Yes, the Ever-lasting contrast. Since existence has known, the 'fight' between good & evil has continued. Obviously, this fight can never end. Good things turn bad, bad things become good. My fav. contrasting symbol, because it is so true & means so much – the battle between good & bad never ends… Here we ponder on the tragedy of Dylan Klebold.
Surprise find of the day: that moment when you’re made aware of the actual interaction between SWAT and the boys.
What fun we had yesterday deducing things and then you stumbling across this cool little tidbit. That’s what I love about researching Columbine!
I just assumed they meant that they were closing in on the south west library exit door because SWAT was never in the building by noon. However, SWAT approached the open library exit door shortly after 12 pm. And you can see two SWAT at the door. One is crouched and the other standing and fulll-on pointing their weapon inside. It appears to me that they are firing rounds and then they flee defensively. Based on the CCTV time stamp, we know Eric and Dylan ascended the Common’s steps for the last time at exactly 12:00 pm. So, based on the time stamp here in this footage, Eric and Dylan entered back into the library and noticed the SWAT down the hall peering into the library exit doorway as the two boys were walking towards the front windows. The boys threw an explosive at the door and they then discharged three rounds at the SWAT, who was pointing a weapon in the doorway and blindly firing into a very smoke-filled, alarm blaring library. They only saw the muzzle flash return fire from Eric or Dylan. The two SWAT dudes don’t appear very long at the open door with a weapon aimed inside. The exchange fire was very brief. Anyway, that would be my interpretation of this 11K account. As per usual, Jeffco does a very poor job describing where/how this happened. It’s confusing because they make it sound as though the SWAT was already inside the building at the main library entrance..only..that would’ve been impossible since SWAT didn’t enter Columbine until much later on. Imo, this is the exchange they’re referring to. Based on the time, how could it be anything else?
Go to 4:20 😉 to watch what “happened at the door by the entry way”
He looks like a caricature of himself. oh @depressioners?
“According to the folks who knew him best, seventeen-year-old Dylan Klebold was pretty much like most other high school kids, only nicer.
A friendly kid who was born into a loving, affluent home and who joined the Boy Scouts and played Little League during his younger years, Klebold had attended Columbine’s prom three nights before the shooting, telling his friends that he hoped they wouldn’t lose touch with each other when they all went off to college that fall.
There were subtle signs that not everything was as placid as it seemed. Klebold, whose mother was Jewish, sometimes surprised his bowling buddies when, after rolling a ball down the lane, would say, “Heil Hitler!” They thought he was joking.”
–Rachel’s Tears, by Beth Nimmo and Darrell Scott, with Steve Rabey
Not affluent and not so sure about the rest of how the Scotts’ colored their take on him bowling but posting it anyway.
The weather is a replication of our thoughts.
The happiness is possible, imminent.
I love you (_____)
—Dylan Klebold
I understand exactly what Dylan meant by this. The Colorado weather is a landscape of everlasting contrasts where continually, the light gets eclipsed by the dark and the darkness gives way to the light. The sadness recedes with the hope and happiness of the promise of the love that awaits.
“Sadness seems infinite, & the shell of happiness shines around. Yet
the true despair overcomes in this lifetime.”
I will truly miss Colorado most of all for it’s ethereal, spiritual weather.. It is so changeable, in a constant flux of dark and light. It’s breathtaking, and I’m amazed by the sky on a daily, hourly basis.
Dylans everlasting contrast symbol + space. (transparent, space bg not mine)
i like to think of the universe as one big everlasting contrast, there’s birth – destruction, fire – ice, deepest darkness – brightest suns, cold – heat, chaos – peace. it’s all out there, always has been and always will be. and as far as we know, it really is everlasting.
“Since existance has known, the ‘fight’ between good & evil has continued. Obviously, this fight can never end. Good things turn bad, bad things become good…”
“After we saw the tapes, I opened a small box in my desk drawer where I keep treasured keepsakes. Among them is a tiny origami horse. I checked and rechecked the box for the little horse, periodically taking it out to examine it, as if its folds held the answer to the questions I was asking.
