Yes, the Ever-lasting contrast. Since existence has known, the 'fight' between good & evil has continued. Obviously, this fight can never end. Good things turn bad, bad things become good. My fav. contrasting symbol, because it is so true & means so much – the battle between good & bad never ends… Here we ponder on the tragedy of Dylan Klebold.
So we know Dylan could wear Eric’s gloves even though their hands were distinctly different sizes. Maybe the pair they wore during NBK were the ones Dyl is borrowing here at Rampart Range?
We know that Dylan was a fan of Atari Teenage Riot, because he draw their logo into his schoolplanner as well he wrote down an lyric-excerpt from their song “Atari Teenage Riot”: “Power for those who can fuck it, Freedom for those can find it, Sex for those who can buy it!”. I don’t know, what releases of them he specificially heard and/or bought, but since the song was on their first Album “Delete Yourself”, I assume that he had that one (the song also was released as a single though). Anyway, another song on this Album is “Into the Death” and I think the lyrics actually do a good job on catching Dylans mindset. At first the title “Into the Death” represents what Dylan came to crave the most and during the song it is repeteadly shouted, almost like an order or some sort of brainwashing propaganda. Also noteworthy is that the lyrics are calling on the listener to revolt and take violent action, while at the same time emphasize the hopelessness of his situation. I think that is something, Dylan definitive could identifiy with: “Terror worldwide! you can’t run away, you can’t hide! I came to get you! get down (…) There’s no escape from where you coming from; we’re going to the top where we belong!” The “we’re going to the top where we belong!” line almost sounds exactly like something I’d imagine Eric might say to Dylan. Some more lines that present what I’m talking about: “Maybe we sit down and talk about the revolution and stuff but it doesn’t work like that! You can’t turn back now, there’s no way back! You feel the power to destroy your enemy!” Quite some motivating lines when you’re planning an attack, eh? And there is another line that almost could be the chore-line of how Dylan felt towards his human life on earth: “Life is like a Videogame with no chance to win…” But the similarities do not even end here. As you will know, Dylan did not only seek death and destruction during the attack, but believed that he would spend the afterlife in a heavenly place with his love. Well, during one point at the song, the female singer Hanin Elias tells us in a quite erotic voice: “And welcome to my Paradise…there’s no good reason to keep you alive, die die die, my darling…”. The “welcome to my paradise”-line sounds like she is telling the listener, that he will enter the named paradise after death, which kinda reminds me of the 72 virgins that are believed to wait for Martyrs in extremist Islam.
“Life Is Sweet (Daft Punk Remix)” by the Chemical Brothers. This is another song from the album Exit Planet Dust (1995), remixed by Daft Punk, and also doodled in Dylan’s planner (JC-001-026462). This was long, long before Daft Punk became famous on their own with songs like “Get Lucky” and “Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger” (sampled on Kanye West’s “Stronger”).
“Gave Up” by Nine Inch Nails. Another song whose (partial) lyrics were found in Dylan’s day planner (JC-001-026470).
Perfect little dream The kind that hurts the most Forgot how it feels Well, almost No one to blame Always the same Open my eyes Wake up, wake up Wake up, wake up in flames
It took you to make me realize It took you to make me realize It took you to make me realize It took you to make me see the light
Smashed up my sanity Smashed up my integrity Smashed up what I believed in Smashed up what’s left of me Smashed up my everything Smashed up all that was true Gonna smash myself to pieces I don’t know what else to do
Covered in hope and vaseline Still cannot fix this broken machine Watching the hole, it used to be mine Just watching it burn in my steady systematic decline Of the trust I will betray Give it to me, I throw it away After everything I’ve done I hate myself for what I’ve become
It took you to make me realize It took you to make me realize It took you to make me realize It took you to make me see the light
Smashed up my sanity Smashed up my integrity Smashed up what I believed in Smashed up what’s left of me Smashed up my everything Smashed up all that was true Gonna smash myself to pieces I don’t know what else to do
I tried I gave up I tried I gave up I tried I gave up I tried I gave up I tried I gave up I tried I gave up I tried I gave up I tried I gave up
Smashed up my sanity Smashed up my integrity Smashed up what I believed in Smashed up what’s left of me Smashed up my everything Smashed up all that was true Gonna smash myself to pieces I don’t know what else to do Smashed up my sanity Smashed up my integrity Smashed up what I believed in Smashed up what’s left of me Smashed up my everything Smashed up all that was true Gonna smash myself to pieces I don’t know what else to do Smashed up my sanity Smashed up my integrity Smashed up what I believed in Smashed up what’s left of me Smashed up my everything Smashed up all that was true Gonna smash myself to pieces I don’t know what else to do Smashed up my everything Smashed up all that was true Gonna smash myself to pieces I don’t know what else to do
“The Perfect Drug” by Nine Inch Nails, another song whose lyrics were written in Dylan Klebold’s day planner (JC-001-026457). The song is from the soundtrack of one of Dylan’s favorite movies, Lost Highway(as are two Rammstein songs).
I got my head, but my head is unraveling
Can’t keep control, can’t keep track of where it’s traveling
I got my heart but my heart’s no good
And you’re the only one that’s understood
I come along but I don’t know where you’re taking me
I shouldn’t go but you’re wrenching, dragging, shaking me
Turn off the sun, pull the stars from the sky
The more I give to you, the more I die
And I want you
And I want you
And I want you
And I want you
You are the perfect drug
The perfect drug
The perfect drug
You are the perfect drug
The perfect drug
The perfect drug
You make me hard when i’m all soft inside
I see the truth when i’m all stupid-eyed
The arrow goes straight through my heart
Without you everything just falls apart
My blood wants to say hello to you
My fears want to get inside of you
My soul is so afraid to realize
How very little there is left of me
And I want you
And I want you
And I want you
And I want you
[5x]
You are the perfect drug
The perfect drug
The perfect drug
You are the perfect drug
The perfect drug
The perfect drug
Take me with you
Without you
Without you everything just falls apart
Without you it’s not as much fun to pick up the pieces
Without you
Without you everything just falls apart
Without you it’s not as much fun to pick up the pieces
It’s not as much fun to pick up the pieces
It’s not as much fun to pick up the pieces
Without you
Without you everything just falls apart
Without you it’s not as much fun to pick up the pieces
Former AfA youth poet and Columbine student Dev Adams, talks about her experience in the Phoenix Rising program and reads a recent poem about that experience at the Art from Ashesat the 10th Anniversary Soirée on October 24, 2013, at Skylite Station.
Devon Adams is still very much grappling with the aftermath and ripple effects of the tragedy and losing three friends even today at 31. She struggles with being on both sides of the fence: friends with the victims – including Rachel Scott and “best friends” with the shooter, Dylan Klebold.
It’s interesting to note that she mentions someone on Tumblr portraying her as a roleplayer and doing a better job of herself then she would. *g* I do recall seeing that blog over a year ago and then it was abruptly yanked.
Another one of his favorite bands was the Chemical Brothers. And at one point, Dylan talked with Devon Adams about going to one of their upcoming concerts. But Devon notes, “He obviously never ended up going to it because it came in summer of 1999.” This would have been the concert they would’ve gone to together at Red Rocks Amphitheatre in 1999