Do you think Dylan would have still liked a girl that had anorexia? Or Bipolar Depression?

Sure, I think he would’ve been ok with accepting and liking a girl with mental health issues which is something he himself struggled with and could relate to. I’m not saying girls with these sorts of issues are the only types he’d seek out but I think he might be drawn to their deficits out of his own. In other words, he’d be a nice person to them.

What do you think Dyl’s kids would look/be like? (Please please answer)

Beautiful as the sun and the sky? But of course, his smalls would be a combination of both his wife and himself. So, they’d have a bit of his strong Kleboldian features, little mini Dyl’s with stubborn pointy chins – maybe softened out a bit more by his wife’s genetics. Those half moon shaped eyes (that seem to run in his family genetics), blue gray in color..or maybe even brown for once, like his mom’s dark eye color. Those delicate, light blonde eyebrows trailing off outward and in opposite direction from those half moon shaped eyes. A little baby Dyl boy would have a little clump of Dyl’s slightly down turned nose. That’d be little blonde babies with dimpled baby fat and rosy white skin that sun burns too easily and would sprout up in height with long legs. *shrugs* I don’t know if that’s what you were looking for but that’s what comes to mind easily. haha.

Do you think Dylan would have loved girls that would have made him laugh and a girl that would joke around with him but was a little bit shy too? ;)

Are you kidding? A coy girl with good sense of humor that would joke around with him and put him at ease and disarm him with her smile? Best kind of medicine for Dylan Klebold! Let’s not forget how Dylan and Robyn got along at prom dinner as close friends. “There was a lot of silly joking between them, playing with knives and matches. They were pretending to light themselves on fire.” You can just imagine if he was in the company of a girl he felt an attraction for and she coaxed him out of his shell with her open playfulness.

I heard that eric cut himself and dylan didnt. Now what is the truth?

The reality is that Dylan said he cut and Eric didn’t mention anything about it. On the autopsy reports, it indicates some varieties of abrasions were found on both boys but it does not indicate precisely how they got those marks. We can speculate how those marks originated but we don’t know conclusively if they originated specifically from cuttting per say. It seems likely. We know Dylan did engage in cutting because he indicates he’s doing so while in the midst of writing an journal entry. He did so on at least one occasion if not a few others from time to time. I used to think Eric didn’t cut, however, I now consider it’s possible he may have messed around with attempting it in the privacy of his bedroom when the pent up hurt and rage was becoming unsurmountable. Wall punching at home was not an option.

Thanks for for answering my question about whether the girl who sent Dylan a love letter after his death. Hope you don’t mind me asking but do you think that what a girl said on Reddit was true, about her knowing the girl who sent it? I’m a little bit suspicious about it, as anyone can say anything on Reddit and she had knowledge of Tumblr things being said. Mike Judge never mentioned Dylan’s name so maybe it could’ve been even Eric who might’ve had the love letter? What do you think personally?

I would take the Reddit user LostLove_Throwaway’s story with a grain of salt. You’re right to wonder about it because yes, anyone can create an account on Reddit and fabricate a story like that which is supposed to corroborate Mike Judge’s tale. There’s no way to verify the validity of it. According to LostLove, the alledged girl had written the letter intended for Dylan Klebold. Other than that, based on the actual story that Mike Judge relayed, we, infact, have no way of knowing which of the boys it was. Not too long ago on Tumblr, we had a so-called Columbiner that alledgedly claimed to know someone that went to Columbine in the late nineties, her Aunt or something like that I can’t recall, and that she knew and hung out with the boys. The girl ‘interviewed’ her with questions that some of us volunteered and she posted the Q/A’s and spun some wonderful tales about her encounters with each of the boys while attending Columbine. Of course, we all ate it up – myself included, though I had begun to have my reservations. Turns out, she had just fabricated all of it and I was tipped off by someone about it (who I often question whether she was the one who had done it). Anyway, not long after I found out that it was fake, she’d deleted her Tumblr account. So, yeah, anyone could come on Tumblr or Reddit and create an account and make such claims and write elaborate stories but at the end of the day, it doesn’t mean it’s legit and we should buy it for face value as much as we might like to believe it. Botttomline is, we don’t know if LostLove_Throwaay on Reddit is making up a story and is a Columbiner on Tumblr that leaked it to one of us so that it’d catch on like wildfire. So, take ‘the story’ with a grain of salt.

Do you think Dylan’s parents or friends saw his cuts? Maybe he hid them most of the time but part of me imagines him being like “god forbid it’s too hot to have longsleeves,fuck it” at some point, and not trying to hide them anymore. If they saw the cuts, how would they react though?

Mm..I think Dylan was careful to not let his parents see any of that. Dylan was pretty darn good with concealing everything period, and this would just be one other thing to do in private and not carelessly let on to anyone at home.  He may have been a little more lax about his abrasions around friends, maybe. The one time he mentioned cutting was ‘11 depressioners’ on his hand. It seems to me that he was an occasional cutter and selective as to where he would cut so as not to draw too much attention.  The cutting was meant for himself and not intended to be displayed casually as battle scars by anyone else.