When Dylan was about nine, I contracted a nasty eye infection that persisted despite several trips to the doctor. Dylan had been concerned, checking my eyes often to see if they had improved. He was always a physically affectionate child, and I can still summon the memory of his hand on my shoulder as he peered anxiously into my eyes. While I was still healing, I discovered a tiny winged horse made of folded paper carefully placed on my desk, along with a note in his childish handwriting.
The note said, “I hope my get well Pegasus makes you well. I made him espessially for you. Love, Dylan.”
– A Mother’s Reckoning by Sue Klebold
💝💔
A dash of Dyl to brighten the Monday morning. 🙂
I really enjoy your blog. Your description on top is very beautiful. ❤⭐❤
Thank you! 💞💫 C’mere Lucy! *whistles* 😽
Stop the press!
Forget everything you’ve ever learned about the tale of how the propane bombs were planted at Columbine High. We all know how slick and cool REB and VoDkA came across in the famous scene of Zero Hour. They strolled into the Commons with fierce purpose shrouded in their uber school shooter dark aesthetic: black trench coats, combat boots and shades carrying their pièce de résistance bombs in their “bags of terrorism” (yes, they referred to them as that). Casually kneeling down and setting their instruments of terror with ease right in front of their peers.
But in reality?
Well, reality paints a very different picture demonstrating how banal the entire thing looked. Amazingly ordinary and casual..yet as we’ll later learn, they almost look a little too slow pokey considering their very tight schedule.
I lightened these images up and sharpened them as well.
‘Eric’ approaching the column from the left wobbling a bit with his orange gym bag held in his right hand
A wild ‘Dylan’ lopes forth approaching the column from the left carrying his navy blue gym bag in his left hand
slowed down…
Here be some ordinary looking dudes hauling their heavy but lethal gym bags near the columns in the cafeteria. ‘Eric’s’ small frame is struggling a slight bit barely managing to prevent the bag from coming into contact with objects or people walking by. The two are having no trouble being themselves, looking effortlessly awkward yet casual af while ironically implementing something deadly..
Of course, we didn’t really expect that level of dramatic professionalism from Eric and Dylan now did we? Nah.. Not really.
This is going to be long. so read on under the cut. 🙂
And of course, in reality, the dudes would want to look as common place as possible in order to not attract attention. If we hadn’t seen these clips and thought about how they might actually look in reality lugging in their bombs, a part from the sensationalized books or dramatic movies and documentaries, ‘ordinary’ and ‘mundane’ is probably what most of us would expect and envision because it makes good sense. Dress low key and don’t attract attention. Visually seeing this sort of provokes a chuckle and sigh like ‘oh yeah..it’s just the the dudes and they’re not godlike.’ lol The boys probably sweating bullets hauling ass yet trying to appear casual and carry out their perfunctory yet grandiose tasks so as to meet their scheduled deadlines. arh arh. They were actually roughly 10 minutes a head of schedule on the ‘11:09 bomb planting task’ starting it at 10:58. woohoo.
Before I move on with dissecting the footage as to whether it’s really them (and I did have some reservations when I first viewed it), I’d like to acknowledge CVA for recently posting a video what seems to be Dylan and Eric on the CCTV footage walking into the commons with their gym bags about to plant the bombs by the columns.
Here’s the video for those who haven’t watched it yet.
CVA also claims he’s ‘not the first person to have stumbled on this footage’. Apparently, according to him, he’s the ‘one millionth and first’ to have done so. Tbh, this is the first I’ve heard about this provocative footage discovery. I agree with CVA and wonder too why haven’t more people been aware of this tiny amateur researcher discovery? I don’t recall anyone ever talking about this before in all my years of research – even on Columbine forums where anything and everything gets over discussed. JeffCo overlooked the find and stuck to their original story that the bombs were planted during the cafeteria tape change and that is why we don’t see the boys planting the bombs on tape. It doesn’t surprise me that JeffCo missed this bit and is sticking to their story about the tape change. They’ve been sloppy af throughout the entire investigation from the get-go.
