausen of St. Philip Lutheran church who led the private family funeral for Dylan. Also, interview of Sue’s hair stylist Dee Grant. Sue mentions in her book that she hadn’t anticipated that her stylist would accept media interviews after she’d visited the salon for a cut in preparation for Dylan’s funeral. Good find from CVA!

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Sue telling it like it is at the World Affairs Council of Philadelphia.

.  Looking radiant and as wise as ever. ❤️

By the way, that media person that Sue was referring to was none other than Jeff Kass the author of Columbine: A True Crime Story. He pretty much alienated the Klebolds years back with his overly ambitious, intrusive investigational methods. It’s a pity he crossed the line with his research and offended Sue and Tom and instead, Sue is on friendly terms with Dave Cullen. They ended up using their lawyer to interface with Kass. Though, you have to admit his book is quite thorough in his background information regarding Dylan’s familial history.

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          ~ September 11, 1981 – September 11, 2016~

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           Happy Birthday Dylan Bennet Klebold
                                    –  35 yrs old today –

A beautiful, brilliant soul so full of promise; a fallen star bereft in sadness.  The tragedy that was your human life has touched so many of our own in profound ways.   

Good things turn bad, yes.. but bad things have become good. 

You matter/ed.  17 years on; gone but never forgotten. 

Much reflection upon you and your family on the day of your birth.

With Infinite love everlasting…

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Ascent of the Fallen: My following in their footsteps up the iconic CHS Commons staircase.  

And yes, I’m walking Dylan style up the steps, with one giant foot step up using the middle step.  It was..something else to do this.. to actually be able to replicate his pathway up.. Gave me the chills in the moment.  While upstairs wandering literally all by myself the very first time, my arms were all tingly electric.

I marked the location of where Dylan’s locker was kitty corner to the former library entrance doors.  I did snap a photo of locker 837, however, I am not sure if this is someone else’s locker that was just reassigned Dylan’s locker number. I do know though that his locker was in that vicinity.

 I wandered down the Science hallway and knew immediately the moment I recognized the room Dave Sanders had fought for his life. Unfortunately, I only was able to wander down there once and didn’t take photos or film anything. Ah, well..just experiencing that purely in the moment of my first exploration. 🙂 

p.s. Apologies for the fuzzy captioning. I’m having difficulties figuring out how to make them clearer. 

Anyway, here’s the Fallen angels last ascent and journey to their final destination.

Enjoy..well, sort of. 🙂 

My visit to the strip mall where Dylan and Eric worked at Blackjack Pizza at 6657 W. Ottawa Avenue. As I’ve said before in a previous post, it’s now a fairly kid-active Taekwondo studio. The strip mall is kind of hidden away on a circular street (W. Ottawa) from off the main four lane drag S. Pierce St. where Columbine is.  This strip mall is super close to the school.  As you drive onto W. Ottawa from off S. Pierce, Angie’s Restaurant is right there and that is the former Burger King that Dylan, Dustin and Eric Jackson filmed the drive thru scene of the Breakfast Run just a day before the massacre on 4/19. The strip mall is kind of secluded and I don’t imagine business is ever very good there and it may be why the boys had a lot of time to mess around out back at Blackjack since business may have been spotty.  Presently, it has been taken over by Christian schools and Christian this and that. lol The Cooper 7 Theatre (which is literally right next to where Blackjack pizza was. Once, they off their work shift they could literally walk next door to go see a flick. ), Baskin Robbins ice cream store are all long gone.Great Clips for Hair (where Susan Dewitt worked) moved around the block nearby the Subway that Rachel used to work at. I’m not entirely assuming necessarily that the “Salon”  right next to the Taekwondo/Blackjack building is where Great Clips for Hair used to be located. After I take you on a spin through the front of the building, we head around the back parking lot and get to see where Dyl and Rebby used to blow up dry ice bombs in watermelons and light fireworks as well as the exact spot where they filmed “Carwax Commercial”. Notice the blue paint trim on the very top edge of the building, I tend to believe that is the original color paint when the boys worked there.

Anyway, enjoy the Blackjack strip mall tour with music by, what else? but their favorite band to listen to ad nauseam while spinning pies at the store, Rammstein.  😉   I thought the song ‘Engel’ appropriately ironic given the Christian vibe of the mall these days. 

Lyrics to Engel “Angel” by Rammstein under the cut

Live in virtue, no desire
In the grave an angel’s choir
You look to heaven and wonder why
No one can see them in the sky

Just as the clouds have gone to sleep
Angels can be seen in heaven’s keep
Alone in fear they question why
Goddamn not an angel when I die

Angels live, they never die
Apart from us, behind the sky
They’re fading souls who’ve turned to ice
So ashen white in paradise

Just as the clouds have gone to sleep
Angels can be seen in heaven’s keep
Alone in fear they question why
Goddamn not an angel when I die

Goddamn an angel when I die
Heaven must be hell in the sky

Dusk at Dylan’s on Cougar Road.

I always planned to do a video like this filming Dylan’s surroundings using NIN’s  A Warm Place which I strongly feel to be Dylan’s personal theme. To me, this music is completely and utterly Him in every way.  Enjoy 🙂 

My daylight explorations of Dylan’s home going down the wild, winding, pastoral red rocks flecked Cougar Road.   “Beautiful” by the Smashing Pumpkins perfectly befits the total experience of these breathtaking surroundings which he saw on a daily basis yet was impervious to feel it’s blessings. Still, when you’re there, you cannot help but bask in a kind of presence of Him.  Enjoy 🙂

I also have an dusk version plus some photos of the area.. I’ll post those next up.

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Clips of Dylan Klebold – Rehearsal at Columbine

I like this slightly longer version where the girl watching Dylan getting dusted pivots and leaves behind the curtain while he walks the the other direction.  Oh, the body language going on there!

Cool to think I was there. 🙂

Inside the Commons 360.  This is not the best clip as I used my old ipad and it’s a bit fuzzy..might replace it with another vid later on.   

But as you can see.. the boys had a very clear view of everything that was going on outside of the school in broad daylight from the windows and doors..this clip was taken around 11:30 a.m.so this is exactly how it would’ve looked for them at this time of the day.  They’re getting our lunch ready on the pink table clothes. 🙂   Conversely, JeffCo would’ve been able to see inside somewhat well viewing the Commons from outside except for the reflective issues of the sunlight on the glass distorting things more for them. The boys had a clearer advantage inside by far.. 

I also took footage of where each camera is located in the Commons as well as a video of where the boys entered from my PoV walking diagonally from the side door to the area near the pillar that we see in the newly found CCTV footage.   

Well, it was a very productive first day at the conference. An exhaustive amount of photos and video were taken covering every inch I could get to..well, on my first day. 😉   I’ve explored quite a lot of the school, roamed around on my own without anyone there..  Sat in the theater, ate lunch in The Commons at those famous tables (!)..and almost got the chance to enter the sound booth before the end of the day.  Hoping to get the chance to do that another day plus peek behind the stage curtain too.  

Amazing presentations, first one was kicked off by Ex Principal DeAngelis. I’ve taken audio of his speech and bits and pieces of other ones too.

Had a little chat with Mr. D as well and asked him if there were cameras in the library.  His answer: “no there were not.”

Here’s my 360 outside of Columbine HS.  Perfect warm July day about 85 degrees. Later on, the clouds ominously rolled in and we got a perfect summer thunderstorm finishing off with a rainbow near my hotel. 🙂  We don’t get a whole lot of thunderstorms in California so it was blissful and also smelling the ozone scent of the air after the storm.

Will post an inside the Commons/Atrium/stairs vid in the next post. 🙂