Do you think that the girl who wrote a love letter to Dylan while she was hiding, still loves him? (the one who sent it to Mike Judge) Or do you reckon that she’s moved on now and has a family?

I think she’ll always have a place in her heart for him, always. But life goes on and she would’ve grown and moved on and created a life for herself. Now in her thirties, she might be married with/without kids or not. But there most certainly would be times when her mind goes back to him and the bitter and sweet thoughts that goes along with those memories. Again, hypothetically speaking..

Hi. I’m hesitant to post this as I’m fearing judgement, but oh well. You know the “Beautiful as the sky” quote from Dylan’s journal? Is that 100% from Dylan? I’m pretty sure it is, but want to be 100% sure as I’m thinking about getting it tattooed, in his writing, exactly as how it appears. Some may find it silly but I find it really speaks to me and I’d love to have it on my body. Love your blog by the way. :)

No worries, not judgment here. And actually, this blog couldn’t exist here if there was, so.. Dylan was quoting lyrics from the song “Beautiful” by the Smashing Pumpkins.  Thanks for the blog love ❤ and good luck on that tattoo.

“Beautiful”

Beautiful, you’re beautiful, as beautiful as the sun
Wonderful, you’re wonderful, as wonderful as they come
And I can’t help but feel attached
To the feelings I can’t even match
With my face pressed up to the glass, wanting you
Beautiful, you’re beautiful, as beautiful as the sky
Wonderful, it’s wonderful, to know that you’re just like I
And I’m sure you know me well, as I’m sure you don’t
But you just can’t tell
Who’ll you love and who you won’t
And I love you, as you love me
So let the clouds roll by your face
We’ll let the world spin on to another place
We’ll climb the tallest tree above it all
To look down on you and me and them
And I’m sure you know me well, as I’m sure you don’t
But you just can’t tell, who you’ll love and who you won’t
Don’t let your life wrap up around you
Don’t forget to call, whenever
I’ll be here just waiting for you
I’ll be under your stars forever
Neither here nor there just right beside you
I’ll be under the stairs forever
Neither here nor there just right beside you

depressioners:

angry marker speed sketch. I always exaggerate his chin… and “w” got lost in there somehow. Obv no stabbing on 4/20, added because I felt like it. I hate remembering this day. I hate that this day ever happened.

Fuck sake! That’s one hell of a wicked
<<-VoDkA->> with a grandiose chin that won’t quit ( ❤ the exaggeration, btw)

Cognitive dissonance muchly on this one, depressioners 😳😁😏😕😖

It upsets me that Dylan was bullied. He seemed like such a chill person. Yeah, he was shy but he would have opened up eventually. I would have loved to befriend him and listen to some gnarly tunes while chilling in his room or something. He had some pretty sick taste in music. I guess some people were just too blind to see the good in him. I can’t help but feel bad for all the shit he had to go through.

But let’s not forget that Dylan also participated in bullying upon occasion and ultimately chose to become the ultimate, cruel and merciless of all bullies on 4/20. Yes, he was a chill, shy dude who had great taste in music, and yes, we can feel empathy for him for being victimized and bullied. We understand his pain as our own. Dylan suffered and endured shame and pain and internalized it until he was numb and depressed and apathetic. It changed and calloused him until he reached the point where bullying others weaker than him was gratifying and that eventually, murdering people suddenly didn’t seem like such a bad solution to having the last word with all of humanity, So, we also must keep in mind that Dylan, like each one of us, had shades of gray, that potential for goodness and brilliance but also that

susceptibility

to giving in to the bad and the ugly.  That in his need to displace the anger, self-hatred and pain – the lack of self worth resulting from his own bullying-  caused him to become the very thing that injured him, the very thing he hated. The bullied transforming into the bully. We should keep in mind of the duality within himself that he struggled with and wrote about in journal as the everlasting contrast symbol which has relevance to us all.  That he is anyone of us, in our own moments of weakness, giving in and succumbed to the wrong and easy choices, to becoming the wolf going after easy prey and relishing it for a moments self gratification. I can’t help but feel badly for him too, you know. So, I understand what you mean when you feel so strongly about the wonderfulness you prefer to see about him.  It’s just that we shouldn’t be blind to the flaws about him too which are a part of his ordinary complexity, struggles and ultimate tragedy as a human being.

I’ve seen a picture of Dylan wearing a KMFDM shirt, someone’s holding a microphone up to him. Do you know what exact shirt that is? I love KMFDM and would love to own the shirt Dylan wore. I can’t make it out due to it being cut off in the picture.

Dylan is being interviewed for the RNN (Rebel News Network) in that video and is wearing an XTORT t-shirt from the KMFDM title album XTORT. Incidentally, a title track on that album is called Wrath.

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Vintage nineties version front and back…;)

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