Someone messaged me the other day and asked me if I aware of this video and pointed me to it. After watching it the first couple of passes, I wasn’t very convinced. I was initially stuck on CVA’s obsessing about how it was crystal clear to them about their clothing being a perfect match to what Eric was wearing at the gas station picking up propane or that you could clearly see Dylan’s ball cap on backward (I couldn’t and tbh, still have a hard time making that detail out). The video tape footage is fuzzy and poor quality and that’s important to keep in mind that not a whole heck of a lot is rather obvious at all. It just seemed that CVA stating it was so plain as day and obvious that it was the boys based on their clothing being an exact match (in his opinion anyway) combined with their visual proof to confirm it, seemed a bit flimsy. For example, I still cannot make out the distinct plaid line pattern of Eric shirts which he wore while picking up propane at the Texaco station. (Though, I can see Dylan’s plaid shirt patterning on my own no problem). People can be easily convinced by other people trying hard to convince them to the point that they too see it and become convinced themselves which is pareidolia or matrixing (if you’re into ghost hunting ;)).
After all, these could be two other boys carrying a lot of shit into the cafeteria. A lot of kids lugged around backpack and bags and whatnot. So why aren’t these two just other guys doing just that?
At a certain point after watching the vid, I took a break and revisited the clips a couple of minutes later and re watched the visuals without listening to CVA’s points of persuasion. I started discovering things on my own that made sense, for me, that these could, in fact, actually be Eric and Dylan planting the bombs (holy fuck!). What convinced me most had very little to do with sussing out clothing matches but instead, were little ‘a-ha! moments’ in relation to the mannerisms of the boys, how the two walked and carried themselves.
So, now on to the details..
First up, Eric.
Here in this photo of Eric purchasing propane early on 4/20 in which CVA draws comparisons from. He mentions that Eric had on ‘the denim shirt’ (uh..that’s not denim dude, it’s a plaid flannel shirt), the white t-shirt with ‘Natural Selection’ on it, sunglasses and black pants.
As you can see, Eric places the bag in the commons at 10:58 am. (Their scheduled time to do this task written down by Dylan was for 11:09 am.)
In terms of clothing, the only thing that is a match here is the black pants. What distinguishes this dude from others in the commons is that most probably wore jeans not dark, narrow legged black pants. The shirt that ‘Eric’ is wearing cannot be accurately deciphered as his very light and dark lined patterned plaid shirt in the above photo where he’s buying propane. Based on the quality of the video footage, the shirt vaguely translates as light colored and no distinct patterning can be accurately seen to confirm it as his plaid shirt. This is my personal opinion…
As I mentioned above, you can see that he’s lugging the light colored gym bag, which was orange, in his right hand, near the floor.
His small frame is wobbling a slight bit, trying to steer clear of it dinging anything or anyone walking nearby him with the heavy bag..He has his black backpack slung over his left shoulder and you can see the white-ish colored sleeve of his arm and elbow as he’s holding on to the backpack.
This is ‘Eric’ leaving without the bag or backpack. He’s looking pretty casual walking away having completed the task of placing/setting the bombs and is looking rather smug and carefree in his demeanor. His gait looks very much like how Eric carries his shoulders and saunters swinging his arms at his sides.
If you go with CVA’s deductions, I don’t see a distinct plaid shirt. In fact, it looks like his over shirt is not on any more and just a t-shirt. Still, it’s a murky light colored shirt on this grainy footage at best. I cannot see ‘Natural Selection’ on on the shirt, I cannot see sunglasses. Only the black pants checks out here.
Eric’s distinct, confident-ish gait and body posture. Shoulders kind of hunched forward and arms swinging at his side. This type of thing is what I especially noted and it is more of theses sorts of aspects that slam dunk it for me not the trivial slapdash clothing matches.
Now, on to Dylan..
