Do you think that Dylan may have witnessed coyotes kill an animal or something at an early age? Im trying to rationalize his fear of dogs. Bc I live in quite a wild enviroment (much as he did) and i saw my dog get killed by another, and i know for a fact thats when i started to become fucked up. Maybe im reaching too far with this, but there are SO MANY things Dylan and I have in common that its actually weird to me when theres something about him that i cant figure out lol

It’s possible that Dyl might have acquired a kind of trauma from actually witnessing predatory animals attacking prey out in nature that was pretty much just outside his door step.  His property didn’t quite belong to him and his family. He once told his friend that as a kid, he fell asleep on the rocks outside and woke up at night hearing the sounds of coyotes howling –  which scared the crap out of him. I seem to recall that he was so scared he was petrified.  That would be something right there that would’ve contributed to his sense of intimidation with wild critters.  We know he preferred to swim in his friends’ pools because he didn’t like that his pool tended to have some dead birds, frogs and lizards occasionally floating within it.   I think Dyl may have felt a bit surrounded by the wild that was his home. It wasn’t quite a place where he could be completely comfortable outside. He adapted by being cautious and respectful of dogs, especially Devon’s huskies, which look a bit akin to wolves or coyotes.   I go into a bit of detail here on Dyl preferring cats to dogs. 

indigo-intj:

Being born on September 11, 1981 gives Dylan the numerology life path number of 3, which is associated with creativity, self-expression, independence, moodiness, love, intelligence, humor, and sensitivity. I got together some of the quotes about it that related to him the most.

The greatest happiness for persons with life path 3
– to love and be loved.

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Happy early Birthday, Dyl.  

It’s still seven hours to go MDT till you’re officially 34 in human years at 9:11 a.m. but, of course, none of that stuff really matters as you’ve transcended age and time. Here on earth, you’ll never look a day over seventeen yet you’re an old soul far beyond your earthly 34th b-day. 🙂

So, I’ll just close out the night here on E-C with a song that resonates of you so deeply for me that I can sense that vibe of yours every time and it makes me smile and get those head tingles (reasons are under the cut at the end of this post).  

The sentiment in the lyrics are simple and pure, no intricacy needed for unconditional love. Consider it a repetitive mantra even.  It’s what we all would’ve told you then..and it’s what all of us, as a collective consciousness, are saying/thinking to you now on your birthday – to stay with us today and receive the love.  It’s what we all need to tell one another because of you.  That’s why your life existence ultimately matters beyond your failing, your misdeed. 

“Beautiful”

Stay with us my darling
Tomorrow is a brighter day
Stay with us my darling
There are so many things to love

You are so beautiful to me
You are so beautiful to everyone

Heaven The Halcyons is a place I cannot see
When I’m beside you it’s so close to me
These are the reasons you should stay
There is so much that you can give

You are so beautiful to me
You are so beautiful to everyone
There are so many things to see
You are so beautiful to me

You’re a diamond I can’t buy
You’re a sin I can forgive
And when you sink into the dark
Know that I am there with you

You are so beautiful to me
You are so beautiful to everyone
There are so many things to see
You are so beautiful to me

You are so beautiful to me
You are so beautiful to everyone
There are so many things to see
You are so beautiful to me

I realized the reason I kept gravitating to this song was because it’s like Dyl’s essence is folded within it by way of that funky personal signature riff from Chico’s Groove [.29].  The moment it dawned on me was like discovering some subliminal message embedded within the mirroring melody – and in a song called “Beautiful” no less – of all titles. It made me laugh to myself in instant recognition. To me it feels as though this song is almost like a companion piece ‘book-end’ to The Smashing Pumpkin’s ‘Beautiful’ where, instead of his expounding about the splendor of his ‘her’, we are convincing him of his worth, his beauty, his right and reason to have lived -his value even now – despite everything… 

Anyway, enough metaphysical poetic waxing.  I should be off to bed at nearly 2 am on this fine September 11th… G’night all. 🙂

vodka-and-halcyon:

It’s almost you’re birthday. You should be at home wherever that would have been, maybe with you’re wife. Watching cartoons with you’re kids before you tuck them into bed. You’re wife put together a party for you tomorrow with friends and family. Maybe Eric would be there too. You’d have a beer together and talk about life. How you’re glad you didn’t go through with it. How silly you two were to think something like that would have been the answer. How you’re glad you chose to be here. To stand witness to all of the wonderful things that have happened to you since. But instead here I am. Someone that shouldn’t even fucking know you. Shouldn’t even know you’re goddamn name. Happy birthday I guess. I’ll be taking a shot for you at midnight. I hope wherever you are you’re happy. I hope you found peace. ❤️💔

it’s kind of this halfway point
though the horizon stays the same
the sun always rises in the east
and sets near your home out west
(you’re not here to see it)

it’s kind of this halfway point
like standing on a bridge
thinking “what if I jump”
but remaining still instead
(you leaped further than any of us)

it’s kind of this halfway point
death balances the scales of life
the weight of a legacy remembers
all the bright and dark of time
(your everlasting contrast)

it’s kind of this halfway point
of seventeen long years
scratch out that number
it should’ve been thirty-four
(you know this as well as I)

it’s kind of this halfway point
between a hello and a goodbye
and it makes me say “I can’t
forget about you even if I try”
(happy birthday)

whispered at the sky
(via thedragonrampant)

You are seven when you come home
covered in red for the first time.
You skinned your knees playing in the schoolyard.
Your mother picks the grit out of the cuts,
and puts Band-Aids over them.

You are seventeen when you come home
covered in red for the second time.
You don’t want to talk about it, you say.
Later your mother creeps in and sees you
hugging your toy koala in your sleep.

You are still seventeen and
you will never come home again.
Now you are covered in red,
but this time
it’s for a very different reason.

34 today, s.b.w. (via lupihns)

Hi! Love your blog – You’ve opened my eyes (ears) to so many amazing songs that dylan listened to/loved. Could you possibly do like a TOP TEN list of his favourite songs? Please and thank you ! I hope you answer … I saw your post about being swamped with asks, so I’ll understand if you don’t answer, but I’ll check back often just in case? Would love to have a mini playlist on my phone I could zone out to knowing that Dylan probably did the same. Thanks, keep up the amazing work <3 <3 <3 <3

VoDkA Top Ten Mixer

Disarm – Smashing Pumpkins
Beautiful – Smashing Pumpkins
Something I can never have – NIN
Closer – NIN
Hurt – NIN
Chico’s Groove – Chemical Brothers
Block Rockin’ Beats – Chemical Brothers
Loops of Fury – Chemical Brothers
Du Hast – Rammstein
Anarchy – KMFDM

There’s others..but well, that’s ten for the 📲 on shuffle mode.

Enjoy 😎 😘 🎶🎧

I love your blog! Up until recently I was hella biased about Eric and Dylan, painting them as “Evil”in my mind when they were really just as human as any of us. And tbh given the right circumstances I think we’re all capable of doing what they did

Glad you’re beginning to look beyond society’s stamp of ‘evil’ and are seeing the nuances, the shades of gray of these two as indivduals in a state of pain and struggle. 😊 And yes, we’re all quite capable in our state of feeling incapable. I know it probably sounds hokey but it’s true: acknowledge and embrace the Eric and Dylan inside yourself and be the one to make their better choices simply by knowing them as well as you know yourself.❤️

Were Eric and Dylan Democrats or Republicans?

I’d say the boys did not subscribe to a political party since such things are part of ‘the system’ which they hated. I’m sure as teenagers that considered themselves free thinking anarchists. In their minds, political parties, like religion, was invented for the masses, to control the sheeple that can’t think for themselves so they have to follow a political party with it’s rules and agendas. However, in terms of their family culture: Dylan was raised by parents that were liberal democrats and given that Eric was raised in a military family, they would likely tend to towards conservative republican influences.