As you can see, ‘Dylan’ places the bag in the commons at 10:59 am, one minute after Eric goes in. Again, they are 10 minutes early as the scheduled time to start the task was 11:09 am.
‘Dylan’ is obviously wearing a plaid flannel shirt because the patterning can clearly be distinguished in the footage. That to me, was easily visible. (I couldn’t buy CVA’s need to convince his audience that Eric had on a plaid shirt at all though. I simply don’t see the pattern of his shirt. If someone wants to share a clearly photo to me, I’m open to be convinced. 😉 )
The saunter of ‘Dylan’ is what convinced me more than anything else. At first I was spending time trying to make out his backward ball cap or his frizzy hair and was having a hard time making that distinction which CVA underscores as obvy. I still honestly can’t make out the ball cap just that the hair appears long and fans out – which would be in favor of him. When I looked down at ‘Dylan’s’ legs and his lumbering, lazy gait with those long strides – and, his foot aimed slightly outward, it immediately convinced me that it was, in fact, him. Again, my personal opinion here as to what convinced me.
It brought to mind his long legs and very wide stride in this photo of him in the middle NBK. Note, the foot pointed outward.
‘Dylan’ is also holding the dark navy sports gym bag (it translates on the fuzzy film footage as darker than Eric’s gym bag) and another convincing factor for me was that he is choosing to naturally carry the heavy bag in his left hand. Dylan is left handed. His large black back pack is slung over his right shoulder.
Now, lets look at Dylan’s handwritten schedule for the day: The version on the right, was his first draft that the two drew up together in Eric’s day planner. The version on the left was the last thing Dylan had written in his writings. It was probably the more accurate schedule/game plan.
At first I wondered at the time the two were planting the bombs. Because I was thinking back to all the eyewitness accounts of when people saw Dylan racing into the Columbine parking lot. .
11:10 -11:15 ish – Amanda Mandralla account 001003 Made a comment to her friend Brittany Duran as they were leaving the parking lot made Dylan seemed be in a black shirt, driving his BMW very fast, all alone, driving from the south, heading north on Pierce St. and turning into the parking lot
11:15 – 11:20 ish – Andrew Beard leaves shop class, gets in car in teacher parking lot and goes through junior to senior parking lot looking for Chad Laughlin and Tim Castle, turns down an aisle and passes Dylan coming down the same aisle on the other side. Does not know if Dylan acknowledged Beard nodding at him) – Outside Witness A-L 000685
11:10 AM – 007534 Tony Martinez (lived by in the neighborhood and drove an older BMW model, daughter Cori Martinez attended CHS) Saw Dylan turn left off Pierce St. into the Columbine HS parking lot. Dylan gave a slight wave to him as they passed each other. The two had always waved in acknowledgement when they saw each other driving past with their older BMW models Tony drove home, started to work on his shed and 11:20 began to here POP sounds.
11:15 AM – Alyssa Sechler. She left school 11:10, was driving out of Jr. Parking lot and observed Eric at approx. 11:15 driving through the road in the senior section. She waves at Eric; he waves back. (works at Ken Caryl Animal hospital, boyfriend is Derek Malin) a client, Sherry Davis said Dylan used to freq come over & visit her neighbor 15 yr old boy who dropped out of school.
Brooks Brown sees Eric unloading his car and has a verbal encounter with him “I like you now, get out of here, go home”
In connection to when the two actually placed the bombs, 10 minutes earlier and in conjunction with the time witnesses saw the boys, it would only be a painfully, very small window of time for them to leave and race back all decked out in their NBK gear complete with a trench coat filled with ammo, and of course, the shades. Yet, that’s what they did.
They made two trips, they were half dressed for NBK when they first entered the school and decided to plant the bombs and then they made another trip to ‘gear up’. The ‘gear up’ location would have needed to be super close to the school for them to plant bombs at 11 am then leave and race back to be seen by students at 11:15 am.
The nearby location that they went to Gear Up quickly within that 10 minute window was Clement Park, literally right around the block, adjacent to the school..
Dylan’s (rather elaborate) signing of Eric’s yearbook – Pt 4
MY QUOTES !!.. ->
* Dead people are the best companions, other than weapons.
*There are more than 99 ways to die…. & I thought of them!
*If I don’t like them, then they should change, or die.
*my black blood & yer white flesh.
(gotta wonder what he crossed out here…)
*I find a similarity between people & doom zombies
* Stupid people are here for my amusement.
*The reason people piss me off is to test my trigger finger, & my adrenaline
To the left, someone else’s yearbook message has been covered up
Rammstein
“Computer” Speit! (german for Spit!)
(weird jump–>)
The dude jumping is going over the water (or lava) AAAAA !
A cop (probably Officer Walsh the dude that busted them for the van theft) eating a donut exclaiming “Bastages!” (Bastards!)
Plus DOOM related stuff – (pretty intricate diagram of a DOOM level map with a hellish styx river to the right and a pentagram symbol.
Dylan’s rendering of a nerdy guy with a name on his shirt “R Becker” This would be Mr. Ricki Becker the dude they stole equipment from out of his white van. Guy looks to have sparse hair and a comb over, a geeky looking pocket full of pens and holding a ?. Next to him is a mega machine gun with ammo.
While politicians do nothing, a growing legion of cops, psychologists, and federal agents is scrambling to stem the bloodshed.
Mark Follman
Soon after the school year started in September 2000, a police officer working at McNary High in Keizer, Oregon, got a tip about a junior named Erik Ayala. The 16-year-old had told another student that “he was mad at ‘preps’ and was going to bring a gun in.” Ayala struck the officer as quiet, depressed. He confided that “he was not happy with school or with himself” but insisted he had no intention of hurting others. Two months later, Ayala tried to kill himself by swallowing a fistful of Aleve tablets. He was admitted to a private mental health facility in Portland, where he was diagnosed with “numerous mental disorders,” according to the police officer’s report.
To most people, Ayala’s suicide attempt would have looked like a private tragedy. But for a specialized team of psychologists, counselors, and cops, it set off alarm bells. They were part of a pioneering local program, launched after the Columbine school massacre the prior year, to identify and deter kids who might turn violent. Before Ayala was released from the hospital, the Salem-Keizer school district’s threat assessment team interviewed his friends, family, and teachers. They uncovered additional warning signs: In his school notebooks, Ayala had raged about feeling like an outsider and being rejected by a girl he liked. He had repeatedly told his friends that he despised “preps” and wished he could “just go out and kill a few of them.” He went online to try to buy a gun. And he’d drawn up a hit list. The names on it included his close friend Kyle, and the girl he longed for.
The threat assessment team had to decide just how dangerous Ayala might be and whether they could help turn his life around. As soon as they determined he didn’t have any weapons, they launched a “wraparound intervention"—in his case, counseling, in-home tutoring, and help pursuing his interests in music and computers.
“He was a very gifted, bright young man,” recalls John Van Dreal, a psychologist and threat assessment expert involved in the case. “A lot of what was done for him was to move him away from thinking about terrible acts.”
As the year went on, the team kept close tabs on Ayala. The school cops would strike up casual conversations with him and his buddies Kyle and Mike so they could gauge his progress and stability. A teacher Ayala admired would also do “check and connects” with him and pass on information to the team. Over the next year and a half, the high schooler’s outlook improved and the warning signs dissipated.
When Ayala graduated in 2002, the school-based team handed off his case to the local adult threat assessment team, which included members of the Salem Police Department and the county health agency. Ayala lived with his parents and got an IT job at a Fry’s Electronics. He grew frustrated that his computer skills were being underutilized and occasionally still vented to his buddies, but with continued counseling and a network of support, he seemed back on track.
The two teams “successfully interrupted Ayala’s process of planning to harm people,” Van Dreal says. “We moved in front of him and nudged him onto a path of success and safety.”
But then that path took him to another city 60 miles away, where he barely knew anyone.
The Everlasting Contrast 